Hello WantSpice,

Welcome to the Nexus.  That was a fascinating Introduction Essay.  Like many folks here, your life sounds like it has been quite the journey to date and that perhaps the journey has just begun, .

May I ask, since you referenced opiates, are you completely clean?  Or, alternatively, do you take them under the supervision of a doctor?  A lot of folks here have detoxed from opiates and have switched to visionary entheogens. 

You have come to the Nexus during a time of evolution as one plant source dries up and others become available.  As Dr. Shulgin said, DMT is Everywhere.  And Nexians are doing the research and analysis to find it and make it easily extractable. 

I hope you will take a good look around.  This place is huge with a lot going on.  Something to interest just about everyone and to encourage participation.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.