Northerner
Rising Star
Before I touched DMT I might have considered myself a spiritual person. Things seemed to exist in a place between this world and many others. Once I started down the spicy road, over a series of deeper and deeper journeys, I met many manifestations that appeared to to me to be entities and even deities. I had harsher experiences as well, experiences where I died and was disassociated from everything I know to be and then that which was disassociated was destroyed as well. These sorts of things can leave one wondering about the fabric of reality.
After time and thinking all the dust settles. So I know that A, B, and C were illusions, they are clearly a manifestation of my mind. So what about D through to F? And someone else's ideas of G through to K? They're pretty popular ideas so they should be valid. But then again one doesn't have to look very far back into history to see that humans are perpetually wrong about almost everything and change their minds consistently. Noone else is able to shed any light on this for me either, I'll have to make my own mind up.
But I've created and destroyed so many realities myself. Am I to choose one or a group of beliefs I like the feeling of and blindly accept them as truth whilst subconsciously blocking out any information that contradicts my preconceived ideas? What is there to test the validity of any of these thoughts, ideas or beliefs?
And the answer I came to was nothing. Absolutely nothing.
And such is the process that DMT lead me to be borderline atheist. I know it's contrary to everything in popular literature that happens when people embark on entheogenic journeys. Or maybe it's just that but a different take on it. Maybe my realisations that the things that are happening right here in my life, in this world of consensus reality, are what counts at this stage in life and other esoteric musings are an unnecessary distraction that appear to be fantastical.
Though psychedelics are no less impressive now, there's not a jaded reflection that makes me doubt every moment of my experiences. Perhaps they are even better than ever because I'm not concerned about things I cannot know.
After time and thinking all the dust settles. So I know that A, B, and C were illusions, they are clearly a manifestation of my mind. So what about D through to F? And someone else's ideas of G through to K? They're pretty popular ideas so they should be valid. But then again one doesn't have to look very far back into history to see that humans are perpetually wrong about almost everything and change their minds consistently. Noone else is able to shed any light on this for me either, I'll have to make my own mind up.
But I've created and destroyed so many realities myself. Am I to choose one or a group of beliefs I like the feeling of and blindly accept them as truth whilst subconsciously blocking out any information that contradicts my preconceived ideas? What is there to test the validity of any of these thoughts, ideas or beliefs?
And the answer I came to was nothing. Absolutely nothing.
And such is the process that DMT lead me to be borderline atheist. I know it's contrary to everything in popular literature that happens when people embark on entheogenic journeys. Or maybe it's just that but a different take on it. Maybe my realisations that the things that are happening right here in my life, in this world of consensus reality, are what counts at this stage in life and other esoteric musings are an unnecessary distraction that appear to be fantastical.
Though psychedelics are no less impressive now, there's not a jaded reflection that makes me doubt every moment of my experiences. Perhaps they are even better than ever because I'm not concerned about things I cannot know.