Very interesting story.

Real shizophrenics have no memories of their "second" part. Once they are possessed they are no longer the same person.

Some other spirit is controlling the body then.

I think other people are subconciously aware of what you think. Some are even conciously of it.

But I think, you do not have to fear to be an open book to the majority of people. The majority is spiritually underdeveloped.

Well i would recommend you, to get some sort of MAO inhibitor and start journeying with oral DMT.

This will get you to places you'd never imagine

Good luck,

Mr_DMT