Have you considered trying brews or pharma rather than smoked spice null?

I have found that with what I use, which is somewhere between brew & pharma, rue extract + brewed MHRB, that you can start with low doses of DMT & feel things out without blasting yourself into a place you are not sure about. With the right dose things are gentle & yet very powerful. One has the option to dive deeper or to remain grounded.

I cannot say in your position if it will do what it does for me, but I have found using it as a therapy session really helps to alleviate some negative energy & feelings of depression. I have learned to work through some issues within my own mind & come to terms with them, accepting them & actively using the things i have learned to improve in areas of life that i see need work.

Also, nice little friend you have there  During trips I find animals have the power to be immensely comforting beings.

It's as if they sense something occurring & protective instinct kicks in. They love snuggling up & showing affection.

I call my animals my spirit guardians. Always there to protect my vessel while I am away in hyperspace. I have yet to come back & not find a cat or dog lying next to me with a loving yet concerned look in their eyes.