camakazi
RUN DMT
Where to begin?...
Perhaps by saying the absence of God may not be on purpose. He may not even know that he is.
I sit pertched on the side of the bed, nervous.. but still ready to embark on whatever unknown quest of discovery awaits me. A sacrafice to the Gods, as a small amount is offered up as a spillage onto the threads from which I depart. "Do not fear! you will venture outwards regardless." The garbled voices of loved ones downstairs, all merry and full of festive joy. Dare I depart from this room now? I wedge the door, this is my room... I'll depart anytime I get called upon by the molecule and besides, I have full support in all my endevours with the spice (mum will try it one day.. I know it
) I sense a powerful realisation is on the cards tonight, life has been way too syncronised recently, right to the point of this very blast off.
HERE WE GO!!!...
It rolls round in my throat like an icy cold gobstopper waiting to drop into the dispenser. I am teatering on the edge right now. All sound and vision, voices are all drawn to one point at the centre of the gobstopper in my throat and then cast out backwards again, in, out, in, out, like being given a leg and a wing from the Elves "WEeeeee WooooOW... I know that Im hyperventilating right now as the geometry constructs its self at a mind boggling pace above, below and all around. Something bashes into me, did I fall off the bed there? I feel massive acceleration, a whooshing in my throat.. everything into the centre of the sphere and it sticks fast at the top of my lungs. This is the cut off point, I need no more air.. the heart looks after the body until the mind returns.
I've never shifted through hyperspace at such speeds before, a vast purple tunnel/wormhole lined with a celtic knots pattern, during this time I travel through a soup of knowledge, like bursting through a membrane of pure wisdom and love every single nano second, each one getting slightly less diluted as to what the truth actualy was, multiple universes and outcomes simotaniuosly.
Im being allowed straight to the source here, I accept right now.. with open arms.. I am ready this timeless.
The closer you get to such a thing the view of what "that thing" actualy is that you're seeing gets more and more distorted. Nothing can define self in this place. I realise where I have been moments later still blasting back through hyperspace. You can only understand it as you get further away from it, then you get too far from it and all the other warped truths seep in and dilute it once more. A single point in space and time reveals the truth to me, even if only for a brief moment of understanding. Oh how I wish I could take it back with me as physical evidence to show the rest of the world.
What a blessing this revealed to me, why fear? The moment you inhale DMT, is the moment the fear vanishes.
I feel privelaged to have been allowed into the very source of all consiousness, my mask discarded.. my true self revealed (or should I say OUR true self?) We are all one in the same at the source. A beautiful realisation if ever I had one. A new found peace resides within me now, for I know that I can never really die.
I open my eyes and much laughter ensues.. I forgot I was part of all this too, reality comes as a shock to me. I had accepted that hyperspace was my home and I felt so comfortable there. I was still sitting in the exact same position as I was before I blasted off, I hadn't drooled all over my face and hair or wet my pants like I thought I did, nor did I fall off the bed. The something that hit me remains a mystery???
I go downstairs and join the party, humbled with what I have just experienced. I look at the faces of my friends and family and wonder how different this would all be if they knew what I do. "Everyone! group hug"
I know a few other fellow Nexions had powerful awakenings over the festive period... so later on after everyone had gone home I read Antrocles report and this inspired me to depart from the Earthly realms once again. Unfortunately I misjudged this one quite badly, I had been drinking and smoking since the last one, put too much in the machine and never got much back from it. Another washout, another waste of good spice and not the first time I have been so stupid to disregard the power of DMT. I know I went deep, but I dont recall any of it.. so in my eyes it is a waste. I return feeling sober confused and rather stupid. I guess if I look at it positively, the lesson was in respect for the spice, I take heed to my own words.. never again!
It is now hogmanay and I enter my 25th year, but I feel as old as time itself. I decideed days before that this night I would pay homage to the spice, beg forgiveness, apoligise for my stupidity and hope it was accepted. What an amazing way to start a year... the moon is full, it filled these trips with positive energy.
My friend joined me for what would be a lovely 2 hours of traveling. Beforehand we sat and chatted about all the secrets of existance, and realised it was now 6 in the morning and we hadn't departed yet.
He went first... returned full of all the joys of a freebased DMT trip. "Brilliant! my turn hehe"
My choice of music was outstanding (if I dont say so myself) a Scotland based producer from Canada called 'the soul sumurai' I shall link you his free download to the release called 'loop based life form'... simply beautiful music.
The first of my 5 was oh so gentile with me, I was forgiven.. "just dont be so silly in the future!" waves of love washed over me. With my eyes semi closed I could see the moonlight seeping through the gap in my eyelids and laying a breathtaking canvas for my vision to unfold upon.
I came back and without our feet even properly touching the ground we blasted off again at the same time, straight back into the lovelyness that enveloped us. We continued to do this 4 times in a row, I remember it all clear as day, even now. I've never been allowed to stay for so long before, this was a gift in itself
Before the last one we stopped, had a little smoke and compaired our visions, unsurprisingly they were very similar. There is enough for 3 more decent breakthrough doses.. I put the last one away for another day and split the rest. These ones look big and they were. Again with my two machines we enter hyperspace together, its all very strange this time (for me at least) I keep looking at this wave somewhere between reality and hyperspace (OEV)... it shifts seamlessly from one to another. Everything in the room is made from the same squigly material. I must have closed my eyes at this point and started to ride this wave of spectacular colours, everything is the same, not in the trip, but constructed of the same material.. only visible as the wave shifts between the two. My friend luminates with the same pattern, even his trainers are the same.
The revelation is that not only do we share one conected consiousness, but we are all constructed of the same stuff physically, not just people... everything in the whole universe is. We are all part of this infinite membrane. I feel like an atom in its vast expance and at the same time I feel like a giant looking at it from above and all around. What a privelage, what a blessing... I would cry if I couldn't stop laughing.
Well my friends.. this is it for now. I want you all to know that I love us so so much. We are the luckyest people on earth here, never take that for granted.
Take a piece of me and I will you because we are all one in the same anyway.
Lovings
Donnie
Perhaps by saying the absence of God may not be on purpose. He may not even know that he is.
I sit pertched on the side of the bed, nervous.. but still ready to embark on whatever unknown quest of discovery awaits me. A sacrafice to the Gods, as a small amount is offered up as a spillage onto the threads from which I depart. "Do not fear! you will venture outwards regardless." The garbled voices of loved ones downstairs, all merry and full of festive joy. Dare I depart from this room now? I wedge the door, this is my room... I'll depart anytime I get called upon by the molecule and besides, I have full support in all my endevours with the spice (mum will try it one day.. I know it
) I sense a powerful realisation is on the cards tonight, life has been way too syncronised recently, right to the point of this very blast off.HERE WE GO!!!...
It rolls round in my throat like an icy cold gobstopper waiting to drop into the dispenser. I am teatering on the edge right now. All sound and vision, voices are all drawn to one point at the centre of the gobstopper in my throat and then cast out backwards again, in, out, in, out, like being given a leg and a wing from the Elves "WEeeeee WooooOW... I know that Im hyperventilating right now as the geometry constructs its self at a mind boggling pace above, below and all around. Something bashes into me, did I fall off the bed there? I feel massive acceleration, a whooshing in my throat.. everything into the centre of the sphere and it sticks fast at the top of my lungs. This is the cut off point, I need no more air.. the heart looks after the body until the mind returns.
I've never shifted through hyperspace at such speeds before, a vast purple tunnel/wormhole lined with a celtic knots pattern, during this time I travel through a soup of knowledge, like bursting through a membrane of pure wisdom and love every single nano second, each one getting slightly less diluted as to what the truth actualy was, multiple universes and outcomes simotaniuosly.
Im being allowed straight to the source here, I accept right now.. with open arms.. I am ready this timeless.
The closer you get to such a thing the view of what "that thing" actualy is that you're seeing gets more and more distorted. Nothing can define self in this place. I realise where I have been moments later still blasting back through hyperspace. You can only understand it as you get further away from it, then you get too far from it and all the other warped truths seep in and dilute it once more. A single point in space and time reveals the truth to me, even if only for a brief moment of understanding. Oh how I wish I could take it back with me as physical evidence to show the rest of the world.
What a blessing this revealed to me, why fear? The moment you inhale DMT, is the moment the fear vanishes.
I feel privelaged to have been allowed into the very source of all consiousness, my mask discarded.. my true self revealed (or should I say OUR true self?) We are all one in the same at the source. A beautiful realisation if ever I had one. A new found peace resides within me now, for I know that I can never really die.
I open my eyes and much laughter ensues.. I forgot I was part of all this too, reality comes as a shock to me. I had accepted that hyperspace was my home and I felt so comfortable there. I was still sitting in the exact same position as I was before I blasted off, I hadn't drooled all over my face and hair or wet my pants like I thought I did, nor did I fall off the bed. The something that hit me remains a mystery???
I go downstairs and join the party, humbled with what I have just experienced. I look at the faces of my friends and family and wonder how different this would all be if they knew what I do. "Everyone! group hug"
I know a few other fellow Nexions had powerful awakenings over the festive period... so later on after everyone had gone home I read Antrocles report and this inspired me to depart from the Earthly realms once again. Unfortunately I misjudged this one quite badly, I had been drinking and smoking since the last one, put too much in the machine and never got much back from it. Another washout, another waste of good spice and not the first time I have been so stupid to disregard the power of DMT. I know I went deep, but I dont recall any of it.. so in my eyes it is a waste. I return feeling sober confused and rather stupid. I guess if I look at it positively, the lesson was in respect for the spice, I take heed to my own words.. never again!
It is now hogmanay and I enter my 25th year, but I feel as old as time itself. I decideed days before that this night I would pay homage to the spice, beg forgiveness, apoligise for my stupidity and hope it was accepted. What an amazing way to start a year... the moon is full, it filled these trips with positive energy.
My friend joined me for what would be a lovely 2 hours of traveling. Beforehand we sat and chatted about all the secrets of existance, and realised it was now 6 in the morning and we hadn't departed yet.
He went first... returned full of all the joys of a freebased DMT trip. "Brilliant! my turn hehe"
My choice of music was outstanding (if I dont say so myself) a Scotland based producer from Canada called 'the soul sumurai' I shall link you his free download to the release called 'loop based life form'... simply beautiful music.
The first of my 5 was oh so gentile with me, I was forgiven.. "just dont be so silly in the future!" waves of love washed over me. With my eyes semi closed I could see the moonlight seeping through the gap in my eyelids and laying a breathtaking canvas for my vision to unfold upon.
I came back and without our feet even properly touching the ground we blasted off again at the same time, straight back into the lovelyness that enveloped us. We continued to do this 4 times in a row, I remember it all clear as day, even now. I've never been allowed to stay for so long before, this was a gift in itself
Before the last one we stopped, had a little smoke and compaired our visions, unsurprisingly they were very similar. There is enough for 3 more decent breakthrough doses.. I put the last one away for another day and split the rest. These ones look big and they were. Again with my two machines we enter hyperspace together, its all very strange this time (for me at least) I keep looking at this wave somewhere between reality and hyperspace (OEV)... it shifts seamlessly from one to another. Everything in the room is made from the same squigly material. I must have closed my eyes at this point and started to ride this wave of spectacular colours, everything is the same, not in the trip, but constructed of the same material.. only visible as the wave shifts between the two. My friend luminates with the same pattern, even his trainers are the same.
The revelation is that not only do we share one conected consiousness, but we are all constructed of the same stuff physically, not just people... everything in the whole universe is. We are all part of this infinite membrane. I feel like an atom in its vast expance and at the same time I feel like a giant looking at it from above and all around. What a privelage, what a blessing... I would cry if I couldn't stop laughing.
Well my friends.. this is it for now. I want you all to know that I love us so so much. We are the luckyest people on earth here, never take that for granted.
Take a piece of me and I will you because we are all one in the same anyway.
Lovings
Donnie
