Bishibashiboshi
Rising Star
Hey everybody, I've been reading up on meditation and watched a documentary concerning Buddhism. Looks like after my DMT experiences (all 2 of them) that a lot of what the guy said now resonates with me.
Anyway, I managed to obtain some high quality hashish tonight so decided to roll a pretty strong spliff, by my current standards (considering I hadn't had a smoke for months, it didn't take much).
I lay back and closed my eyes, focussing on my breathing. After a very short while, a couple of minutes tops, I could make out geometric patterns that gradually started to swirl. I've experienced this a few times in the past, but have always tended to drift off to sleep. This time I managed to somewhat keep some semblance of myself and a light formed in the centre of my vision. I felt myself slowly drifting towards it and the geometric patterns started to really go crazy! They weren't as colourful as DMT, nor as colourful as a DMT-esque dream I had, and when I questioned this a single flash of multiple bright colours illuminated the space I was in.
Now the interesting thing I noted is, after the flash I started communicating with the visuals. And they were speaking to me in the fractalised, ever changing DMT language! I was asking the shifting collage of patterns a range of questions and it was blasting its answers back to me, as though they were a single 'word', but they meant many.
A notable thing I asked was 'are you God/Gaia/Mother Nature etc?' It was playing with me and eventually it zapped me with a thought saying 'No, I am YOU, the God Within!' I opened my eyes, a bit startled, but immediately shut them again.
'I' was still there, an ever changing, shifting, ineffible multitude of prisms and interlocking, spiralling mass!
I asked it if certain life choices I was going to take would be the right ones for me. It answered on all counts (via a sparkling elliptical shape with inverted spider like legs with circles at their joints and two horizontal lines in the centre of the ellipsis) one word: 'no'.
I got a little panicky and asked it what I should do and it said with a multi-shaped, indescribable flash in the bottom right hand side of my vision 'paint'. I inquired (very perplexed by this point as I haven't painted in years), 'paint what, exactly?' It gave a monumental 'roar' back at me screaming: 'LOOK!!!'
I don't know if this was astral projection or whatever. It felt eerily similar although not as full on as a full blown DMT trip. A much tamer beast, but equally as profound as my experiences with DMT. If not more so, as I have managed to recall much more than I did with DMT. It felt very real. I'm definitely exploring this further before I venture into hyperspace fully again, as it was extremely euphoric and will give me more confidence about blasting off.
It seems as though, that even after just two doses, DMT has opened my 'Third Eye', so to speak. I know some people aren't spiritual types but this experience felt exactly that. I was speaking to my/our self/selves. It definitely had the one/everything/nothing all-we-have-is-the-moment vibration booming from its epicentre.
The thing is, I didn't think of asking these questions I was asking myself, this all flowed so fluidly that it has left me stunned that the mind really can go that deep without ultra powerful hallucinogens! Saying I'm intrigued is an understatement!
Now for the all important integration and to get to the art shop!
Anyway, I managed to obtain some high quality hashish tonight so decided to roll a pretty strong spliff, by my current standards (considering I hadn't had a smoke for months, it didn't take much).
I lay back and closed my eyes, focussing on my breathing. After a very short while, a couple of minutes tops, I could make out geometric patterns that gradually started to swirl. I've experienced this a few times in the past, but have always tended to drift off to sleep. This time I managed to somewhat keep some semblance of myself and a light formed in the centre of my vision. I felt myself slowly drifting towards it and the geometric patterns started to really go crazy! They weren't as colourful as DMT, nor as colourful as a DMT-esque dream I had, and when I questioned this a single flash of multiple bright colours illuminated the space I was in.
Now the interesting thing I noted is, after the flash I started communicating with the visuals. And they were speaking to me in the fractalised, ever changing DMT language! I was asking the shifting collage of patterns a range of questions and it was blasting its answers back to me, as though they were a single 'word', but they meant many.
A notable thing I asked was 'are you God/Gaia/Mother Nature etc?' It was playing with me and eventually it zapped me with a thought saying 'No, I am YOU, the God Within!' I opened my eyes, a bit startled, but immediately shut them again.
'I' was still there, an ever changing, shifting, ineffible multitude of prisms and interlocking, spiralling mass!
I asked it if certain life choices I was going to take would be the right ones for me. It answered on all counts (via a sparkling elliptical shape with inverted spider like legs with circles at their joints and two horizontal lines in the centre of the ellipsis) one word: 'no'.
I got a little panicky and asked it what I should do and it said with a multi-shaped, indescribable flash in the bottom right hand side of my vision 'paint'. I inquired (very perplexed by this point as I haven't painted in years), 'paint what, exactly?' It gave a monumental 'roar' back at me screaming: 'LOOK!!!'
I don't know if this was astral projection or whatever. It felt eerily similar although not as full on as a full blown DMT trip. A much tamer beast, but equally as profound as my experiences with DMT. If not more so, as I have managed to recall much more than I did with DMT. It felt very real. I'm definitely exploring this further before I venture into hyperspace fully again, as it was extremely euphoric and will give me more confidence about blasting off.
It seems as though, that even after just two doses, DMT has opened my 'Third Eye', so to speak. I know some people aren't spiritual types but this experience felt exactly that. I was speaking to my/our self/selves. It definitely had the one/everything/nothing all-we-have-is-the-moment vibration booming from its epicentre.
The thing is, I didn't think of asking these questions I was asking myself, this all flowed so fluidly that it has left me stunned that the mind really can go that deep without ultra powerful hallucinogens! Saying I'm intrigued is an understatement!
Now for the all important integration and to get to the art shop!
