Hello dice68,

Welcome to the Nexus.  Thank you for writing a well thought out introduction.  I felt great resonance when you referred to waking consciousness as a dice roll.  Between close calls and "should have beens" the "gravy time" is thick and rich currently.  I've dodged death at least 5 times.  Twice in my childhood my throat was 100% blocked by objects that caused choking.  Once I was held underwater until a coming within a hair of unconsciousness and emerged with a gushing bloody nose.  Once I was invited on a road trip that resulted in all members burning to a crisp.  The laundry list goes on but the idea of consciousness as a dice roll seemed right on to me.

Not to mention how fragile it seems.  DMT can completely destroy my perceptual reality in under a minute.  I continue to be impressed by this fact.  It instills in me a hardcore open mindedness and skepticism.

Anyway, not sure why I'm writing about me other than I felt that resonance.

You mentioned doing body work.  Are you a massage therapist?  Do you have speciality area?  How long have you been involved in the field.

My sense from your essay was that you have not tried DMT yet.  I want to refer you to the wiki link in the upper right hand corner.  There are some amazing resources there including a very well written Health & Safety section and a large number of easy to use Extraction Teks that will allow you to produce DMT easily and safely in your own home.

Hope to learn a bit more about you and see you around.  Again, welcome.