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I just wanted top add a little update top the thread.I've been pretty silent about my struggles,so thought it may be helpful to share.

The last year has been tough, the losses have come hard and heavy. Death has taken my very best friend,and both of my parents.

Grief is terrible. They say that it has stages,and that they are universal to all who undergo it,and that may be true. However,the way they manifest has no script. It depends on so many variables,and is as complex as the relationship that has been lost.

I've never dealt with such pain without using numbing drugs like heroin. All I can say is that doing so is helping me to get in better touch with the "real me" than ever before.

There's a lot that goes into the loss of one's parents. The relationships with my three older siblings which is estranged to say the least,complicates things too.

All this is too much to handle alone,and being fortunate to live in a state with socialized medicine,I've been able to access private talk therapy. My therapist works with EMDR, which I saw tremendously help my dear friend that no other treatment had worked with, and a new techniques called brain spotting. Both of these therapies aim to do the same thing that psychedelic therapy does:reframe events and traumas.

It's a little early to tell,but the therapy has given me some breakthroughs that I've been unable to achieve alone. So far,it has been a freeing experience. I look forward to continuing..

Combined with psychedelic journeys,which I have not done in a very long time due too poor set and setting circumstances,therapy-with a good worker who understands and accepts my world view,has been a good experience.

Along with that,I've found that adding a whole lot of structure has helped. I discovered how much being of service helps me feel worthy, and volunteering as a reading tutor with a organization that works with developmentally disabled and neuro-diverse adults has led me to discuss an aptitude for such work as well as a deep love and affection for the population and individuals we serve. I'm also working with a local church to open during the day to let people who are without homes to have a creative space to do art, combined with a writing program sponsored by a local non profit. This takes me out of me, which can be a shitty place 24/7 without break.

Self care also involves groups classes and meetings daily. DBT is like a miracle with its effective tools, going through anger management for the third time,it's starting to catch on, a couple recovery meetings and a closed men's process group round out my week.

I'm happy that the recovery community has finally started to move away from twelve steps and complete abstinence philosophies. Harm reduction is the new paradigm,and is far more acceptable and effective for me.

TLDR: death and grief suck, therapy combined with psychedelic work is a good idea, and my life does better with structure, and when I'm being if service.

I'll edit typos later...

<blockquote data-quote="null24" data-source="post: 3773281" data-attributes="member: 7">I just wanted top add a little update top the thread.I&#039;ve been pretty silent about my struggles,so thought it may be helpful to share.The last year has been tough, the losses have come hard and heavy. Death has taken my very best friend,and both of my parents. Grief is terrible. They say that it has stages,and that they are universal to all who undergo it,and that may be true. However,the way they manifest has no script. It depends on so many variables,and is as complex as the relationship that has been lost.I&#039;ve never dealt with such pain without using numbing drugs like heroin. All I can say is that doing so is helping me to get in better touch with the &quot;real me&quot; than ever before.There&#039;s a lot that goes into the loss of one&#039;s parents. The relationships with my three older siblings which is estranged to say the least,complicates things too.All this is too much to handle alone,and being fortunate to live in a state with socialized medicine,I&#039;ve been able to access private talk therapy. My therapist works with EMDR, which I saw tremendously help my dear friend that no other treatment had worked with, and a new techniques called brain spotting. Both of these therapies aim to do the same thing that psychedelic therapy does:reframe events and traumas.It&#039;s a little early to tell,but the therapy has given me some breakthroughs that I&#039;ve been unable to achieve alone. So far,it has been a freeing experience. I look forward to continuing..Combined with psychedelic journeys,which I have not done in a very long time due too poor set and setting circumstances,therapy-with a good worker who understands and accepts my world view,has been a good experience.Along with that,I&#039;ve found that adding a whole lot of structure has helped. I discovered how much being of service helps me feel worthy, and volunteering as a reading tutor with a organization that works with developmentally disabled and neuro-diverse adults has led me to discuss an aptitude for such work as well as a deep love and affection for the population and individuals we serve. I&#039;m also working with a local church to open during the day to let people who are without homes to have a creative space to do art, combined with a writing program sponsored by a local non profit. This takes me out of me, which can be a shitty place 24/7 without break.Self care also involves groups classes and meetings daily. DBT is like a miracle with its effective tools, going through anger management for the third time,it&#039;s starting to catch on, a couple recovery meetings and a closed men&#039;s process group round out my week.I&#039;m happy that the recovery community has finally started to move away from twelve steps and complete abstinence philosophies. Harm reduction is the new paradigm,and is far more acceptable and effective for me.TLDR: death and grief suck, therapy combined with psychedelic work is a good idea, and my life does better with structure, and when I&#039;m being if service.I&#039;ll edit typos later...</blockquote>

[QUOTE="null24, post: 3773281, member: 7"] I just wanted top add a little update top the thread.I've been pretty silent about my struggles,so thought it may be helpful to share. The last year has been tough, the losses have come hard and heavy. Death has taken my very best friend,and both of my parents. Grief is terrible. They say that it has stages,and that they are universal to all who undergo it,and that may be true. However,the way they manifest has no script. It depends on so many variables,and is as complex as the relationship that has been lost. I've never dealt with such pain without using numbing drugs like heroin. All I can say is that doing so is helping me to get in better touch with the "real me" than ever before. There's a lot that goes into the loss of one's parents. The relationships with my three older siblings which is estranged to say the least,complicates things too. All this is too much to handle alone,and being fortunate to live in a state with socialized medicine,I've been able to access private talk therapy. My therapist works with EMDR, which I saw tremendously help my dear friend that no other treatment had worked with, and a new techniques called brain spotting. Both of these therapies aim to do the same thing that psychedelic therapy does:reframe events and traumas. It's a little early to tell,but the therapy has given me some breakthroughs that I've been unable to achieve alone. So far,it has been a freeing experience. I look forward to continuing.. Combined with psychedelic journeys,which I have not done in a very long time due too poor set and setting circumstances,therapy-with a good worker who understands and accepts my world view,has been a good experience. Along with that,I've found that adding a whole lot of structure has helped. I discovered how much being of service helps me feel worthy, and volunteering as a reading tutor with a organization that works with developmentally disabled and neuro-diverse adults has led me to discuss an aptitude for such work as well as a deep love and affection for the population and individuals we serve. I'm also working with a local church to open during the day to let people who are without homes to have a creative space to do art, combined with a writing program sponsored by a local non profit. This takes me out of me, which can be a shitty place 24/7 without break. Self care also involves groups classes and meetings daily. DBT is like a miracle with its effective tools, going through anger management for the third time,it's starting to catch on, a couple recovery meetings and a closed men's process group round out my week. I'm happy that the recovery community has finally started to move away from twelve steps and complete abstinence philosophies. Harm reduction is the new paradigm,and is far more acceptable and effective for me. TLDR: death and grief suck, therapy combined with psychedelic work is a good idea, and my life does better with structure, and when I'm being if service. I'll edit typos later... [/QUOTE]