Hey floatei, good for you to join. Spice is a great key that can help free you from the trance of everyday normal reality, to make you see. It is truely a great teacher that can help expand your mind and open your eyes to what life is really about and what it has to offer. There is alot more to toiling away your whole life, getting that big house on the hill, and hoping to retire by 60 lol. Hopefully in time you will be able to speak your ideas openly to your spouse. Welcome to the nexus!