Dear nexians
This might become a long one so buckle up for a read. This is a trip report from my trip/ritual on the 21. of June 2025. Now the avid reader will notice that this was presumably written earlier, since it was posted earlier. This is because the preparation starts now, as I decided to treat this writing up as a technology for preparation and probably integration as well. You are cordially invited to chime in with good vibes and intentions, let this ritual be a collective becoming, as all becoming is collective.
Setting out
I an unsure if I really believe in Magick, or modern witchcraft, however I would describe myself as Christian mystic – not meant as a pretentious title, but rather that I am a nerd and read Eckhart, von Bingen, Porète and other mystics. Yet, on the 21.6, summer solstice, I will cast a spell. I won't explain here exactly how I understand modern witchcraft or spells, because I only have 3 days left and things to do.
In short what I will do is the following. Tomorrow I will go to my forest, for the last time in a while, as I will explain somewhere below. There I will forage edible mushrooms and plants for the spell, some will also be from my garden. I don’t expect to find mushrooms, for it is bone dry out here, but no one commands the fungi, so who knows. I will forage some plants that grow abundantly and vigorously, since the spell for that, abundance and growth. These plants are then bundled together and somewhat dried over these 3 days, during which I will from time to time interact with them imparting my intentions on them, so they might be channelled at the actual ritual. Which is burning them in the fire bowl in the garden. Now this would not be on the DMT Nexus in the mushrooms section, if no mushrooms were involved. As I will ingest some mushrooms before, I have yet to decided on whether I go for Psilocybe ochraceocentrata or Psilocybe tampanensis fruit and on the exact timing of ingestion and burning the bundle. I expect I’ll feel when time is right during the trip. Mode of ingestion will be as a tea, or hot chocolate, but I will have to look up substace interaction on that. If inconclusive, it's a tea for me.
Setting an intention
Normally the idea is to have a single focussed intention to go with. However, that is not how I feel to do things. My mind is like mycelium; it grows in multiple directions.
So over the next 2 days I will think through aspects of my current life that I am unhappy with, anxious about, that I wish insight on and grow beyond. I will write them up here sometime during the next two days. Aspects I already know I want to touch on are: my future in academia, Jobs, moving to the city by the end of June, the loveliest person I know (but am I gay for her? I don’t know), my master’s thesis.
But, on the third day, 21.6., I will focus on the things that are going well, which are – weirdly – my future in academia, moving to the city, this person I met raising baby birds together, my master’s thesis. I expect some responses on a few additional jobs I applied for, so that may eventually join the list as well.
And on the solstice, the time where there is most vibrancy, where the things we set up come start coming to fruition, the bundle of intentions will burn, become gas, yet re-enter the world in novel form.
I will make the additions via editing this post not through responses.
Until tomorrow Nexians
Your’s truly
Fungal, 18.6.2025
Academia, my dearest love-hatred
I am an anthropology master’s student and it was always my plan to go for a PHD after. Yet, a PHD and habilitation is an insane grind, and I am unsure, if I want that and if I am even cut out for it. It’s not just that, with fascists winning all over the world (no I am not willing to mince my words, we need to call a spade a spade) academic freedom and integrity is under heavier attack than ever during my lifetime (except maybe 9/11, but I was 2 years old then and did not quite think about these issues). Being queer does not help with this, we have clowns all over the world, yapping about how gender studies and queer theory are corrupting the children. It’s just theories of degeneracy, fascists be fascist.
I am from more-than-human anthropology, not much entangled with queer anthropology, but I do not expect reactionaries to catch the nuance. This semester I have taken a break from ecology/ more-than-human theory/ multispecies ethnography, taken a break dealing with the Anthropocene and its cascading extinctions, because it was taking a toll on my mental health. Turns out dealing with sexualized violence and culture wars did not quite help in the way I – for reasons unfathomable to me now – anticipated. Apparently the Anthropocene is a fever dream whether you deal with it directly or not. I wish to get some insight into whether I should stay in academia, because it kinda sucks.
Finally getting out of this village
Next weekend I will finally move to the city where I have access to a community garden and a large mushroom laboratory. One prospective flatmate – we need to find someone – also cultivates mushrooms. Out power would be immeasurable. Yet I is daunting. I cannot wait to live in a place where I can be openly queer, which here in rural places, you really shouldn’t be.
I also have to leave behind some larger plants. I will leave my complete Brugmansia and Datura collection. Tho I can make cuttings from the Brugmansia and I have seeds from my Datura (just sayin, I do not consume them (anymore) and would not advocate people try, they can teach, but so can magic mushrooms or DMT). But reestablishing my roots will take some time. I also leave behind my forest, that I came to know well. I don’t need luck anymore to forage mushrooms, the oysters are in the same place as in the past 5 years. In the city there are no large forests and because of pollution I don’t want to forage there anyway. So there are changes ahead and I wonder what niche I will fill in my new urban habitat.
A new site
There is a really promising site to do fieldwork on mushroom cultivation for my master’s thesis, that I am genuinely excited about. I will have to decide if I should abandon the site I have been doing fieldwork for some months now and focus in on mushroom cultivation instead of foraging or if I should try to integrate the two.
But generally I think it is going in a good direction, just needs some more time to cook.
This might become a long one so buckle up for a read. This is a trip report from my trip/ritual on the 21. of June 2025. Now the avid reader will notice that this was presumably written earlier, since it was posted earlier. This is because the preparation starts now, as I decided to treat this writing up as a technology for preparation and probably integration as well. You are cordially invited to chime in with good vibes and intentions, let this ritual be a collective becoming, as all becoming is collective.
Setting out
I an unsure if I really believe in Magick, or modern witchcraft, however I would describe myself as Christian mystic – not meant as a pretentious title, but rather that I am a nerd and read Eckhart, von Bingen, Porète and other mystics. Yet, on the 21.6, summer solstice, I will cast a spell. I won't explain here exactly how I understand modern witchcraft or spells, because I only have 3 days left and things to do.
In short what I will do is the following. Tomorrow I will go to my forest, for the last time in a while, as I will explain somewhere below. There I will forage edible mushrooms and plants for the spell, some will also be from my garden. I don’t expect to find mushrooms, for it is bone dry out here, but no one commands the fungi, so who knows. I will forage some plants that grow abundantly and vigorously, since the spell for that, abundance and growth. These plants are then bundled together and somewhat dried over these 3 days, during which I will from time to time interact with them imparting my intentions on them, so they might be channelled at the actual ritual. Which is burning them in the fire bowl in the garden. Now this would not be on the DMT Nexus in the mushrooms section, if no mushrooms were involved. As I will ingest some mushrooms before, I have yet to decided on whether I go for Psilocybe ochraceocentrata or Psilocybe tampanensis fruit and on the exact timing of ingestion and burning the bundle. I expect I’ll feel when time is right during the trip. Mode of ingestion will be as a tea, or hot chocolate, but I will have to look up substace interaction on that. If inconclusive, it's a tea for me.
Setting an intention
Normally the idea is to have a single focussed intention to go with. However, that is not how I feel to do things. My mind is like mycelium; it grows in multiple directions.
So over the next 2 days I will think through aspects of my current life that I am unhappy with, anxious about, that I wish insight on and grow beyond. I will write them up here sometime during the next two days. Aspects I already know I want to touch on are: my future in academia, Jobs, moving to the city by the end of June, the loveliest person I know (but am I gay for her? I don’t know), my master’s thesis.
But, on the third day, 21.6., I will focus on the things that are going well, which are – weirdly – my future in academia, moving to the city, this person I met raising baby birds together, my master’s thesis. I expect some responses on a few additional jobs I applied for, so that may eventually join the list as well.
And on the solstice, the time where there is most vibrancy, where the things we set up come start coming to fruition, the bundle of intentions will burn, become gas, yet re-enter the world in novel form.
I will make the additions via editing this post not through responses.
Until tomorrow Nexians
Your’s truly
Fungal, 18.6.2025
Academia, my dearest love-hatred
I am an anthropology master’s student and it was always my plan to go for a PHD after. Yet, a PHD and habilitation is an insane grind, and I am unsure, if I want that and if I am even cut out for it. It’s not just that, with fascists winning all over the world (no I am not willing to mince my words, we need to call a spade a spade) academic freedom and integrity is under heavier attack than ever during my lifetime (except maybe 9/11, but I was 2 years old then and did not quite think about these issues). Being queer does not help with this, we have clowns all over the world, yapping about how gender studies and queer theory are corrupting the children. It’s just theories of degeneracy, fascists be fascist.
I am from more-than-human anthropology, not much entangled with queer anthropology, but I do not expect reactionaries to catch the nuance. This semester I have taken a break from ecology/ more-than-human theory/ multispecies ethnography, taken a break dealing with the Anthropocene and its cascading extinctions, because it was taking a toll on my mental health. Turns out dealing with sexualized violence and culture wars did not quite help in the way I – for reasons unfathomable to me now – anticipated. Apparently the Anthropocene is a fever dream whether you deal with it directly or not. I wish to get some insight into whether I should stay in academia, because it kinda sucks.
Finally getting out of this village
Next weekend I will finally move to the city where I have access to a community garden and a large mushroom laboratory. One prospective flatmate – we need to find someone – also cultivates mushrooms. Out power would be immeasurable. Yet I is daunting. I cannot wait to live in a place where I can be openly queer, which here in rural places, you really shouldn’t be.
I also have to leave behind some larger plants. I will leave my complete Brugmansia and Datura collection. Tho I can make cuttings from the Brugmansia and I have seeds from my Datura (just sayin, I do not consume them (anymore) and would not advocate people try, they can teach, but so can magic mushrooms or DMT). But reestablishing my roots will take some time. I also leave behind my forest, that I came to know well. I don’t need luck anymore to forage mushrooms, the oysters are in the same place as in the past 5 years. In the city there are no large forests and because of pollution I don’t want to forage there anyway. So there are changes ahead and I wonder what niche I will fill in my new urban habitat.
A new site
There is a really promising site to do fieldwork on mushroom cultivation for my master’s thesis, that I am genuinely excited about. I will have to decide if I should abandon the site I have been doing fieldwork for some months now and focus in on mushroom cultivation instead of foraging or if I should try to integrate the two.
But generally I think it is going in a good direction, just needs some more time to cook.
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