Seriously concerned or just an experience.

[denyr1]

I am highly concerned about some dmt experiences I have had since my house was broken into. I had preloaded my machine and left it overnight. I came home after being out that night and decided to take a jump. Instantly after taking a hit I felt like something was wrong I had feelings as if I had been drugged. I started losing vision due to thick white and purple blanketing vision. Feelings of confusion and inability to use phone. As vision started to clear everything around me was being spray painted purple. Got up real quick headed for the door to get outside in case I passed out. Hard to manage and comprehend what I was doing. Vision cleared, calmed down and thought what just happened. Had a similar experience today after being away and preloading. This time more intense and fear of losing consciousness and getting abducted managed to get outside and locked myself in my car and waited for symptoms to wear off. Can anyone tell me if they have ever had this sort of experience?

 

[۩]

This is why we stress the importance of having a stable mind set and a safe setting. You don't feel safe in your home. Rightly so. You will never be able to let go and meld with the experience fully until you are in a position where you can tell yourself ITS GOING TO BE OK. Learning to meditate and be calm in hyperspace is not easy, its a challenge, but its something to strive towards and you will get better at it with focus and practice. Secure your home or find somewhere beautiful and secluded in nature to keep exploring. You have learned a valuable lesson here.

 

[Gone-and-Back]

I agree completely with House. These feelings are most likely coming from the fact that you do not feel safe in your own home. I know I wouldn't feel safe in my own home after something like that happening. A burglary can be a very traumatic experience.

I would suggest taking a break from doing it at home. Maybe go to a like minded friends place to explore these worlds, then you can have someone there to talk you through it as well if needed. A nice quiet, secluded spot in nature is also a good suggestion as House stated above. If you choose to do so out in nature, bring someone with you. I dont know about you, but I dont think I would feel comfortable being out in nature tripping that hard without someone there to make sure nothing bad happens.

Try looking into some security systems for your house to ease your mind regarding the burglary thing. Maybe this will allow you to feel safer and more secure for venturing in your own home. I hope you can find a way around this and feel safe in your own home again.

 

[denyr1]

Thanks for the feedback guys, indeed I have learnt a valuable lesson. You both are right, I don't feel safe and secure in my home especially when the offenders love directly over my fence and I also got broken into just after Xmas. I am moving house In the week or 2 so hopefully my state of mind and personal security will become more settled and bring some inner peace. I had no idea that I was that insecure that it would affect my dmt research in such a drastic way.