Was, long ago man... But at that time I didn't do Salvia, only smoked MJ and did the other usuals, coke, kat, e, acid...  Acid stuck on.. the rest i marked as crap.. And at some later time I had to move so couldn't afford the meds anymore.. so I smoked alot, it brought me back every single time...  Thing is, in the beginning when I started smoking pot I used to smoke for fun and for randomness, and just because I didn't give a shit if i lost my life or not (not that anything in that direction changed but I have a different POV now) anyway, I was somewhat out of control hence emotional problems and other stuff.  So later I figured I'd change the way I use Pot, so I started controlled smoking, like certain amounts, certain times a day and so on... Also I started to use it to get my mind set in order, I started teaching myself stuff, and started doing stuff... i disconnected myself from the world and all the crap the world feeds your mind, I started doing research (3rd person view, open minded and not trusting anything or the first thing i read..) in various points and directions, medical, politics, space, life, drugs, religion gosh everything I could get my mind busy on... (Notice things nobody else notice)

About the Bipolar(and dissociative identity disorder:hence the emotional parts): Some one once told me "MJ your like a spinning ball, and when you stop you don't now which way to go..."

I won't say that I had it that bad, I had some problems sometimes had major depression(but thats another story), I'd be me for a few weeks and then the other for a few weeks, id use a different name, I'd have random mood swings, I'd be totally confused if my friends came over that I didn't know them, and sometimes I'd be speaking in circles and very deep and weird.  Although I'm still very very deep, and I keep everything to myself I never talk, I'm usually the listener for everyone else.  And i have trust issues. It's like everyone I meet I'd trust them, they f*ck up once and the are in the blacklist... random stuff