Thank you all for the good direction in placing my thoughts. 

SWIM's hopes are that DMT will provide a new experience that opens up acceptance of the spiritual research that has been done.  There is no expectations of curing anything or coming to any great revelations.

Admittedly, SWIM knows nothing of the experience but from the research has come to believe it's an effective way to refresh one's view of reality.  Hopefully the result will be to step closer to perceiving this moment as a precious dream. 

Spiritual drive has always been a big part of SWIM's life and will never stop.  How can one explain or justify the passion for spirituality ?  But it's there in full force 

The last 14 years of life has been constant work and school.  The odds have been beaten, SWIM is now capable of supporting himself and his Family.  Time to slow done and listen seems very appropriate at this point in life.  There are a number of questions that need to be answered:

  - Start a Family and settle down ?

  - Become a Bodhisattva for Detroit ?

  - Is SWIM capable of truly being a Bodhisattva ?