pseudonaut
Rising Star
hello nexians!
I'm rather ecstatic about these forums. as the molecule at hand has changed my perspective of life and reality.
for some time, there had been a stint of..... negativity? trying to analyze life at a completely practical standpoint, with no beneficial outcomes to myself or those around me. making sense of things made no sense to me, yet, i was compelled to attempt to do so with every obstacle, nearly every event in my life.
I only recently became acquainted with psychedelics, earlier in 2009. At which point, things seemingly became clearer. I've never been an avid user of psychs, only 4 or so ventures with psilocybin, and 3 with what I believe was true LSD (with understanding, only so many may actually be capable of synthesizing such a compound, and many blotters or anything obtainable would potentially be a number of RC's). Mushrooms themselves opened me to the idea that spirituality existed in a sense other than within a structured religion. It brought a light to my eyes that people and all living things, are interconnected, entwined in a spirit of omniscience. a spirit of the earth, or a spirit of god, whichever you will. Whereas my brief experiences with LSD broadened the spectrum of those thoughts, the idea that "everything you know is wrong", that people will say psychedelics could instill, was upon me, but in the best sense. I personally believe that more people should be open to the idea that even if without a shadow of a doubt, you think you're correct, in some sense you are wrong. i was welcoming to the idea after those experiences that there were spiritual realms other dimensions, beings beyond our comprehension, as well as the idea that there are always parallel ideologies.
I had the chance to try DMT for the first time about two years ago. none of us were certain about the best way to smoke the crystals, so we decided to roll a spliff with MJ and a bit of tobacco, and portion it throughout. the experience was mindboggling. I had heard of what it was, and since trying mushrooms and lsd, wanted to venture with this substance as well, but I had no idea at that time, what this was capable of. The dose was relatively small for three people to share, about .6 g. after a 3rd toke of the spliff, the room twisted, i felt heavy, the only light that was on in the bathroom of the hotel was gleaming golden rays and the burgundy carpets bled crimson, all things lost definition and seemed to mesh together. As I laid back onto the bed, I had a sense of seeing everything around me in a full 360 degree spectrum. I felt as though my ears were being flooded with a sensation of all the voices in a ten mile radius. I stared into the grains of the ceiling and watched them squirm like maggots and create a circle, the textures on the wall wiggled and swirled. I caught a brief glimpse of a face, in the inner circle, which still hasn't reappeared in any other experiences. then I blinked, upon reopening my eyes, the room was no longer lit, completely black and things seemed to be under a black light, (it was almost like pizza planet! if anyone is fond of toystory) livid green and neons all around, the blackness was almost blue. and the whirring and hustle and bustle gradually ceased after 5 minutes or so.
I've since been infatuated with what hyperspace is, where it can take you, what you can learn. and at the time of my first attempts to extract, my intentions were not entirely pure, which I believe led to my imminent failure.
After the failures extracting was both costly and seemed to be a waste, (I've since seen my heart and mind were in the wrong place, as I did not understand what I was striving for, or why I SHOULD) still the thoughts of it lingered and i read more things about DMT and 5MEO, such as Rick Strassman's "the spirit molecule" and Martin Balls "entheogenic evolution". My infatuation thickened.
After some trial and error things worked out and my mind was set on the right things, I've never produced more than 800mg at a time. and worked my way into the calamity of the other worlds, smoking only gradually larger doses from a rose stem four or five times.
Recently I came as close as I have ever to a breakthrough to hyperspace, my sixth, or seventh total, time venturing into this. I prepared changa for the first time,(apprx. .4 DMT : .6 Mugwort : .2 Passion Flower) and took four long tokes. at which point the joint had to be put out. 1 toke, and the trees began to flourish and move intensely, a 2nd, and the deadweight set in as the whirring crept over me, I felt like i was in the midst of a four lane interstate at 3pm. after a 3rd the confines of my physical being were entirely gone, and the fact of a 4th hit almost bewildered me after coming back. on the fourth, I lept out. I was in a tunnel of double helix, swirling in a circular pattern composed of crimsons and golds ( I've noticed a prominence of these colors) a white light closer and closer all overdrawn by a net or web of greens and purples. and before the breakthrough was accomplished I was back where i was sitting though definitely still experiencing the effects. I could see a topographical outline of the tree roots deep beneath the ground writhing and wiggling, and I experienced the patterns in the flow of the wind, it appeared as though there were several nets suspended in the air cascading over everything, at every lateral of height that the wind was blowing. geometric patterns emerged in everything, I was immensely blown away.
Since, I have come to a sense of spiritual awareness. I realize I'm still a novice and very new to these things, but entirely i feel my entity has benefited, as my pragmatic approach to life and the events in it, has ceased, and i've learned to trust in what is, and what will be. I can only change myself.
I'm rather ecstatic about these forums. as the molecule at hand has changed my perspective of life and reality.
for some time, there had been a stint of..... negativity? trying to analyze life at a completely practical standpoint, with no beneficial outcomes to myself or those around me. making sense of things made no sense to me, yet, i was compelled to attempt to do so with every obstacle, nearly every event in my life.
I only recently became acquainted with psychedelics, earlier in 2009. At which point, things seemingly became clearer. I've never been an avid user of psychs, only 4 or so ventures with psilocybin, and 3 with what I believe was true LSD (with understanding, only so many may actually be capable of synthesizing such a compound, and many blotters or anything obtainable would potentially be a number of RC's). Mushrooms themselves opened me to the idea that spirituality existed in a sense other than within a structured religion. It brought a light to my eyes that people and all living things, are interconnected, entwined in a spirit of omniscience. a spirit of the earth, or a spirit of god, whichever you will. Whereas my brief experiences with LSD broadened the spectrum of those thoughts, the idea that "everything you know is wrong", that people will say psychedelics could instill, was upon me, but in the best sense. I personally believe that more people should be open to the idea that even if without a shadow of a doubt, you think you're correct, in some sense you are wrong. i was welcoming to the idea after those experiences that there were spiritual realms other dimensions, beings beyond our comprehension, as well as the idea that there are always parallel ideologies.
I had the chance to try DMT for the first time about two years ago. none of us were certain about the best way to smoke the crystals, so we decided to roll a spliff with MJ and a bit of tobacco, and portion it throughout. the experience was mindboggling. I had heard of what it was, and since trying mushrooms and lsd, wanted to venture with this substance as well, but I had no idea at that time, what this was capable of. The dose was relatively small for three people to share, about .6 g. after a 3rd toke of the spliff, the room twisted, i felt heavy, the only light that was on in the bathroom of the hotel was gleaming golden rays and the burgundy carpets bled crimson, all things lost definition and seemed to mesh together. As I laid back onto the bed, I had a sense of seeing everything around me in a full 360 degree spectrum. I felt as though my ears were being flooded with a sensation of all the voices in a ten mile radius. I stared into the grains of the ceiling and watched them squirm like maggots and create a circle, the textures on the wall wiggled and swirled. I caught a brief glimpse of a face, in the inner circle, which still hasn't reappeared in any other experiences. then I blinked, upon reopening my eyes, the room was no longer lit, completely black and things seemed to be under a black light, (it was almost like pizza planet! if anyone is fond of toystory) livid green and neons all around, the blackness was almost blue. and the whirring and hustle and bustle gradually ceased after 5 minutes or so.
I've since been infatuated with what hyperspace is, where it can take you, what you can learn. and at the time of my first attempts to extract, my intentions were not entirely pure, which I believe led to my imminent failure.
After the failures extracting was both costly and seemed to be a waste, (I've since seen my heart and mind were in the wrong place, as I did not understand what I was striving for, or why I SHOULD) still the thoughts of it lingered and i read more things about DMT and 5MEO, such as Rick Strassman's "the spirit molecule" and Martin Balls "entheogenic evolution". My infatuation thickened.
After some trial and error things worked out and my mind was set on the right things, I've never produced more than 800mg at a time. and worked my way into the calamity of the other worlds, smoking only gradually larger doses from a rose stem four or five times.
Recently I came as close as I have ever to a breakthrough to hyperspace, my sixth, or seventh total, time venturing into this. I prepared changa for the first time,(apprx. .4 DMT : .6 Mugwort : .2 Passion Flower) and took four long tokes. at which point the joint had to be put out. 1 toke, and the trees began to flourish and move intensely, a 2nd, and the deadweight set in as the whirring crept over me, I felt like i was in the midst of a four lane interstate at 3pm. after a 3rd the confines of my physical being were entirely gone, and the fact of a 4th hit almost bewildered me after coming back. on the fourth, I lept out. I was in a tunnel of double helix, swirling in a circular pattern composed of crimsons and golds ( I've noticed a prominence of these colors) a white light closer and closer all overdrawn by a net or web of greens and purples. and before the breakthrough was accomplished I was back where i was sitting though definitely still experiencing the effects. I could see a topographical outline of the tree roots deep beneath the ground writhing and wiggling, and I experienced the patterns in the flow of the wind, it appeared as though there were several nets suspended in the air cascading over everything, at every lateral of height that the wind was blowing. geometric patterns emerged in everything, I was immensely blown away.
Since, I have come to a sense of spiritual awareness. I realize I'm still a novice and very new to these things, but entirely i feel my entity has benefited, as my pragmatic approach to life and the events in it, has ceased, and i've learned to trust in what is, and what will be. I can only change myself.
