Hello.  I felt compelled to share my experience with you after reading your intro.  And welcome

First of all I'll give you a little background on myself.  I have been on and off opiates (pain meds) for the last 8 years due to fibromyalgia. Since this is not curable, I am depressed, so they give me anti depressants.  To make a very long story short, I ended up addicted to the pain meds as well as numb from the anti depressants.

I have withdrawn several times from the opiates and a few times from the anti depressants, which reminds me so much of what you were talking about in your intro (feeling again, etc).

I am now in the process of weaning myself off the SSRI for the LAST time.  I do not want to be numb anymore.  I also have my bf control my pain meds so I don't go overboard with them and I only take a minimal amount to be comfortable.

With all of that said, I did DMT for the first time two nights ago.  So personally, I don't think you need to have everything out of your system first.  I had a life changing experience that night and it has made me want to be a better person.  It has certainly made me see my flaws as a human, but it did not make me feel bad about them.

Anyway, in my personal opinion, I think doing the DMT will help you in your journey of whatever you are trying to get away from.  If it is truly a spiritual experience you seek, I think it will be extremely good for you.

Welcome again