Hi,

I don t have the time to really write a complete introduction here. I wrote some stuff in the first steps place, but well I need some answers and as well an upgrade to keep coming back lol. No idea what the upgrade will do to me, but maybe there s a possibillity to discuss a little deeper on the subject than just my first steps, and myself :lol: . A problem I m having right now is that I m being a source myself right now, but the last times i ve been trough the gate i just keep dying. I had it now three times, it took me like two months to go for it again. Level two, i call it the fairy tale world, ok that s no problem, but the real not on earth anymore trip pfff I just died again and this time very slowly. I was pretty much in shock my friend came looking if i was ok. I was happy to see him because for the rest i was pretty sure to be dead. The difference with the other times was that it was more slowly and that i was realising exactly what was happening. I was  the whole time losing parts of myself with the knowlegde that suddenly there was nothing going to be left. I was less affraid this time, but still, it was not nice at all. It was again really scary. I m not giving up and my question is... is the story of my trip going to change into something more agreable than dying if I learn to have no fright anymore... I have this girl that I know, she s my princess and she wants to do the trip. I want to guide her, in the first months of my eperimenting I would have been able to, but now with this very frightfull trips i m scared to pass my scaredness to her (and sister). So I feel like I have to go back and conquer or accept this deaththing... SO any of you some advice how to deal with this issue because its really scary. The only solution that i can come up with is to learn not to be scared of death anymore, but some feedback would be helpfull...

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