thecosmicjoke
Esteemed member
I think these moments are sign posts that you are on the right path.
I smoked some weed and became anxious today, as I often do. I hadn’t smoked for awhile. Regrets of my behavior inhabited my mind for the following hour. At a point, I sat and opened my phone, and was struck quickly with the thought
“When was the last time you asked for forgiveness?”
I realized that I had not been talking to God, and after a recent DMT experience I promised that I would visit Him more. I immediately clasped my hands and fell into deep, soft sorrow in asking for forgiveness. Did I drink too much over the past week? Did I act a fool and embarrass myself? Did I treat people with the respect they deserve?
And then, I thought, that I should only pick one action at a time to dedicate myself to changing. And I thought
“I want to be nicer to my wife”.
I felt deep sorrow that I had not been as kind to her, or everybody for that matter, as I know I can be.
And this is where I got seriously freaked out, as my wife interrupted my prayer to tell me -
“I want you to know how nice you’ve been to me lately and how much I appreciate it”.
: :
Synchronicities are wonderfully terrifying. This feels like a road sign, signaling to pursue the spiritual relationship that I have to God. He gave me much to learn through my wife.
Shock, awe, joy, and fear, are what I feel in the presence of a good synchronicity.
I smoked some weed and became anxious today, as I often do. I hadn’t smoked for awhile. Regrets of my behavior inhabited my mind for the following hour. At a point, I sat and opened my phone, and was struck quickly with the thought
“When was the last time you asked for forgiveness?”
I realized that I had not been talking to God, and after a recent DMT experience I promised that I would visit Him more. I immediately clasped my hands and fell into deep, soft sorrow in asking for forgiveness. Did I drink too much over the past week? Did I act a fool and embarrass myself? Did I treat people with the respect they deserve?
And then, I thought, that I should only pick one action at a time to dedicate myself to changing. And I thought
“I want to be nicer to my wife”.
I felt deep sorrow that I had not been as kind to her, or everybody for that matter, as I know I can be.
And this is where I got seriously freaked out, as my wife interrupted my prayer to tell me -
“I want you to know how nice you’ve been to me lately and how much I appreciate it”.
: :
Synchronicities are wonderfully terrifying. This feels like a road sign, signaling to pursue the spiritual relationship that I have to God. He gave me much to learn through my wife.
Shock, awe, joy, and fear, are what I feel in the presence of a good synchronicity.