drishti
Rising Star
So I have been in silence for the last few months – the reason is that I started „intensive studies” together wih my partner on the Divine Soma, or amanita muscaria / fly agaric mushroom. 
We harvested loads of amanitas from an ancient forest in Europe, from the beginning of August until late October. As we had been experimenting with these shrooms a few years before, we were curious of their effect if eaten several times a week.
Our very first amanita experience happened approx. 10 years ago, with mushrooms picked in an other region. These were extremely powerful, we had eaten 10-12 grams each (dried caps), I went into a coma-like state, while my partner was literally in trance, he was supervising me, and going out from time to time to run around a small park that was nearby, as he was bursting with energy. We were both vomiting, he had to take care of me as I was unconscious, and he remembers how effortless was for him to vomit, it was just like spitting. He recalls me being extremely scared of something, I’m glad I don’t remember any of it. :shock: Just the afterglow, that was simply fantastic. After this experience, we succeeded to harvest some more amanitas 7-8 years ago, that had absolutely no effect at all.
Now back to the present, and to our big 2011 harvest and willingness to discover the versatility of this amazing entheogen! :lol:
First trip with these shrooms took place in the first part of August, I ate approx. 10 grams of dried caps (we dried a lot of them, then cut them to small pieces and mixed them). After one hour, I started feeling just a little bit dizzy. I had to arrange something with my neighbor, so I went next door, and found that communication was simply flowing, I felt that I had so much to tell. I’m pretty sure he thought I was weird! Then I came back home and started feeling very dizzy, and my vision became fragmented, images started running out of my sight. This kind of vision is specific for amanitas, as all the experiments that followed this one made me see everything as breaking down into particles, having a specific, warm light and dropping out of sight with high speed. Actually, visions with high speed were particularly present on this first occasion, and this marked the beginning of a deep psychedelic trance. After experiencing everything around me falling rapidly apart, I felt the need of lying down. I told my partner (who had ingested a bit later 15 grams) that I felt really good, but I needed to go to bed just for a few minutes… I closed my eyes and let my spirit be guided by Soma. I had a breakthrough again, yet this time I remember everything I saw and felt, and it was truly AMAZING!!! Maybe my 10-year psychedelic apprenticeship has shown its results, that – even if I seemed to be unconscious from the outside – I enjoyed and remembered all the details of this galactic flight. I’ll try to write down these details, however they cannot reproduce the magic of the trip, as words are not enough to show the power and depth of such experiences. So, after I closed my eyes, the first thing I saw was myself, lying on the bed, not moving. I knew one thing: I was dead, and my soul had left my body. Then I started to see circles, in different colors, they resembled mandalas, and the interesting thing about these was that they appeared in many dimensions. I heard a voice inside me that was telling me all the time to look forward, and never look back. The multi-dimensional spheres started moving at a very fast pace, and I was rolling with them. Meanwhile, memories came up from my childhood, other memories that involved loved ones, and I knew I had to concentrate on not being attentive to these memories, as they would not help my spirit move forward, to another dimension of consciousness. I kept repeating what the voice said, to look forward all the time, and to erase all attachments to this lifetime. Whenever an image, a past-time memory came up, I told myself I had to accept it and move forward – all this time I had visions of fractal-like spheres, that were moving very-very fast. For me, this was the ultimate experience of trance, I was feeling an extreme state of euphoria. Coming back from this experience was also quite outstanding: the two realities (my reality, which was the trip and the everyday reality) started to merge. I saw my partner sitting next to me, and I said, oh my goodness, you are dead too! That’s why I can see you! As he started explaining that nobody’s dead, I slowly shifted towards the everyday reality, and realized the fact that this had been my most overwhelming trip in my life. After a few hours, he told me I was lying there semi- unconscious, with my eyes wide open, for 9 (!) hours. He was asking me several times if I was ok, and I could only say uhumm, and from time to time I said loudly that “this is unbelievable!!”
His experience was very close to mine, however he managed to smoke some pot so he didn’t have a breakthrough. He was enjoying a wonderful meditation for many hours, having beautiful visions and experiencing emptiness – a state I have experienced on many occasions after this deep out-of-body journey.
After this deep experience, we decided to include amanita to our regular pot-sessions. We smoke pot only 3-4 times a week, ritually, with music (mostly ambient and drones), and amanita seemed to be the perfect entheogen to enhance our meditation rituals. Thus, since August we’ve been doing these little rituals 3-4 times every week. We don’t consume as much as we would need for a breakthrough (such a tough experience is enough once a year, in my opinion). My dose consists of 4-6 grams of dried caps, my partner has more. 20 minutes after ingesting them, a slight nausea appears, however as we smoke some pot, it completely disappears. I read somewhere that amanita lifts you to the Heavens, while pot offers you the spirit of the Earth. This is so true, you literally feel you are flying away, not feeling your limbs anymore, and having warm, fragmented visions, while pot doesn’t let you step out / fall unconscious. It feels heavenly indeed. Generally, the amanita-pot combination clears your mind and enhances non-judgment and non-conceptual thinking. So it is not only pleasant for the eye (the visions of the fragmented world, made of particles is beautiful, and it is also seen with eyes closed), but pleasant for the mind also. The feeling of unity, of oneness is always present, as I become aware of the equal importance of all living beings. The whole experience is wonderful, beyond words. I can compare the trip to the ayahuasca experience, as we are regular ayahuasca drinkers. There is an inner death, followed by an emptiness (as if some kind of a lobotomy has erased all concepts created by our reality) and you know exactly where to look in order to see the true nature of things. Yes, this may sound as a Buddhist perspective, and even though we’re not practicing Buddhist religion, this way of seeing things stands closest to me, to us, and perhaps to many psychonauts, who had life- and attitude-changing experiences. Meditation was also a gift from the spirit of plants, ayahuasca opening the gate in this direction, and amanita deepening it. They have both influenced my spiritual life and values in a most positive direction, and helped me become a more humble and thankful person in a relatively short period of time.
Thank you, fellow travelers for reading my report, hopefully it contained some information you had been looking for. It would be great to read your amanita experiences or questions regarding this topic. I’m very interested in all of you who use amanita muscaria regularly, and in those who have combined amanita with ayahuasca (this is our next project). And of course, all feedback is warmly welcome!
We harvested loads of amanitas from an ancient forest in Europe, from the beginning of August until late October. As we had been experimenting with these shrooms a few years before, we were curious of their effect if eaten several times a week.Our very first amanita experience happened approx. 10 years ago, with mushrooms picked in an other region. These were extremely powerful, we had eaten 10-12 grams each (dried caps), I went into a coma-like state, while my partner was literally in trance, he was supervising me, and going out from time to time to run around a small park that was nearby, as he was bursting with energy. We were both vomiting, he had to take care of me as I was unconscious, and he remembers how effortless was for him to vomit, it was just like spitting. He recalls me being extremely scared of something, I’m glad I don’t remember any of it. :shock: Just the afterglow, that was simply fantastic. After this experience, we succeeded to harvest some more amanitas 7-8 years ago, that had absolutely no effect at all.
Now back to the present, and to our big 2011 harvest and willingness to discover the versatility of this amazing entheogen! :lol:
First trip with these shrooms took place in the first part of August, I ate approx. 10 grams of dried caps (we dried a lot of them, then cut them to small pieces and mixed them). After one hour, I started feeling just a little bit dizzy. I had to arrange something with my neighbor, so I went next door, and found that communication was simply flowing, I felt that I had so much to tell. I’m pretty sure he thought I was weird! Then I came back home and started feeling very dizzy, and my vision became fragmented, images started running out of my sight. This kind of vision is specific for amanitas, as all the experiments that followed this one made me see everything as breaking down into particles, having a specific, warm light and dropping out of sight with high speed. Actually, visions with high speed were particularly present on this first occasion, and this marked the beginning of a deep psychedelic trance. After experiencing everything around me falling rapidly apart, I felt the need of lying down. I told my partner (who had ingested a bit later 15 grams) that I felt really good, but I needed to go to bed just for a few minutes… I closed my eyes and let my spirit be guided by Soma. I had a breakthrough again, yet this time I remember everything I saw and felt, and it was truly AMAZING!!! Maybe my 10-year psychedelic apprenticeship has shown its results, that – even if I seemed to be unconscious from the outside – I enjoyed and remembered all the details of this galactic flight. I’ll try to write down these details, however they cannot reproduce the magic of the trip, as words are not enough to show the power and depth of such experiences. So, after I closed my eyes, the first thing I saw was myself, lying on the bed, not moving. I knew one thing: I was dead, and my soul had left my body. Then I started to see circles, in different colors, they resembled mandalas, and the interesting thing about these was that they appeared in many dimensions. I heard a voice inside me that was telling me all the time to look forward, and never look back. The multi-dimensional spheres started moving at a very fast pace, and I was rolling with them. Meanwhile, memories came up from my childhood, other memories that involved loved ones, and I knew I had to concentrate on not being attentive to these memories, as they would not help my spirit move forward, to another dimension of consciousness. I kept repeating what the voice said, to look forward all the time, and to erase all attachments to this lifetime. Whenever an image, a past-time memory came up, I told myself I had to accept it and move forward – all this time I had visions of fractal-like spheres, that were moving very-very fast. For me, this was the ultimate experience of trance, I was feeling an extreme state of euphoria. Coming back from this experience was also quite outstanding: the two realities (my reality, which was the trip and the everyday reality) started to merge. I saw my partner sitting next to me, and I said, oh my goodness, you are dead too! That’s why I can see you! As he started explaining that nobody’s dead, I slowly shifted towards the everyday reality, and realized the fact that this had been my most overwhelming trip in my life. After a few hours, he told me I was lying there semi- unconscious, with my eyes wide open, for 9 (!) hours. He was asking me several times if I was ok, and I could only say uhumm, and from time to time I said loudly that “this is unbelievable!!”
His experience was very close to mine, however he managed to smoke some pot so he didn’t have a breakthrough. He was enjoying a wonderful meditation for many hours, having beautiful visions and experiencing emptiness – a state I have experienced on many occasions after this deep out-of-body journey.
After this deep experience, we decided to include amanita to our regular pot-sessions. We smoke pot only 3-4 times a week, ritually, with music (mostly ambient and drones), and amanita seemed to be the perfect entheogen to enhance our meditation rituals. Thus, since August we’ve been doing these little rituals 3-4 times every week. We don’t consume as much as we would need for a breakthrough (such a tough experience is enough once a year, in my opinion). My dose consists of 4-6 grams of dried caps, my partner has more. 20 minutes after ingesting them, a slight nausea appears, however as we smoke some pot, it completely disappears. I read somewhere that amanita lifts you to the Heavens, while pot offers you the spirit of the Earth. This is so true, you literally feel you are flying away, not feeling your limbs anymore, and having warm, fragmented visions, while pot doesn’t let you step out / fall unconscious. It feels heavenly indeed. Generally, the amanita-pot combination clears your mind and enhances non-judgment and non-conceptual thinking. So it is not only pleasant for the eye (the visions of the fragmented world, made of particles is beautiful, and it is also seen with eyes closed), but pleasant for the mind also. The feeling of unity, of oneness is always present, as I become aware of the equal importance of all living beings. The whole experience is wonderful, beyond words. I can compare the trip to the ayahuasca experience, as we are regular ayahuasca drinkers. There is an inner death, followed by an emptiness (as if some kind of a lobotomy has erased all concepts created by our reality) and you know exactly where to look in order to see the true nature of things. Yes, this may sound as a Buddhist perspective, and even though we’re not practicing Buddhist religion, this way of seeing things stands closest to me, to us, and perhaps to many psychonauts, who had life- and attitude-changing experiences. Meditation was also a gift from the spirit of plants, ayahuasca opening the gate in this direction, and amanita deepening it. They have both influenced my spiritual life and values in a most positive direction, and helped me become a more humble and thankful person in a relatively short period of time.
Thank you, fellow travelers for reading my report, hopefully it contained some information you had been looking for. It would be great to read your amanita experiences or questions regarding this topic. I’m very interested in all of you who use amanita muscaria regularly, and in those who have combined amanita with ayahuasca (this is our next project). And of course, all feedback is warmly welcome!
