monatomicgold
Rising Star
greetings brothers and sisters...
i feel its finally time to introduce myself to the nexus community. i've been a member for some time, and actually have intimate ties to nexians in the real world including olympus mon, idtravlr, antrocles, icehouse, and others. its actually my boyfriend, olympus mon, who i owe a huge amount of gratitude for his gentle nurturing and support over the past year and a half in my quest to explore the inner dimensions. in some way, my "coming out" is in anticipation of his plan to leave the comforts of home and travel the world. when he leaves (insert bittersweet face) i will no longer have within arms reach the wisdom of a seasoned veteran psychonaut and thus anticipated a time when i will be forced to take my pharmacological education into my own hands. i feel that time is now.
my interest in psychedelics stems from a slight obsession with unraveling the secrets of the universe. i have always been intrigued with the unknown, taboo and occult… i remember my mother taking us kids to the library when we were younger, and while my brothers and sister were fighting over which disney movie to bring home, i was off in science and mathematics reading about black holes and quantum physics. i was probably 9 or 10. on the days my head needed a rest, i would wander into various esoteric sections and read about astrology and ancient cultures. i recall coming across the mayan "end date" and, slightly out of morbid curiosity, wrote it down and took it home for future reference.
needless to say, and since i can't possibly say it all, these interests coupled with a talent for the arts and lucid dreaming, has led me deeply into the realm of the imagination so it only seems natural that my path continues into the inner dimensions. a short history: mary jane was my first. she freed my mind and allowed me to think outside the box and was a companion for many years. unfortunately, over time she became too much for my already analytical processes and we have since gone on an indefinite break. i do smoke socially, occasionally, but after some very powerful bad trips, i am careful not to overstep my limits. amazingly, dmt was next. it is my current passion and we get along very nicely, although it's far from a cake walk. if marijuana was a light on my fears and paranoia, dmt is a laser on a sharks head. i've dabbled with psilocybin but have yet to go big. lsd has only very recently come my way (actually, all except marijuana have come to me only in the past year and a half) and its been an incredible teacher. my first acid trip (out of two) was a biggin'… it blew me apart… i touched source and came back only to sink deep into the darkest corners of my psyche, where i hid until morning. i'm a fan of molly for a good time, not a fan of coke, and i've gone hard on 2cb once, which i enjoyed. i hope to elaborate on some of these experiences, and future experiences, in trip reports. my entheobotany experiences are limited to the growing and harvesting of marijuana, and under the watchful eye of olympus mon, the extraction of dmt using the q21 tek.
on a related note, i have been a member of online communities before and truly and intimately know their power. i had a very profound experience a few years ago which involved a conversation between myself and members of a site called reality sandwich… at the time i had a lot of free time and thus spent hours upon hours navigating the digital matrix in search of relief for my endless probing about life and existence. the conversation in particular was in response to a relatively unremarkable topic but it sparked a rather knee-jerk reaction in me and out came my polarizing negative feminine (not to mention scorpionic) energy. the reaction was strong, understandably, and it catalyzed a massive shift in my awareness in which the focus of the, albeit loving and open, community weeded out my demons and i was forced deal with them in public, no less. veils were lifted. in one night i felt i gained the experience of multiple lifetimes and felt incredibly charged. in turn, this shift in vibration birthed the space for an equally profound experience only days later in which i was detained by immigration agents while living in europe. let's just say true alchemy happened in a cell that night. and the synchronicities that began happening as a result were beyond comprehension… another story. still, in response to such a powerful experience, i've shied away from online communities… partly because i've become very zen these days and cease the desire to impose my opinions on others like i did in the past, and partly because i know the incredible power of these communities to catalyze change and frankly, there is no lack of change in my life. i knew there would be a time when i felt ready to dive back in. again, i feel that time is now.
my hope here is to connect with like-minded folk, share thoughts on art and culture, and take advantage of the wealth of knowledge and wisdom the nexus provides to ultimately nurture a healthy relationship with spice and other entheogens.
with much love and gratitude,
and a taste of my art,
monatomic gold
i feel its finally time to introduce myself to the nexus community. i've been a member for some time, and actually have intimate ties to nexians in the real world including olympus mon, idtravlr, antrocles, icehouse, and others. its actually my boyfriend, olympus mon, who i owe a huge amount of gratitude for his gentle nurturing and support over the past year and a half in my quest to explore the inner dimensions. in some way, my "coming out" is in anticipation of his plan to leave the comforts of home and travel the world. when he leaves (insert bittersweet face) i will no longer have within arms reach the wisdom of a seasoned veteran psychonaut and thus anticipated a time when i will be forced to take my pharmacological education into my own hands. i feel that time is now.
my interest in psychedelics stems from a slight obsession with unraveling the secrets of the universe. i have always been intrigued with the unknown, taboo and occult… i remember my mother taking us kids to the library when we were younger, and while my brothers and sister were fighting over which disney movie to bring home, i was off in science and mathematics reading about black holes and quantum physics. i was probably 9 or 10. on the days my head needed a rest, i would wander into various esoteric sections and read about astrology and ancient cultures. i recall coming across the mayan "end date" and, slightly out of morbid curiosity, wrote it down and took it home for future reference.
needless to say, and since i can't possibly say it all, these interests coupled with a talent for the arts and lucid dreaming, has led me deeply into the realm of the imagination so it only seems natural that my path continues into the inner dimensions. a short history: mary jane was my first. she freed my mind and allowed me to think outside the box and was a companion for many years. unfortunately, over time she became too much for my already analytical processes and we have since gone on an indefinite break. i do smoke socially, occasionally, but after some very powerful bad trips, i am careful not to overstep my limits. amazingly, dmt was next. it is my current passion and we get along very nicely, although it's far from a cake walk. if marijuana was a light on my fears and paranoia, dmt is a laser on a sharks head. i've dabbled with psilocybin but have yet to go big. lsd has only very recently come my way (actually, all except marijuana have come to me only in the past year and a half) and its been an incredible teacher. my first acid trip (out of two) was a biggin'… it blew me apart… i touched source and came back only to sink deep into the darkest corners of my psyche, where i hid until morning. i'm a fan of molly for a good time, not a fan of coke, and i've gone hard on 2cb once, which i enjoyed. i hope to elaborate on some of these experiences, and future experiences, in trip reports. my entheobotany experiences are limited to the growing and harvesting of marijuana, and under the watchful eye of olympus mon, the extraction of dmt using the q21 tek.
on a related note, i have been a member of online communities before and truly and intimately know their power. i had a very profound experience a few years ago which involved a conversation between myself and members of a site called reality sandwich… at the time i had a lot of free time and thus spent hours upon hours navigating the digital matrix in search of relief for my endless probing about life and existence. the conversation in particular was in response to a relatively unremarkable topic but it sparked a rather knee-jerk reaction in me and out came my polarizing negative feminine (not to mention scorpionic) energy. the reaction was strong, understandably, and it catalyzed a massive shift in my awareness in which the focus of the, albeit loving and open, community weeded out my demons and i was forced deal with them in public, no less. veils were lifted. in one night i felt i gained the experience of multiple lifetimes and felt incredibly charged. in turn, this shift in vibration birthed the space for an equally profound experience only days later in which i was detained by immigration agents while living in europe. let's just say true alchemy happened in a cell that night. and the synchronicities that began happening as a result were beyond comprehension… another story. still, in response to such a powerful experience, i've shied away from online communities… partly because i've become very zen these days and cease the desire to impose my opinions on others like i did in the past, and partly because i know the incredible power of these communities to catalyze change and frankly, there is no lack of change in my life. i knew there would be a time when i felt ready to dive back in. again, i feel that time is now.
my hope here is to connect with like-minded folk, share thoughts on art and culture, and take advantage of the wealth of knowledge and wisdom the nexus provides to ultimately nurture a healthy relationship with spice and other entheogens.
with much love and gratitude,
and a taste of my art,
monatomic gold
