What do you say to someone who is basically unpinnable on the spiritual continuum? Essentially I carry hallmarks of experiences/natures along the entire journey but I could not classify myself as a 'beginner', an 'adept', a 'master' nor a 'bodhisattva'/'buddha'.

I'm ignorant but entirely enlightened. I am past the point of total cessation of doubt/fear yet I crave like a beast, with a thirst that your average person doesn't really seem to have. Still angry, still shy, still anxious. Many resonations with this thread; particularly on the nature of the inner flame, which once lit or brought to awareness, can never really be extinguished.

Essentially I had my crown and 3rd eye chakras blasted open, I've always been top heavy. So now after a few harsh kundalini experiences I'm stabilising the lower centres, which had been neglected for decades. Currently working on just letting the higher energies work through me. Today has been quite a breakthrough in fact, in terms of letting go. My body is constantly fighting me, locking me out of good posture and tensing up. Today I let it be and slowly I feel myself coming back to calmness. I feel so upside down 'spiritually', like I've missed the several decades of asanas/meditation/whatever that would let me channel insight correctly. Got a light but there's nothing to smoke.

Do you know anything about 'karmic precipitation'? I heard that it is possible to trigger long latent negative karmas upon an awakening experience. Meaning that although you might have awakened, suddenly you are now suffering harder than ever as all your negative karma has caught up/been released. There is still a lot of rage within me, which stands in incredible contrast to the insight/clarity of awakening. How do I make sense of this rage? I see it as comical & transient but at the same time it's every bit a legitimate feeling, a legitimate reaction to traumas.