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Mz.Gypzy

Mz.Gypzy

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Hello All,

I have been reading around on the forum for weeks now, and I wanted to thank everyone here for there wealth of knowledge and experiences. I heard about DMT years ago and thought it sounded very interesting, but never had any come my way.
I have used and experimented with several other psychedelics through out my life along with many other not so enlightening drugs.
I have always considered myself a psychonaut trying to explore the inner working of my mind, and the world. I have done work with lucid dreaming, transcendental meditation, and out of body experiences with substances.
I am pleased to have found a place where I can learn so much, from people so experienced.
I recently made My first trip into the place you call hyperspace and I am in shock and awe. Wow.
I went in alone (without a sitter) I don't want to go into a big detailed description just yet because I am not sure this is where it goes? Also this is only my first post to the forum, but soon.. I def want to share it soon.
That is the thing, when I came back I felt kind of alone. There is no one that really share these same interests as me.
If I called a friend and tried to even explain what happened, they would probably think I was crazy.😉
That is why I am so thankful this place is here and filled with all of you.

I am looking forward to being a part of the discussions, and sharing my experiences with all of you.
Just so you know. I am not skilled in actually contributing to a forum. I have just always been a lurker. So forgive me if I don't always done things properly.
 
Hey Mz. Gypzy,

Thank you for the taking the time to write us an introduction essay.

I, and many others, know exactly how you feel in regards to being considered crazy.
It's really kind of funny that DMT provokes these kinds of reactions. I think honestly that is something it is trying to tell us...

When I used to explore DMT heavily I would always come back with that alone feeling, but I just swept it aside because I knew it was just part of the process. I knew if I wanted to really see, I had to keep going, even if I was alone.

This forum makes this kind of stuff a lot easier because we can all relate to each other here. Let us know if you have any questions ever and I am looking forward to hearing more from you. ;]

See you around the Nexus!
 
Don't be too afraid to talk to people you know IRL about your experience as long as they are trustworthy individuals.

I have had better luck reaching out to my friends who have never tried DMT. Apparently, they were more interested to hear about my experience than those who read these forums were. I created two threads pertaining to my own DMT experiences here, and neither received any replies at all. Yet, my friends have since even approached me and will strike up a conversation to ask for further details.

My journeys with DMT have already shown me in this regard that not all is as it seems. You could very well find yourself pleasantly surprised at how much intrigue there may be among those you know IRL, just as you may be unpleasantly surprised at how little acceptance you may find where you would expect to receive it most.

Despite my own bad luck in fostering the interest of others, writing about my experiences was a very rewarding exercise nonetheless. There's certainly a sense of fulfillment with actually putting an experience into words. Take care with your expectations, though - I for one will never count on someone I cannot see face-to-face to lessen that feeling of being alone :)
 
Mz.Gypzy said:
Just so you know. I am not skilled in actually contributing to a forum. I have just always been a lurker. So forgive me if I don't always done things properly.
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I'm pretty sure you'll do just fine. Contributing is as simple as typing out your questions, thoughts, and feelings on a given topic and hitting the post button. If there is something you dont know or arent sure of and you cant find the info by searching, just start a thread and ask. Its nice to have you on board.

Welcome
 
Welcome. The experience can be alienating, but everyone here has likely felt the same thing at one time or another. Take some time to integrate and pour it all out right here.

To Naepius - I'm sorry you didn't get responses to your trip report and can imagine your disappointment. I can only say that there are a lot of them here everyday, so they can sometimes overwhelm. I just gave it a read however and found it to be a cracking good yarn. So, keep on posting and don't get discouraged. You'll get the feedback you're looking for.
 
naepius said:
Don't be too afraid to talk to people you know IRL about your experience as long as they are trustworthy individuals.

I have had better luck reaching out to my friends who have never tried DMT. Apparently, they were more interested to hear about my experience than those who read these forums were. I created two threads pertaining to my own DMT experiences here, and neither received any replies at all. Yet, my friends have since even approached me and will strike up a conversation to ask for further details.

My journeys with DMT have already shown me in this regard that not all is as it seems. You could very well find yourself pleasantly surprised at how much intrigue there may be among those you know IRL, just as you may be unpleasantly surprised at how little acceptance you may find where you would expect to receive it most.

Despite my own bad luck in fostering the interest of others, writing about my experiences was a very rewarding exercise nonetheless. There's certainly a sense of fulfillment with actually putting an experience into words. Take care with your expectations, though - I for one will never count on someone I cannot see face-to-face to lessen that feeling of being alone :)
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Sometimes, if everything seems "OK" with the experience, then nobody sees a need to respond. It's not that people don't care or aren't interested...
 
Hi everyone,
Thank you for welcoming me to the Nexus! I am pleased to be here.

@ naepius- I agree. I have shared my experience with some of my closest IRL people like my husband. But since he has never had the experience himself he cant really relate (He is not sure when or, If he wants to partake). Also since the topic of DMT has been a large focus in my life the last several weeks he is a little tired of hearing about it. which I understand, but is also why I turned here.

After my first time, I was in shock. No matter how many trip reports you read, or how good of an imagination you have its just not possible to understand until it happens. It was unlike any other substance I have taken.

I do have a question about the forum. I have read several times that there is no need to SWIM here. That the forum is encrypted? Not sure what that means?
So I am a little hesitant to post any details.

So before I answer any questions like the one posted by JuremaSpaceship I would like to feel more comfortable.


Or at least be able to state in a tag. That I have a very active imagination, Mz.Gypzy is a completely fictional character everything that she writes, posts, responds to, is complete fiction and is not real. It is Just a way that she entertains herself and others. Nothing is to be taken seriously. It is all a lie.

Thanks again for welcoming me. And expect and first time report soon.
 
Mz.Gypzy said:
I do have a question about the forum. I have read several times that there is no need to SWIM here. That the forum is encrypted? Not sure what that means?
So I am a little hesitant to post any details.



Or at least be able to state in a tag. That I have a very active imagination, Mz.Gypzy is a completely fictional character everything that she writes, posts, responds to, is complete fiction and is not real. It is Just a way that she entertains herself and others. Nothing is to be taken seriously. It is all a lie.

Thanks again for welcoming me. And expect and first time report soon.
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regardless swim wont protect you, everyone knows its you :)
if you are not in a safe space, dont post any incriminating info. that said, we are in a very small niche(very small fish as far as leo goes)
yeas you can add a disclaimer to your signature if you like, go to your profile/signature
ps,
welcome aboard, we are glad to have you!~
 
naepius said:
Don't be too afraid to talk to people you know IRL about your experience as long as they are trustworthy individuals.

I have had better luck reaching out to my friends who have never tried DMT. Apparently, they were more interested to hear about my experience than those who read these forums were. I created two threads pertaining to my own DMT experiences here, and neither received any replies at all. Yet, my friends have since even approached me and will strike up a conversation to ask for further details.

My journeys with DMT have already shown me in this regard that not all is as it seems. You could very well find yourself pleasantly surprised at how much intrigue there may be among those you know IRL, just as you may be unpleasantly surprised at how little acceptance you may find where you would expect to receive it most.

Despite my own bad luck in fostering the interest of others, writing about my experiences was a very rewarding exercise nonetheless. There's certainly a sense of fulfillment with actually putting an experience into words. Take care with your expectations, though - I for one will never count on someone I cannot see face-to-face to lessen that feeling of being alone :)
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You really hit the nail on the head ! Either your in the forum clique or your not.even in chat no one is talking about feelings related to usage.I too had to confide in a non using friend and he is excited to listen .thanks for sharing !
 
My experience is a little different. I am blessed with a girlfriend who understands and accepts my quirkiness. She has...experiences by herself without the need for Gateways. My family has always dabbled in the paranormal. So as a kid I grew up with stories about family members doing this and that and some stories would raise your hair up.

Unfortunately my life brought me to a point where friends is a,luxury I have to do without. But isn't it wonderful that we can talk to each other on fora such as this. This is our peer group MKenna would say. You will notice that I refer to McKenna a lot. He is currently my anchor point to all of this. I understand that not everyone is as taken in by him as I am at the moment...

But I wished I had friends, to talk to, to share my experiences with. So to me the doubt of being able to share these things with people you can see, smell, touch is a luxury problem of sorts. I also wished I had some irl friends to get loaded with, like I used to have as a teen, the extent to which that went was cannabis and no more than that. And alcohol is you want to include that into these categories. For some reason I cannot include such a toxic substance at all.

It seems to me that we should be careful who to discuss such things with. There are people who might yet surprise you with their open mindedness, yet to me it would seem logical that striking up a conversation with a religious person will decrease your chance of finding such a mindset towards the topic. Religion seeks a monopoly on spirituality. That flies in the face of any self-respecting psychonaut I would think. So there are less likely places or associations that people have to open up into. You might find an artist scene that has interest in these things of course.

That gives me a slight self-reflective moment here since I also, through my life, have had this creative thing going on. Even as a child I wanted to be a writer. I have a huge imagination but no discipline at all to write, maybe not even the skills required for it. In any case, the creative-spiritual link is clear to all I assume.

But in general terms, away from any sort of scene or community, there are many people without strict adherence to any religion, philosophy or otherwise affiliated with some scope-limiting dogma, who would not immediately shy away from hearing about these experiences.

You know, once I read a something on how, as a witch, you can send signals to like minded people, by putting appropriate flowers in your home around the dates that are associated with calendral (if that is a word - sorry, English is not my native language - and if it is not, it is now I suppose :) in an ontological sense) events, which are tied to the seasons and solstices and what have you.

So putting the right paraphernalia in place when receiving visitors could act as a cultural filter to select people who are open to these things. :)

I strongly believe that society needs visionaries and that those with the courage to proceed into these realms are not necessarily regarded as loonies. People are afraid to try these things out themselves and are curious about it. I think maybe the whole art scene is a reflection of human beings' inner need for vision and guidance. It seems to me that art itself is an approximation for the psychedelic experience and that art blooms most profoundly where culture represses the Mystery.

Personally I have been talking more openly about this interest without admitting having done it to just about everyone. But people can add the numbers up easily, yet they do not seem to reject it downright. I should say that it us us who are visonaries or pathfinders into these realms need not be afraid but speak more openly so we, who else but we, give cultural permission for these experiences.

Since this path is the one that chose me as a Traveler, since my life has been the eldritch fork in the road I wish these days I wcould speak irl more directly to people. But I am a shy person in nature and carry my own distorted self-image and a backpack of trauma around - there is a reason for psychedelic intervention if there ever was one - I cannot see myself do what McKenna did. Well, I guess he had his life altering experiences in La Chorrera but I lack such a fundamental reprogramming by the Mystery in order for me to be able to speak to any crowd.

I...seem to have introduced myself more in these last posts in reply to others then I did in my own introduction... I guess I prefer to take the words and ideas of others as a stepping stone for my own thoughts and wordiness.
 
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