BlackAndWhiteBirds
Rising Star
I'm hoping to connect with someone who can help me understand a (potentially medical) incident that occurred during my last experience.
I'm 51, no significant health issues. I'm a fairly regular user, but don't produce my own product. I mix my own vape liquid, and have the process fairly dialed in to my satisfaction. Recently, I've been vaping DMT regularly at clubs and music events.
Two weeks ago, I was doing some deep exploring of the visuals I get with while listening to music with my eyes blacked out. Depending on how much I'd consumed, I would get anything from light tracers (think the old Tempest standup video game) to very intense polygon warps. The visuals were always in sync with the music, and always symmetrical. I took many trips on the final two days (more than a dozen, less than two).
On my next-to-last trip, I noticed that the right side of the visuals had gotten somewhat jagged and irregular. I marked it as weird, but didn't think much of it. Though I noticed that the music I was hearing in my right ear was playing faster than the music in my left ear. This was new, but I've experienced speed-ups/slow-downs often on previous trips. I wondered if I was only just noticing that I was only getting them in one ear.
My last trip, the visuals on the right side had become more jagged, and then abruptly started aggressively skipping, as did the music. It was immediately obvious, compared to previous trips, that something unusual/unexpected was happening - I knew "something had gone wrong." The skipping accelerated, until I experienced what I can only describe as an abrupt jolt, and the sensation that I had been knocked completely out of my body by force. For several moments, I had an ego death on levels I've never experienced - almost total amnesia. I could tell I was still "there" only just out of reach. My room, my body, my hands, my skin - everything was wholly unfamiliar. I went into a kind of panic-autopilot: stood up, sat back down, put on my glasses, took them off, grabbed my phone, put it down - I knew what had happened, and at the same time I had no idea what had just happened.
A few moments later, I settled down enough to talk to myself out loud. "Everything's fine. Your name is XXX, you're in your room" and began reciting things about my life - as much to remind myself that I was still there as it was to test that I'd remembered them. I went for a walk to come the rest of the way down, but I was shook. I put the pen down for a ten days. I wasn't sure what had happened. Was that a brain zap? A seizure? Did I reboot?Did I break something in my brain? And of course, ever since then, every I'm hyperfocused on every sensation I have in my head.
Last night, I tried a low-dose trip to check in, and I still hear audio faster in my right ear than in my left. I backed off, but still wasn't sure if it was just me noticing the effect in my headphones when I wasn't before. This afternoon, I tried a low-does trip without headphones, with my eyes closed and blacked out. My visuals are still distorted, and even without headphones music is difficult to listen to and out of sync. That effect, thankfully, goes away when I've come down.
I did some reading. I haven't seen anything like this in an experience report before. But I can't figure out if this is a "you pushed it too hard, put it away for a few months" incident or a "maybe you should see a neurologist" incident or a "your journey with psychedelics has come to an end" incident. I'm hoping someone here will have a relevant experience, or some guidance.
Have you, or has someone you know, experienced an incident like this? Can you help me understand it, and understand how worried I should be?
I'm 51, no significant health issues. I'm a fairly regular user, but don't produce my own product. I mix my own vape liquid, and have the process fairly dialed in to my satisfaction. Recently, I've been vaping DMT regularly at clubs and music events.
Two weeks ago, I was doing some deep exploring of the visuals I get with while listening to music with my eyes blacked out. Depending on how much I'd consumed, I would get anything from light tracers (think the old Tempest standup video game) to very intense polygon warps. The visuals were always in sync with the music, and always symmetrical. I took many trips on the final two days (more than a dozen, less than two).
On my next-to-last trip, I noticed that the right side of the visuals had gotten somewhat jagged and irregular. I marked it as weird, but didn't think much of it. Though I noticed that the music I was hearing in my right ear was playing faster than the music in my left ear. This was new, but I've experienced speed-ups/slow-downs often on previous trips. I wondered if I was only just noticing that I was only getting them in one ear.
My last trip, the visuals on the right side had become more jagged, and then abruptly started aggressively skipping, as did the music. It was immediately obvious, compared to previous trips, that something unusual/unexpected was happening - I knew "something had gone wrong." The skipping accelerated, until I experienced what I can only describe as an abrupt jolt, and the sensation that I had been knocked completely out of my body by force. For several moments, I had an ego death on levels I've never experienced - almost total amnesia. I could tell I was still "there" only just out of reach. My room, my body, my hands, my skin - everything was wholly unfamiliar. I went into a kind of panic-autopilot: stood up, sat back down, put on my glasses, took them off, grabbed my phone, put it down - I knew what had happened, and at the same time I had no idea what had just happened.
A few moments later, I settled down enough to talk to myself out loud. "Everything's fine. Your name is XXX, you're in your room" and began reciting things about my life - as much to remind myself that I was still there as it was to test that I'd remembered them. I went for a walk to come the rest of the way down, but I was shook. I put the pen down for a ten days. I wasn't sure what had happened. Was that a brain zap? A seizure? Did I reboot?Did I break something in my brain? And of course, ever since then, every I'm hyperfocused on every sensation I have in my head.
Last night, I tried a low-dose trip to check in, and I still hear audio faster in my right ear than in my left. I backed off, but still wasn't sure if it was just me noticing the effect in my headphones when I wasn't before. This afternoon, I tried a low-does trip without headphones, with my eyes closed and blacked out. My visuals are still distorted, and even without headphones music is difficult to listen to and out of sync. That effect, thankfully, goes away when I've come down.
I did some reading. I haven't seen anything like this in an experience report before. But I can't figure out if this is a "you pushed it too hard, put it away for a few months" incident or a "maybe you should see a neurologist" incident or a "your journey with psychedelics has come to an end" incident. I'm hoping someone here will have a relevant experience, or some guidance.
Have you, or has someone you know, experienced an incident like this? Can you help me understand it, and understand how worried I should be?
