eclipsek20
Rising Star
*****How DMT Found Me & How I Started My Journey*****
I was researching stuff about 2012, Mayans, Sumerians, mathematics, sacred geometry, herbs, brain (neurology and stuff), mind, consciousness, religions and spiritual teachings, quantum physics and mechanics, metaphysics, and many other things and I just happen to stumble upon DMT and wondered what it was.
I had smoked a lot of weed, done meth a few times, but that was the extent of "drugs" i did. Weed was only psychedelic I had done before finding dmt. I researched and found out quite a bit about dmt and ayahuasca, but not too much. I did not want to learn to much about individual experiences at the time, cause I didn't want to be effected by others thoughts and opinions on things.
I read bits and pieces of books like, DMT: The Spirit Molecule, The Void, Psychonauts Guide to Invisible Landscape, The Mayan Factor (not really anything to do with this but i read around the time i was reading other books), and a book about Kundalini and Chakras.
First extraction I did I found on erowid.com. Didn't work out good at all, but i tried it (although I did learn about the dangers of lye and muratic acid from that). Soon after I tried salvia 20x (not standardized). This was my first out of body experience and experience of "The Void State", and first thing i can call a psychedelic expierence.
I also was practicing meditation, lucid dreaming, and astral projection (no luck with that) prior to even finding dmt. I also began to keep track of Mayan calendar and stoped following the Gregorian calendar. All the dates for things i did date are in Mayan, and I think I have found a connection between the Mayan calendar and hyperspace.
The day I was born in Mayan calendar was 12.18.13.13.16 9Pax 11Cib. I found this thing called the dream spell by Jose Arguelles, which he got from the Mayan calendar (although I cant figure out how he got it from the calendar). He wrote the book, "The Mayan Factor", but my dream spell tells about my conscious self, subconscious self, and higher conscious self, and other parts of me.
My dream spell thing is 13Oc. Which means my subconscious would be 13Chuen, conscious self would be 13Oc, and higher conscious self would be 13Ix. I tried not to keep track of Mayan calendar during all these experiences and then only finding out what day it was when I decided to do dmt.
Each time I did I found that the day would fall on one of my days of my conscious forms and I would do a lot of work on myself and remember more and more. On days when I would go when it wasn't one of my days, I always saw beings or places.
I would like some other peoples information about these or test it yourself and let me know how it goes. http://www.astrodreamadv...ree_mayan_readings.html go here to find out about yours. I think its really accurate, and it seems to work on other levels than just here.
List of days I kept track off doing dmt, 12.19.17.0.14 12Moan 4Ix, 12.19.17.1.0 18Moan 10Ahau, 12.19.17.1.7 5Pax 4Manik, 12.19.17.2.2 0Kayab 6Ik, 12.19.17.4.10 3Pop 2Oc, 12.19.17.4.11 4Pop 3Chuen, 12.19.17.5.9 2Uo 8Muluc, 12.19.17.5.10 3Uo 9Oc, 12.19.17.5.12 5Uo 11Eb, 12.19.17.5.14 7Uo 13Ix(most intense experience I've ever had), 12.19.17.6.7 1Zip 1Lamat, 12.19.17.6.17 11Zip 11Etznab.
*****Experiences & Thoughts*****
First few times I messed up extractions without knowing. Tried to smoke what I had out of light bulb (bad idea). Had some slight hearing effects. Lost track of experiences for a while then started writing everything down.
First DMT Experiences
A few experiences have past, I'm not sure how many. This is what I can remember, I was shown what this world really looks like without limitations and it looks like a mathematical pattern of chaos and randomness called Mandelbrot (Fractal Geometry). All this world is, is patterns, everything is a pattern. Even a random pattern is still a pattern. The real pattern of the world or this reality is Mandelbrot.
I saw golden/white lights and snakes moving through and around everything, then a being came through the snakes reaching out to me, trying to guide or comfort me, giving me feelings of love and compassion that I've never experienced before.
First close-eyed experience. As soon as my eyes were closed I saw this dark blue/green and black (or color I cant comprehend) pattern surround and engulf me. I could clearly see all my surroundings and myself as it was happening.
I tried it through a pipe a few times, still only got mild low dose effects. Tried it through a bong, very effective (found out later it actually wasn't, average size pipe with carb worked best).
I took a very deep fast hit, as soon as I cleared the smoke from it everything started shaking extremely violently then my vision stretched out. At the same time I heard something so deeply that it shook me down to the depths of my heart.
I saw a black hole come into my vision, which instantly surrounded me with golden and pure white geometric designs and patterns, that were constantly changing and moving through everything.
I noticed one of my dreads hanging in front of my face but decided not to mess with it. Right after I had that thought I heard a voice say, "Don't worry we can help" and then my hands moved up and started moving my hair back for me and as it was doing this, there were hands coming from everywhere. I noticed that all the hands were mine and connected to me, thousands of arms and all i could see were billions of fingers waving like water or like something waving in the wind.
After that, I noticed that I was in some type of planes that the lower half of my body was interconnected to along with my head (didn't make much sense but they were like a plane above and below me that is kinda how you would think of if you turned a torus tube inside out, Alex Grey has a painting of exactly what I'm talking about).
The entire time this was going on there were 2 beings standing over me just looking down on me like how you would look down on a new born baby (that's what I felt like at the time). As soon as I came came out of it, my memory started fading of what i saw. It felt like an instant, like someone snapped there fingers and it was over and made me wonder if something actually happened or if I imagined it.
(This was around the time I found the Nexus, and started looking around at different things here, and found out how to do the extraction the right way).
A couple days or weeks after that I did it again but this time I did it alone in pitch black. I started seeing things before I took dmt. After I hit it I heard noises and then went back to the planes I was in. This time I looked up into the plane above me and got shot through another tunnel (star gate looking tunnel, like from the movie).
I cant explain in writing what happened. I was showed many things and taught many things. I was brought back to this world/dimension/reality (I didn't know what to call this anymore) and shown many things here and in space, and how to travel from here to hyperspace and how to guide others to hyperspace. I was showed a conscious being being born, living, and death of a conscious being. It was so beautiful and loving.
Since this my reality has been getting torn apart. I cant believe or understand all the confusion, corruption, hate, differences, dependencies, and ignorance in this world. Everyone lives on selfish desires, abuse of the world, and things that just don't make sense. I'm losing touch with people around me cause I am choosing a better way to live and experience the full extent of life (was letting go of some people and started connecting with others).
Psychedelics are a gift of this world not to be abused or mistreated, but society has turned them into "drugs" that effect you in negative ways. But look at the drugs and addictions imposed on society today, caffeine, alcohol, tobacco, sugar, meat, prescription drugs, technology, etc (all things to get us away from our natural selves).
If psychedelics are so negative, then what are the positives of the drugs that are incorporated and "allowed" in society? (Death, suppression, zombified people, obesity, health problems, etc.) Society is dependent on itself but for what purpose? (For this same system to keep running in circles, cause people are so afraid of change.)
This world has become backwards and society calls it normal. No one questions what is on the TV. No one questions schools/education, information, government, teachers, doctors, history, science, the list is endless. The second someone comes up with a new idea, theory, or truth of something they are shunned, ridiculed, called crazy, or have things that don't make sense pushed into there faces.
Society is like a disease or virus that is eating away at people without them even knowing or trying to get away from it. I think everyone just needs to step back, look around, think, question, and be free, happy, loving, and respectful. I have broken free from my ego, which is literally my mind. (My mistake at thinking the ego was just the mind.)
Had some different DMT experiences that I did not write about. Did not seem of much importance. Saw random things, connected to a cube once, saw beings with sharp edges (very geometric), could not make out a definite place or anything. Most of effects and things I thought dmt was doing wore off. Took a vacation and didn't do it for a while.
I did dmt once more when I got back before trying pharmayhuasca. The DMT trip was just like falling through a tunnel the whole time, and my girlfriend was going through the tunnel with me then she got taken by reptilian entity's and experimented on (as she had told me later). I don't remember what happened, but I don't remember being there when that happened to her.
Pharmayhuasca Experience (12.19.17.4.11 4Pop 3Chuen)
Dose: Couldn't measure dose, so just guessed (maybe around 100mg DMT per cap).
First I took 100mg harmala crystals in pill (wasn't sure if it would work so also drank half ayahuasca brew i tried to make, that only contained MAOI no dmt). Waited about an hour took first DMT pill then waited about 10-15min and took other DMT pill (total about 200mg dmt, maybe). Then me and my girlfriend went and layed down in bed and began to wait.
The wait for it to come on made me kinda nervous, anxious, excited, and doubtful (was doubting it would even work the way i did it). When the patterns finally started forming I thought maybe I was just seeing the usual stuff in the dark. So I sat up and my body felt almost alien and every thing in my vision started flowing. So I knew it was finally working.
I layed back down slowly, just watching everything. As I was laying down me and my girlfriend started pointing things out we saw. Everything she pointed out I saw and she saw everything I pointed out. As we started going deeper we kept pointing things out until we finally stopped talking out loud and started talking without speech or voice. As I got farther she got stuck behind somewhere and I kept going (only way I can think to describe where she went is that she didn't break through the tunnel).
As I got deeper my body got aroused, but soon after I left my body completely. After that everything was just moving through, around, and a part of me, I was like an eye that had no need for senses and could see everything. I came across the Hive Mind shortly after that and was looking down into these inter-dimensional/hyper-dimensional hexagon shaped honeycombs.
They were many different colors but the colors around me were darker and the hive was more colorful with tunnels, golden tunnels that were also translucent, branched off the hive to everywhere, maybe memories, or my life playing out from my eyes inside them. As I kept going I just saw the hive everywhere until I hit nothing.
When I hit this nothingness (referred to as The Void from the book, "The Void") I knew at that moment that the void, is actual nothingness but in this nothingness is everything. Everything is nothing and nothing is everything (just a balance, like everything else: Life & Death, Male & Female, Awake & Asleep, etc.).
Out of this nothingness then came several body's and then as I saw these bodies clearer I realized they were all me. I was able to see all the bodies and parts of them at the same time, while it felt like I was above them and they were around me in a circle pattern. I don't remember how many there were but 12 seems to stick in my head.
As I inspect these other me's, I notice that they were all a different emotion. Like each emotion that people have is an entirely different person that is a part of you, living the same life with you but maybe not the same ideals.
After a little time with my selves (felt like years had gone by), I got pulled back by puking and my girlfriend pulling on me. Then she told me she had to go to the bathroom now. Instantly I built reality around me (something I was taught how to do from previous DMT experience), and started going with her to the bathroom.
As I was going, I was seeing my entire body from up higher, my point of view was from looking down at the back of my head. As I was going with her, I noticed that as I was building reality it was dispersing into cubes then smaller and smaller all the way back into the void. As we were in the bathroom after that I just started to have after effects, mild visions, that lasted about an hour or so.
Time I spent on trip about 4 hours peaked.
Changa Experience (12.19.17.5.9 2Uo 8Muluc)
Dose: 300mg MAOI (Syrian Rue 10:1 extract), 75mg DMT on top. Got 2 really good hits.
Amazing Experience. Started going into it wanting to be outside hit it twice really good, then had to set the pipe down fast. I felt a rushing experience then gazed at the moon. Right after the buzzing came and I glanced into the darkness a few times then started seeing things form in the dark more. I started staring at it and went into these planes then I cant remember what happened. I do remember just being amazed and astounded by everything.
After a while I saw what looked like the inner workings of some kind of floating liquid shock pump looking things. I was not a part of my body at this time and the pumps started moving in different ways and then my body would move. When I would move my body they would move too (like there were hydralic looking pumps floating in liquid attached to me). This whole time this place was filled with watery gel type of liquid.
My thoughts then started to divide, still part of me, but what felt like I was more than one person at once. Kinda shocked me at first when I realized it but then that became another self too. It felt soon after as though I was questioning everything and each self was to and we were contemplating everything. After a little while of doing this the selves started to sync up and have similar thoughts. Until eventually they all became one thought. All thought is part of the same thought.
Don't remember what happened next. As I was coming out of it, I felt like I was started to figure out tons of stuff, then stopped myself and opened my eyes (don't remember closing my eyes) and saw the moon and after effects started, left me speechless and amazed when I was done.
Duration 20 - 30min.
DMT Experience (12.19.17.5.12 5Uo 11Eb)
Dose: 75mg DMT
What are all the patterns? Why am I being shown all these patterns? Even away from DMT state I still see patterns. 11:11, 11, Mandelbrot, people, reactions, everything is a pattern. Even randomness and chaos still sit in the pattern.
I went into a low dose dmt trip (only hit twice), and I saw patterns, first it was what looked like fruit/food in pills/capsules type things (they were huge though). After that it was just a round bubbly looking pattern everywhere. I wanted to go farther but couldn't. Me and 2 others (entity's) were communicating while I was seeing this pattern, but it was just like talking to a friend that you see everyday.
During this trip though I just started wondering more about these patterns. I just don't understand the true meaning behind this and every pattern. I have a feeling like I should do another pharmayhuasca dose soon.
Pharmayhuasca Experience (12.19.17.5.14 7Uo 13Ix)
Dose: 100mg Harmala crystals, about 300 - 400mg dmt.
(I did so much DMT cause people were talking about it being dangerous and I knew it wasn't, so I did a really high dose to show some people it wasn't dangerous. Also I just wanted to do a really high dose.)
I just packed 2 caps full of DMT, didn't measure them. But I measured one later that looked about like how much I had put in and it weighed out to 200mg.
This is what I wrote when I came out of it:
This day has been the day of remembrance, awakening, understanding, dedication and everything else forever. I exist in time (physical reality) cause I want to. I want to experience love and live life to its fullest extents. If this is the last time I do DMT, then I am ok with that because I am the everything and the everything is me. I have just came back from my trip and those were a few of my thoughts.
About the day of my experience:
The day started different from a normal day somehow. As if this day had been a day to remember the rest of my life. I woke up, couldn't sleep good cause of the night before me and my girlfriend had an argument. I just wish she knew how hard it was when she left. When she was around she could always make me happy, even doing nothing with her was amazing (I wish it wouldn't have taken me so long to realize, but I believe there is a reason for everything. I had to let go of her for a short time to realize how much I loved and cared for her and did not want to lose or leave her.)
The day seemed really long and drawn out, cause I was really excited and anxious to go on my Pharmayhuasca experience. Smoked some bud to ease my mind for a little. Hung out with a few of my friends (they all knew I was going today also). After I had breakfast I fasted for the rest of the day (only drank water, lots of it). Only got about 4 hours of sleep prior also.
My experience:
Starting my trip, at 1:00am I took MAOI. Then tried to kill time by watching movie. Then took first dmt pill at 1:45am, then 2nd dmt pill at 2:00am and went and layed down and got ready.
The trip started with mild things which soon became intense things. Had many thoughts of fear and doubt, regret and discomfort. But every time a bad thought would come in, I would analyze it and it would be alright.
I experienced my life in one instant, being born into a conscious being (when i was still a fetus), until the time is ready for me to depart the physical shell. (I saw everything little moment of my life happen in that instant). I witnessed my own death (I got some kind of illness or sickness, everyone was with me giving me love and support), and then I was dead.
Engulfed in the darkness, the void of everything. Every thought, idea, question, anything imaginable was here and being asseted. I started to wonder if I was going to be able to make it back here to commune this with people. Then started hoping someone didn't find my body and say, "Oh my god, wake up", and then wonder if I was dead.
Every thought I had became another reality that I was creating. I was missing my girlfriend and her baby and wanted them back with me. I kept separating everything, then correcting myself and knowing everything is always connected. There is no division of anything cause everything is everything. A thought, idea, personality, you, me, that, there, distance, time, its all a part of the everything that is never divided.
Everything faded from the real to the unrestricted real over and over. I thought I was going to be sick a few times but wasn't. There was so much more, I'm going to take a break from DMT for a while to try and remember. Coming out of it, I wanted and was ready to come back (shocked and amazed, I never fully understood what I forgot, that I already knew). Lots of remembering (not learning).
Manipulated reality when I was coming back and jumped to bathroom (did not feel as though I had went a distance). Fully understood what chronokinesis, telepathy, and everything else like that really was and how it was used. I spent maybe years, thousands of years where I was at.
After thoughts:
Fully understand what it means to be a shaman and connect and interact with the 2 states at the same time. I believe now it would be hard to be a shaman in this society with all its rules and suppression. In this society a shaman would be "cast out", he/she would be imprisoned and suppressed to make him/her believe they are crazy or they have lost their mind. The tools of the shaman are of natural origins but in society these are illegal, propaganda is made against them so people will stay away from these natural tools, and artificial distractions are the main goal in this society.
Science, religion, and mass media are killing humanity. But the veil has been pulled over everyone's eyes so slowly that they haven't even noticed that there thoughts and ideas are being influenced by these mechanisms of control. But to what end is what I truly don't understand.
Why, what is the point of control and suppression? Why is it that when you bring this up to people they get so defensive? Perhaps because they have been taught (better way of saying controlled) to be and remain closed and suppressed, and also fear change.
Text messages to my girlfriend that day & thoughts on them:
Text messages I sent to my girlfriend that day (which I think I knew what was to come by these messages, or maybe I had already started to experience it) - I'm trying to open up more I really am but at the same time trying to control the ego and keep what I think is sane so I can commune this to the world.
I want you to be able to tell me everything and talk to me, don't run away from me just talk to me please, and don't keep things to yourself. I will try my best to listen to you and not shut out your ideas and thoughts. I'm very sorry for that too.
(I was apologizing and saying I was sorry a lot and I wanted someone there with me. My memories were being played over and over and I couldn't tell what was real at one point of this. I realized that I have a lot of layers to break through which is going to be hard to get through, but I know I can do it. DMT is the key to awakening from the false reality, feels like being reborn, awake, and alive, full of love and innocence. I wonder if the world can really accept the truth of everything.)
Back to text messages - I'm really stubborn sometimes too, don't try to be I just am. But just to let you know will you be able to put up with me with whatever happens while I'm trying to control my ego? This is going to be a hard process and at times could seem like its never going to end, but it takes a while to do and I may need a lot of support but it will come to an end eventually.
(The process was exactly that also as it was happening. It was very hard to get through and seemed like it was endless but it did end in physical state as well as hyper-dimensional state.)
Back to texts - Its already started. With my first pharmayhuasca dose, it started. I don't know how long it will take or last though. Its my experiment and I will finish, even if I have to shove the pharmayhuasca down my throat. I'm going to finish what I started one way or another. That's the end of text messages I sent that day.
(I knew that whole day what was going to happen and what I was going to experience, I just didn't know that I knew that yet, that's why I am writing down my texts that I sent that day. (All texts that I'm writing are just from that day only.)
Final thoughts of that day:
It is now 7:05am of that same day of the trip, and feel very good and relieved. If I remember anything else I will write down again.
When I came back and was having strong effects still, things that seemed natural and normal to do (navigating, eating, time, distance, and reality) seemed to feel alien. Like I had never done or experienced these things before. Also things like ideas, thoughts, and emotions and feelings, and using the senses felt alien also. I finally feel like I remembered to understand everything.
A Few Days Later (12.19.17.6.2 15Uo 8Ik)
I believe I connected with the higher consciousness, and 2012 will be like an opening to reconnect with the higher consciousness. The "higher consciousness" was a being that i connected with, that had cables coming from its head and in these cables was everything, literally EVERYTHING. This beings body was just like an outline in some place I cant seem to describe even though I can see it very clearly. If I started to look where the beings skin would be I would start getting sucked backwards into the void again. There were other higher conscious's too. It was not only one, but many. Not sure how many though.
Why do people fear so much what they don't understand? I feel like I have so much to tell the world and I want to help people understand this transition that we are about to go through. I wish everyone would at least try DMT once to understand a true psychedelic experience. I cant stand people that don't or don't want to understand what a psychedelic experience is (that's like saying I don't want to use my brain, it doesn't make sense).
People think that DMT is a hallucinogen, this is entirely wrong. A hallucination is something you see that is not real, psychedelic literally means mind manifesting (creating with your mind). The psychedelic experience is something that everyone can experience. It may differ a little or be perceived in different ways but ultimately the same experience. (I have recently discovered that there are some that cannot have a psychedelic experience. These people are people that pretty much empty. They look, act, feel, and do things just like people do, but there is nothing truly there. Empty shells, soulless shells, consciousless shells.)
I completely understand the psychedelic experience now and there is nothing that will ever compare to it. The change is coming, getting closer, and everyone is still living in there same patterns, afraid to divert from the path they walk, which will ultimately result in nothing.
I really want to help wake people up and prepare them for what is to come, but I can only do so much for people. It takes a big step on there part to get through this change too. I can only give them the key and show them the door, they have to choose to use it and go through the door.
I feel as though my purpose here has changed and I want to be a shaman and want to help all those in need of help and offer truth to those that seek the truth. There needs to be more shaman, scientists, psychonauts, and people in general that must experience and remember all about Ayahuasca/Pharmayhuasca the sacred brew/pill.
The night after I remembered all of this, I had the most vividly/real dream like experience I've ever had (almost don't even feel like I can call it a dream). I was in the forest, like a tropical rain forest. There were a bunch of African looking shaman (very very dark skin), they all wore huge headdresses and were all sitting looking at me. Then they pushed a cup of ayahuasca in front of me and without a thought I just drank it. Then all the shaman that were there drank after me. And I had what seems like an ayahuasca experience and the shaman were guiding and helping me with everything. Cant even begin to describe the experience I had.