Loungefly
Rising Star
First, this is an amazing forum with a lot of great people putting out good stories and good advice. Thank you to you all!! I'm glad I found this website.
Ok, I promise I wont make this a wall of text, so I'll keep this pretty much too the point
Last night was my first experience and words will never do justice, but you all have been there before so I know you can relate. I'm not sure if I had a break through or not (since it was my 1st time), but please let me know if I was there or at least on the right track.
Everything was consumed in one giant lung full and I held it in for as long as I could. After about 20 seconds, I knew I stepped off into the deep end and slowly exhaled. Oh also, this was about 1 AM and the only light source in the bedroom was a pig oil lamp (I bought it at Mortons Steak house)....so no noise except for the ceiling fan and again, just a soft light in the room.
I laid back and felt/heard nothing except a vibration...then the visuals came. Best way to put it was that I was gone....not here nor there...I guess I just "was" if that makes sense. It felt like my entire existence was enveloped in these thin red lines with blue dots or blue designs. Graph paper with red lines and blue designs if you will. It was just me and that....nothing else existed.
Next was a shape that was like center screen to me. An impossible shape that could not exist...something like a cube and a sphere, but somehow combined.
Next thing to happen (happen right before my anxiety attack) was the feeling like my atoms were are being excited....similar I guess to how molecules feel like when something is microwaved. But things were too intense. I remember saying (or thinking) "I dont like this". Best way to describe the anxiety attack was something everyone here has more than likely experienced....that moment when you realize that you shouldnt have taken that last, massive bong hit. That feeling like oh shit, this is going to be a bumpy ride and nothing to do except hold on.
My question to everyone that reads this.....is it possible to break yourself out of a trip?? My only desire was to come back to me (my body), feel normal again. I remember trying to force myself to breath (Im sure I was the entire time though). I forced myself to breath, I sat up and tried to get a grasp of where I was. It was still very intense though for quite sometime. Also, I would say only a couple minutes passed at the time when I sat up.
I some how knew I could have gone MUCH deeper, but honestly....I was not scared....just overwhelmed. So again, reading what I just wrote, is it possible to bring yourself out of that state??
Oh! One last interesting thing! After I got up out of bed (and still very much under the influence) I walked around and was amazed at how everything looked in my house. I saw everything from a new perspective and it was all beautiful. But the weird thing was that I was not alone. I mean, I was alone in the house, but I felt or thought I saw or perceived 3 separate...beings? Things? Donno. I wasnt scared, I wasnt concerned, but I knew I was NOT alone. Has anybody else experience this? I know I told one of these things/creatures "I understand". It was "I understand" or "I get it". I wrote it down thats the only reason I remember it now. Although in hind site, I'm not sure what I meant by it.
Thank you again for this great forum and would love to hear some feed back on this. Also, any suggestions for next time? I have a great respect for this and I feel it can be an amazing tool to use to really look deep inside yourself!
Ok, I promise I wont make this a wall of text, so I'll keep this pretty much too the point
Last night was my first experience and words will never do justice, but you all have been there before so I know you can relate. I'm not sure if I had a break through or not (since it was my 1st time), but please let me know if I was there or at least on the right track.
Everything was consumed in one giant lung full and I held it in for as long as I could. After about 20 seconds, I knew I stepped off into the deep end and slowly exhaled. Oh also, this was about 1 AM and the only light source in the bedroom was a pig oil lamp (I bought it at Mortons Steak house)....so no noise except for the ceiling fan and again, just a soft light in the room.
I laid back and felt/heard nothing except a vibration...then the visuals came. Best way to put it was that I was gone....not here nor there...I guess I just "was" if that makes sense. It felt like my entire existence was enveloped in these thin red lines with blue dots or blue designs. Graph paper with red lines and blue designs if you will. It was just me and that....nothing else existed.
Next was a shape that was like center screen to me. An impossible shape that could not exist...something like a cube and a sphere, but somehow combined.
Next thing to happen (happen right before my anxiety attack) was the feeling like my atoms were are being excited....similar I guess to how molecules feel like when something is microwaved. But things were too intense. I remember saying (or thinking) "I dont like this". Best way to describe the anxiety attack was something everyone here has more than likely experienced....that moment when you realize that you shouldnt have taken that last, massive bong hit. That feeling like oh shit, this is going to be a bumpy ride and nothing to do except hold on.
My question to everyone that reads this.....is it possible to break yourself out of a trip?? My only desire was to come back to me (my body), feel normal again. I remember trying to force myself to breath (Im sure I was the entire time though). I forced myself to breath, I sat up and tried to get a grasp of where I was. It was still very intense though for quite sometime. Also, I would say only a couple minutes passed at the time when I sat up.
I some how knew I could have gone MUCH deeper, but honestly....I was not scared....just overwhelmed. So again, reading what I just wrote, is it possible to bring yourself out of that state??
Oh! One last interesting thing! After I got up out of bed (and still very much under the influence) I walked around and was amazed at how everything looked in my house. I saw everything from a new perspective and it was all beautiful. But the weird thing was that I was not alone. I mean, I was alone in the house, but I felt or thought I saw or perceived 3 separate...beings? Things? Donno. I wasnt scared, I wasnt concerned, but I knew I was NOT alone. Has anybody else experience this? I know I told one of these things/creatures "I understand". It was "I understand" or "I get it". I wrote it down thats the only reason I remember it now. Although in hind site, I'm not sure what I meant by it.
Thank you again for this great forum and would love to hear some feed back on this. Also, any suggestions for next time? I have a great respect for this and I feel it can be an amazing tool to use to really look deep inside yourself!
