Jahmie
And there I travel - looking, looking breathlessly
Hello fellow travellers 
I'm very grateful to have come across this community, and at what I feel is the perfect time in my life too.
I joined a few days ago and have been wanting to post but I've been unsure what to post about. I've had an exceptional result in the one extraction I've done but I used what is only a slight variation on a tek that is already detailed here, and I think it was mainly my intention and level of love and care I put in that made the results so good, so I'm not sure what information I could add technically speaking. So I thought I'd share instead a brief as possible version of the story of what has brought me to this point in my life, and how DMT has affected and changed me so dramatically for the better
See I’ve always approached my drug taking with a mind to push myself as far as I could and have always revelled in intensity. I don’t regret taking this approach as it has lead me to learn a great deal and has developed me in a very special way I think, it did although lead me into a very self-destructive place for a while. When I was 18 things started to spiral out of control for me and I ended up developing a serious problem. At the end of a 5 month addiction to Mephedrone (the worst one for me which left me, a 6ft male, weighing 7 stone) I nearly died fitting after a three day Heroin and Valium binge followed by 2g of Mephedrone and some Ketamine. So I was in a bad place and I was struggling to get out of it. The fit shook enough sense into to stop doing Mephedrone at least but I was still unable to pull myself out of that downward trajectory. DMT, however, saved me. Or at least I was saved through DMT. For the previous year or so I had explored LSD and some other hallucinogens and had already become very spiritual as a result, developing what I feel to be a very personal connection with the universal consciousness that I have come to call Jah. How there was such an overlap between the spiritual side and the self destructive side of my drug taking I still struggle to understand, looking back the chronology, and my stupidity, confuses me. I do however know that DMT was the tipping point.
Although when I discovered it I knew how special it is and recognised that it deserves profound level of respect, and in my mind felt that I had that level of respect for it, I habitually fell into using it over and over again in very short space of time and using it perhaps inappropriately at times. I also especially do not regret this, as I of course saw and experienced things far beyond what I had ever imagined and also not only changed my perspective but something about how my brain works I think.
None the less I was abusing this most sacred of a substance and needed, it seemed, to be disciplined. The last few trips I had in this stage of my life were, in contrast to their usual profound beauty, dark and set in places of concrete and barred windows, slimed walls and strange insects. Lastly I was sent a complete black abyss, this struck the deepest chord with me because where usually in my trips I had felt Jah’s loving and embracing presence so profoundly, in this abyss I was completely and utterly alone, in nothingness. It was as though I had been allowed into God’s house and I had abused my right to be there and so was not allowed back.
The shame I felt with this realisation was unbearable and I decided to take a vow, to never do DMT again until I had earned my right to do it.
It was this that saved me. Motivating me to one by one take control of and end my addictions and furthermore to live a more healthy and fulfilling life. Also to dedicate myself to my spiritual path, which I now realise I was already on. After about a year of struggling, learning to eat right and exorcise have discipline, the last thing I did to tip my karmic scales and make up for my abuse was to make my own and set out to share it with as many people who had never experience it before as I could. This is the intention that I feel yielded the great results I mentioned I myself smoked three hits of the 5g I made, the first of which an unmeasured heap I smoked in a quarry that certainly reassured me that I had earned it because it was the single greatest experience of my life! XD
I’m now 20 years old and the healthiest and most fulfilled I’ve ever been. I find you now, having just made the decision to delve as much further into shamanic practice as I can, ready to start my second extraction and a host of experiments with Changa and other forms.
I hope you will welcome me into your community and aid me in my learning, and that I can contribute in some way to yours.
Blessings on all of you beautiful people
I'm very grateful to have come across this community, and at what I feel is the perfect time in my life too. I joined a few days ago and have been wanting to post but I've been unsure what to post about. I've had an exceptional result in the one extraction I've done but I used what is only a slight variation on a tek that is already detailed here, and I think it was mainly my intention and level of love and care I put in that made the results so good, so I'm not sure what information I could add technically speaking. So I thought I'd share instead a brief as possible version of the story of what has brought me to this point in my life, and how DMT has affected and changed me so dramatically for the better
See I’ve always approached my drug taking with a mind to push myself as far as I could and have always revelled in intensity. I don’t regret taking this approach as it has lead me to learn a great deal and has developed me in a very special way I think, it did although lead me into a very self-destructive place for a while. When I was 18 things started to spiral out of control for me and I ended up developing a serious problem. At the end of a 5 month addiction to Mephedrone (the worst one for me which left me, a 6ft male, weighing 7 stone) I nearly died fitting after a three day Heroin and Valium binge followed by 2g of Mephedrone and some Ketamine. So I was in a bad place and I was struggling to get out of it. The fit shook enough sense into to stop doing Mephedrone at least but I was still unable to pull myself out of that downward trajectory. DMT, however, saved me. Or at least I was saved through DMT. For the previous year or so I had explored LSD and some other hallucinogens and had already become very spiritual as a result, developing what I feel to be a very personal connection with the universal consciousness that I have come to call Jah. How there was such an overlap between the spiritual side and the self destructive side of my drug taking I still struggle to understand, looking back the chronology, and my stupidity, confuses me. I do however know that DMT was the tipping point.
Although when I discovered it I knew how special it is and recognised that it deserves profound level of respect, and in my mind felt that I had that level of respect for it, I habitually fell into using it over and over again in very short space of time and using it perhaps inappropriately at times. I also especially do not regret this, as I of course saw and experienced things far beyond what I had ever imagined and also not only changed my perspective but something about how my brain works I think.
None the less I was abusing this most sacred of a substance and needed, it seemed, to be disciplined. The last few trips I had in this stage of my life were, in contrast to their usual profound beauty, dark and set in places of concrete and barred windows, slimed walls and strange insects. Lastly I was sent a complete black abyss, this struck the deepest chord with me because where usually in my trips I had felt Jah’s loving and embracing presence so profoundly, in this abyss I was completely and utterly alone, in nothingness. It was as though I had been allowed into God’s house and I had abused my right to be there and so was not allowed back.
The shame I felt with this realisation was unbearable and I decided to take a vow, to never do DMT again until I had earned my right to do it.
It was this that saved me. Motivating me to one by one take control of and end my addictions and furthermore to live a more healthy and fulfilling life. Also to dedicate myself to my spiritual path, which I now realise I was already on. After about a year of struggling, learning to eat right and exorcise have discipline, the last thing I did to tip my karmic scales and make up for my abuse was to make my own and set out to share it with as many people who had never experience it before as I could. This is the intention that I feel yielded the great results I mentioned
I myself smoked three hits of the 5g I made, the first of which an unmeasured heap I smoked in a quarry that certainly reassured me that I had earned it because it was the single greatest experience of my life! XDI’m now 20 years old and the healthiest and most fulfilled I’ve ever been. I find you now, having just made the decision to delve as much further into shamanic practice as I can, ready to start my second extraction and a host of experiments with Changa and other forms.
I hope you will welcome me into your community and aid me in my learning, and that I can contribute in some way to yours.
Blessings on all of you beautiful people
