Shooting Stars
25 November 2011
I journeyed with some shooting star mushrooms last night... They were fresh, no more than 10g. I know this may sound strange but it was the most difficult and rewarding experience of my life. It was incredibly traumatic; it’s the same feeling which has come over me a few times during some of my most recent journeys, the epiphany came crashing over me like a huge wave. For a short time I felt like I was being drowned, struggling against the might of the world and my own suffocating fear.
In an instant of a moment I made the choice to not fear the knowledge, so I gently closed my eyes and started to pour out as much compassion as I could. The compassion welled up within my heart to a point of over flowing through me, bringing on a vision of my consciousness bundled up within a seed pod deeply snuggled within the earth.
As I opened my eyes the room was covered in beautiful clouds surrounding me, as I was just coming to grips with the realization that everything material around me was a lie which I had been telling myself. Slowly I began to struggle with my realization once again; I wasn't sure as to what I should do to remedy the situation. The way, in which I want to live my life I am unable to in my society, there are very few choices that I am able to make which would be the most constructive way to deal with the complete fragmentation.
I have really been battling with the whole illusion concept that material reality is a lie which I tell myself and that everything material is all part of an unhealthy attachment which is weaved within an empty way of existing. I would really love to hear any advice that anyone could give me, which might aid me in coming to grips with the concept in its entirety.
As my first reaction was to immediately sell everything I own and buy a plane ticket to India and live in a Tibetan Buddhist monastery where I could teach Tibetan monks English. Yet when I woke up this morning I truly felt that running away wouldn't be the most constructive way to deal with the knowledge that keeps getting presented to me.
My life has been forever changed and I’m not really sure as to how I am going to be able to channel the knowledge and information I have received in the most positive and compassionate way. I know compassion is key but how do I not run away from this empty and self-orientated existence…
Much Peace and Respect
25 November 2011
I journeyed with some shooting star mushrooms last night... They were fresh, no more than 10g. I know this may sound strange but it was the most difficult and rewarding experience of my life. It was incredibly traumatic; it’s the same feeling which has come over me a few times during some of my most recent journeys, the epiphany came crashing over me like a huge wave. For a short time I felt like I was being drowned, struggling against the might of the world and my own suffocating fear.
In an instant of a moment I made the choice to not fear the knowledge, so I gently closed my eyes and started to pour out as much compassion as I could. The compassion welled up within my heart to a point of over flowing through me, bringing on a vision of my consciousness bundled up within a seed pod deeply snuggled within the earth.
As I opened my eyes the room was covered in beautiful clouds surrounding me, as I was just coming to grips with the realization that everything material around me was a lie which I had been telling myself. Slowly I began to struggle with my realization once again; I wasn't sure as to what I should do to remedy the situation. The way, in which I want to live my life I am unable to in my society, there are very few choices that I am able to make which would be the most constructive way to deal with the complete fragmentation.
I have really been battling with the whole illusion concept that material reality is a lie which I tell myself and that everything material is all part of an unhealthy attachment which is weaved within an empty way of existing. I would really love to hear any advice that anyone could give me, which might aid me in coming to grips with the concept in its entirety.
As my first reaction was to immediately sell everything I own and buy a plane ticket to India and live in a Tibetan Buddhist monastery where I could teach Tibetan monks English. Yet when I woke up this morning I truly felt that running away wouldn't be the most constructive way to deal with the knowledge that keeps getting presented to me.
My life has been forever changed and I’m not really sure as to how I am going to be able to channel the knowledge and information I have received in the most positive and compassionate way. I know compassion is key but how do I not run away from this empty and self-orientated existence…
Much Peace and Respect