Soulshine
Rising Star
This weekend i went with a couple of friends to a cottage in the mountains. The plan was to just hang out the first night, and get to know the campgrounds and such. And the second night we planned to drink Pharma.
The sun was shining and mountain air was crisp. Everything was going great. We went on several hikes near the river, and had pleanty of quality herb to smoke for the entire trip.
...Finally it was time to drink. With all of the good vibes and positive mind set, i would have thought that the experiance would have stayed on that positive momentum. But I was wrong, I had my ass handed to me that night. I ended up being "that guy"...
I drank 200g caapi (as opposed to my usual 150) and 300mg of fb in OJ, and I weigh about 155.
We sat around the fire as the sun went down and waited for the effects to take hold. I started to feel the body buzz coming on, the visuals were just starting to slide, and colors started to change tints. And this is where I lost my mind...
Out of no where I purged (as expected). But IMMEDIATELY following that I blew a gasket some where. I blacked out for about 5 or 10 min. I lost control of my limbs (no good)!!! My friend said I wasn't having a seizure, but to the best of his knowledge i was having convulsions in my legs and arms.
The next thing that I remember is they had brought me into the house to lay me down on the couch, and i wasn't havin' it. At this point I was incredibly confused. Everything was moving so fast, like strobe light. It was like i was watching an old movie and the film was flickering. I went into the bathroom to try and compose myself somewhat and splash water on my face. I was in there for like 5min or so and stumbled out into the living room to sit. Minutes passed like hours.
For another half hour i couldn't even finish a sentence. " I'm soooooo, I'm so so so so....hehehe im ok. Don't worry. Ssssoooorrrryyyy."
I was humiliated. I imbarassed the hell out of myself. The trip had little to no focus, no direction. I had done close to this dose before, what was my problem??? I've come so far with my relationship to the vine over the last few months. Ugh!!! Very frustrating... I do remember that when cooking the brew, i asked it to break me down to the foundation and build me up. And I did feel like i had hit bottom.
The next morning I woke up feeling a little bit better about the situation. I sat down for over an hour by myself reflecting on the previous night. WHAT HAPPENED???? On one hand i'm not going to let such an experience scare me away from aya/caapi/DMT. And on the other hand I can't just dismiss it. Perhaps it was just too large of a dose.
I've decided to take a break for at least month, or maybe two from drinking any brew for sure. But I think I will still have a few changa sessions.
-On a side note, about 3 or 4 changa sessions ago, I started noticing my teeth are hurting. Has this happened to anyone else???? Does this mean im smoking too much??? Does the vapor have oils in it that eat away at tooth enamel???
Any advise, thoughts, or suggestions would be great, thanks.
Love, Life, and Music
Soulshine
The sun was shining and mountain air was crisp. Everything was going great. We went on several hikes near the river, and had pleanty of quality herb to smoke for the entire trip.
...Finally it was time to drink. With all of the good vibes and positive mind set, i would have thought that the experiance would have stayed on that positive momentum. But I was wrong, I had my ass handed to me that night. I ended up being "that guy"...
I drank 200g caapi (as opposed to my usual 150) and 300mg of fb in OJ, and I weigh about 155.
We sat around the fire as the sun went down and waited for the effects to take hold. I started to feel the body buzz coming on, the visuals were just starting to slide, and colors started to change tints. And this is where I lost my mind...
Out of no where I purged (as expected). But IMMEDIATELY following that I blew a gasket some where. I blacked out for about 5 or 10 min. I lost control of my limbs (no good)!!! My friend said I wasn't having a seizure, but to the best of his knowledge i was having convulsions in my legs and arms.
The next thing that I remember is they had brought me into the house to lay me down on the couch, and i wasn't havin' it. At this point I was incredibly confused. Everything was moving so fast, like strobe light. It was like i was watching an old movie and the film was flickering. I went into the bathroom to try and compose myself somewhat and splash water on my face. I was in there for like 5min or so and stumbled out into the living room to sit. Minutes passed like hours.
For another half hour i couldn't even finish a sentence. " I'm soooooo, I'm so so so so....hehehe im ok. Don't worry. Ssssoooorrrryyyy."
I was humiliated. I imbarassed the hell out of myself. The trip had little to no focus, no direction. I had done close to this dose before, what was my problem??? I've come so far with my relationship to the vine over the last few months. Ugh!!! Very frustrating... I do remember that when cooking the brew, i asked it to break me down to the foundation and build me up. And I did feel like i had hit bottom.
The next morning I woke up feeling a little bit better about the situation. I sat down for over an hour by myself reflecting on the previous night. WHAT HAPPENED???? On one hand i'm not going to let such an experience scare me away from aya/caapi/DMT. And on the other hand I can't just dismiss it. Perhaps it was just too large of a dose.
I've decided to take a break for at least month, or maybe two from drinking any brew for sure. But I think I will still have a few changa sessions.
-On a side note, about 3 or 4 changa sessions ago, I started noticing my teeth are hurting. Has this happened to anyone else???? Does this mean im smoking too much??? Does the vapor have oils in it that eat away at tooth enamel???
Any advise, thoughts, or suggestions would be great, thanks.
Love, Life, and Music
Soulshine
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