Sat nam and thanks for taking the time to read your sisters post
After much reading, extraction, more reading, your sister embarked on her initial exploration of hyperspace. As suggested in multiple threads, sister started with small doses and has been slowly working her way up to doses that she hopes will eventually result in a breakthrough, refining her technique as she goes.
Dose one: 12 mgs toe in the water type of experience - Sister was overwhelmed by the initial intensity, but found the experience to her taste and manageable.
Dose two: 20 mgs - Still getting used to the lift off, but this was another enjoyable experience, especially experiencing her fears and anxieties evaporate mid lift off, patterns were sublime, nice.
Dose three 32 mgs - Poor technique led to poor vapourization, lost vapour, and left overs in the pipe. This experience was a little manic as she was trying to get three tokes in, but only managed one and a half. Again, nice patterns and very strong sense of a female presence during this trip. She got the impression that the female presence was also aware of her.
Got some advice on technique here
Dose four 20 mgs - Perfect technique, nothing lost. A sublime experience, nice CEVs with a pattern similar to that experienced on all previous trips. Disengaged with ego to some extent on this one, very nice.
Dose five 25 mgs - Patterns similar to previous, ego disengagement or third person perspective of herself in realized.
here is where things start to get interesting/freaky
Dose six 30 mgs - Really got the technique down now, towards the end of the visual trip the patterns start to sprout legs that are propelling the patterns patterns in circles. The legs are like those of circus performers in tights, brightly coloured. Not sure if the was the threshold of breaking through or not, but Sister starts to take things a bit more seriously.
Dose seven 32 mgs - Similar to 30mgs in terms of patterns except that this time there were no legs, but something moving too fast to really register goes flying through the patterns a in a zig zag, this experience seems darker than the previous and this "entity" seemed less that benign. Sister planned on dosing the following day again, but was a little freaked out by the this experience and couldn't work up the nerve to go deeper.
Dose eight 35 mgs - Maybe sister is getting superstitious but she is nervous from the last trip and decides some protection is in order before increasing the dose, so this trip she is dressed all in white. She considered making a circle of protection but in the end uses a protection mantra four times before the trip starts, once east, once south, once west and finally north.
This was by far the smoothest transition from day to day to dmt world she has experienced, there was a being here, but no humanoid, more like an ephemeral butterfly or manta ray that fluttered about her face. She seemed to be holding darker presences at bay. The patterns were not as pronounced as on previous trips, but the bliss was out of this world.
Dose nine 38 mgs -Same sitting as the previous trip an hour later, this time the mantra was chanted eight times, twice to each cardinal point. It seemed as though there was a lot more smoke this time. The lift off was very intense, as was the disorientation. She couldn't even remember hat she was doing dmt or how much or where she was. She didn't know if her eyes were opened or closed. She seemed to be a much brighter space this time and she was unsure how long she was in this space, but it seemed longer than previous trips. This trip was characterized by confusion during and afterwards. Coming down she didn't really know what had gone on, although it seemed much more intense. More than anything it seemed to leave her with a big question mark, like wtf just happened?
Epilogue:
Sister is unsure how to proceed, she would like to continue to increase the dose to better explore this strange new world, but the last trip she felt like she came back empty handed, confused and disoriented and worries that increasing the dose would only exaggerate those aspects, resulting in diminishing returns. She feels that stopping now, she would only hate herself for being afraid to go deeper into the cave, but at the same time doesn't want to be reckless. She feels like she is standing at the gate and can't decide whether to cross the threshold.
Questions:
Is this a block that just needs to be worked through or is the disorientation a sign that maybe sister sweet spot is lower than the last dose and that she shouldn't go deeper. Any advice or common experience would be welcome.
After much reading, extraction, more reading, your sister embarked on her initial exploration of hyperspace. As suggested in multiple threads, sister started with small doses and has been slowly working her way up to doses that she hopes will eventually result in a breakthrough, refining her technique as she goes.
Dose one: 12 mgs toe in the water type of experience - Sister was overwhelmed by the initial intensity, but found the experience to her taste and manageable.
Dose two: 20 mgs - Still getting used to the lift off, but this was another enjoyable experience, especially experiencing her fears and anxieties evaporate mid lift off, patterns were sublime, nice.
Dose three 32 mgs - Poor technique led to poor vapourization, lost vapour, and left overs in the pipe. This experience was a little manic as she was trying to get three tokes in, but only managed one and a half. Again, nice patterns and very strong sense of a female presence during this trip. She got the impression that the female presence was also aware of her.
Got some advice on technique here
Dose four 20 mgs - Perfect technique, nothing lost. A sublime experience, nice CEVs with a pattern similar to that experienced on all previous trips. Disengaged with ego to some extent on this one, very nice.
Dose five 25 mgs - Patterns similar to previous, ego disengagement or third person perspective of herself in realized.
here is where things start to get interesting/freaky
Dose six 30 mgs - Really got the technique down now, towards the end of the visual trip the patterns start to sprout legs that are propelling the patterns patterns in circles. The legs are like those of circus performers in tights, brightly coloured. Not sure if the was the threshold of breaking through or not, but Sister starts to take things a bit more seriously.
Dose seven 32 mgs - Similar to 30mgs in terms of patterns except that this time there were no legs, but something moving too fast to really register goes flying through the patterns a in a zig zag, this experience seems darker than the previous and this "entity" seemed less that benign. Sister planned on dosing the following day again, but was a little freaked out by the this experience and couldn't work up the nerve to go deeper.
Dose eight 35 mgs - Maybe sister is getting superstitious but she is nervous from the last trip and decides some protection is in order before increasing the dose, so this trip she is dressed all in white. She considered making a circle of protection but in the end uses a protection mantra four times before the trip starts, once east, once south, once west and finally north.
This was by far the smoothest transition from day to day to dmt world she has experienced, there was a being here, but no humanoid, more like an ephemeral butterfly or manta ray that fluttered about her face. She seemed to be holding darker presences at bay. The patterns were not as pronounced as on previous trips, but the bliss was out of this world.
Dose nine 38 mgs -Same sitting as the previous trip an hour later, this time the mantra was chanted eight times, twice to each cardinal point. It seemed as though there was a lot more smoke this time. The lift off was very intense, as was the disorientation. She couldn't even remember hat she was doing dmt or how much or where she was. She didn't know if her eyes were opened or closed. She seemed to be a much brighter space this time and she was unsure how long she was in this space, but it seemed longer than previous trips. This trip was characterized by confusion during and afterwards. Coming down she didn't really know what had gone on, although it seemed much more intense. More than anything it seemed to leave her with a big question mark, like wtf just happened?
Epilogue:
Sister is unsure how to proceed, she would like to continue to increase the dose to better explore this strange new world, but the last trip she felt like she came back empty handed, confused and disoriented and worries that increasing the dose would only exaggerate those aspects, resulting in diminishing returns. She feels that stopping now, she would only hate herself for being afraid to go deeper into the cave, but at the same time doesn't want to be reckless. She feels like she is standing at the gate and can't decide whether to cross the threshold.
Questions:
Is this a block that just needs to be worked through or is the disorientation a sign that maybe sister sweet spot is lower than the last dose and that she shouldn't go deeper. Any advice or common experience would be welcome.
