SunshineMaker
May we never go to hell, but always be on our way.
I'm writing this confused and humbled because whatever just happened, wasn't supposed to happen. There's no way for this to experience to have actually happened but it did, it's something I will have to review and question for the rest of my life. I'm shook.
I start my journey with fresh product that has been given ample time to dry after re-x. Like clock work, tones change, body is vibrating, music has adapted the welcome back feel that's so familiar, my scene is set in the "waiting room." 1 long inhale and things transform immediately. I've never felt love so deeply it was pure magical bliss, hats off to the chef on this one I really out did myself. I felt almost like my soul was nearing the most intense orgasm throughout multiple ages and lives, I started feeling slightly nauseous but it all kept feel better and better. Until I noticed a slight shift in the room. Now this is where things turn. That slight shift turned evil and violent fast. This new energy was not kind, I can't even describe the language and emotions I was witnessing. Pure violent evil. On my wall I have wooden cutout sacred G surrounded by a wooden frame I'll post a Pic at the end. Every journey I've taken I've always noticed that area is a gateway for energy to come through and it's always been kind and loving, the shapes seem more round and they flow happily while allowing these energies through. But this time they were sharp and filled with a red angry hue. At this point I'm demanding my space back, reminding this intruder as to who's in charge. This spirit was strong, for a period of time I struggled to find the word " command" along with others. As I regained traction I pushed that energy back out of the gateway but it was fighting back hard. I could see it pulsating as my space started to heal itself. One final sign of dominance, it was like tug of war and we were both tied, one has to purvail. Then BOOM. Like a whip being snapped the energy was gone as fast as it appeared but simultaneously my spotify on my TV logs me out, not only that, deleted my account from my TV and all that was left was my friends account that had been on it for a year or so. I grab my phone and I'm logged out on my phone as well. I regain my account and quickly turn on music to relieve the deafening confusion in the room. After awhile I gathered what thoughts I had left and loaded a new one. And three tries later I can't achieve the " waiting room " feeling. Visuals change but very grounded experience like a free trial of what could. I try once more and my sight begins to disolve I think we have lift off and I'm suddenly spit out breathing deeply for some time and denied any insider access. When I pushed that energy out I felt a disconnect, is this a safety feature built in to protect the main frame? Safety procedure as things are dealt with higher up ? I hope the experience I pushed so hard out of my life wasn't a key that I needed to collect and experience. Idk but when that music logged me out I realized it was something powerful. Any thoughts or words in general would help right now. I'm shaken up.
I start my journey with fresh product that has been given ample time to dry after re-x. Like clock work, tones change, body is vibrating, music has adapted the welcome back feel that's so familiar, my scene is set in the "waiting room." 1 long inhale and things transform immediately. I've never felt love so deeply it was pure magical bliss, hats off to the chef on this one I really out did myself. I felt almost like my soul was nearing the most intense orgasm throughout multiple ages and lives, I started feeling slightly nauseous but it all kept feel better and better. Until I noticed a slight shift in the room. Now this is where things turn. That slight shift turned evil and violent fast. This new energy was not kind, I can't even describe the language and emotions I was witnessing. Pure violent evil. On my wall I have wooden cutout sacred G surrounded by a wooden frame I'll post a Pic at the end. Every journey I've taken I've always noticed that area is a gateway for energy to come through and it's always been kind and loving, the shapes seem more round and they flow happily while allowing these energies through. But this time they were sharp and filled with a red angry hue. At this point I'm demanding my space back, reminding this intruder as to who's in charge. This spirit was strong, for a period of time I struggled to find the word " command" along with others. As I regained traction I pushed that energy back out of the gateway but it was fighting back hard. I could see it pulsating as my space started to heal itself. One final sign of dominance, it was like tug of war and we were both tied, one has to purvail. Then BOOM. Like a whip being snapped the energy was gone as fast as it appeared but simultaneously my spotify on my TV logs me out, not only that, deleted my account from my TV and all that was left was my friends account that had been on it for a year or so. I grab my phone and I'm logged out on my phone as well. I regain my account and quickly turn on music to relieve the deafening confusion in the room. After awhile I gathered what thoughts I had left and loaded a new one. And three tries later I can't achieve the " waiting room " feeling. Visuals change but very grounded experience like a free trial of what could. I try once more and my sight begins to disolve I think we have lift off and I'm suddenly spit out breathing deeply for some time and denied any insider access. When I pushed that energy out I felt a disconnect, is this a safety feature built in to protect the main frame? Safety procedure as things are dealt with higher up ? I hope the experience I pushed so hard out of my life wasn't a key that I needed to collect and experience. Idk but when that music logged me out I realized it was something powerful. Any thoughts or words in general would help right now. I'm shaken up.
