AllRightNow
Rising Star
Hey everyone,
I don't know where to begin really so I'll start with a recent experience that made me think there was something very real to the use of substances that alter one's perception.
I've been a fairly regular Cannabis user for only a couple of years and have taken things like MDMA and some less beneficial substances of the amphetamine variety (read: crappy speed). I'd always just smoked with friends and chilled out, talked, listened to cool music, ate tasty food and watched crazy/funny videos and movies - the standard experience. When I smoked alone I realised the potential for serious introspection with Cannabis and I enjoyed thinking about various things from an almost 'detached' point of view. Things were clearer and the fragmented pieces of thoughts linked together much easily - I could see a bigger picture for the first time by taking a step out of myself and out of my own head.
Even whilst doing this it would lead to more questions and I would attempt to look at these but I had never really had any kind of experience other than the ability to question. I questioned everything I thought I knew and everything I had taken for granted. I tried to look at everything objectively and started noticing more and more about the world and how much I took for granted. I thought back over what I had been taught in school and tried to think about what it meant because the real significance of what was taught had been, I felt, brushed over or lost in the race to get high marks. To regurgitate rather than contemplate and maybe understand was the order of the day.
It was during a complete power cut in my flat (I'm 21 and a full-time History student) that I had a strange experience. With no distractions at all except the dwindling daylight coming in through my window, I lay on my bed and had a smoke. It was a bizarre experience because it really made me confront my issues within myself rather than look objectively and I can only dimly remember what happened but it wasn't exactly pleasant. It was to do with family and various personal topics but when it was over it was very clear to me that it had passed. I opened my eyes and ripples were in the air - transparent but very visible. Bright colours spread all around the room from the extremities such as the door-handle and lightbulb to all the surfaces and all of the walls. I don't know where it came from (remember, it was a powercut - and it didn't come from another flat) but I could hear the song "All Right Now" by Free playing as the colours spread around the room (hence the name). It made sense considering the unpleasant experience that had proceeded it but I had never had such an experience with just Cannabis or, honestly, at all. I have not tried any other psychedelics because I have always felt that it wasn't the right time or place, either physically or within my own psyche to start delving into my untapped mine - plus I didn't have the friends I needed, they would have made any experience so much worse. I have had another experience with Cannabis that was similar but, honestly, I don't know what happened and really can't explain it...but the colours did appear at the end again.
So I became more interested in what exactly reality is. I had taken it for granted that we, as humans, perceieve only a slither of all light through our eyes. We hear only a small range of vibrations as sounds and so on. I want to learn more about these kind of things and from what I have heard of DMT it sounds like an incredible experience. The power of thought and how it affects the way you experience anything is something that was until recently an almost alien concept. Yet it is so obvious.
I'm not in a position to produce my own DMT at the moment in a shared flat so I don't know it will be happening any time soon but my interest has been awakened. I live in the UK where Salvia Divinorum is legal and have a few questions about that once I am allowed to roam the boards properly.
I'm genuinely interested in this and not just looking to get high. I've gotten high, it's fun, sure...but I want to experience the really mind-opening and life-enhancing aspects of these subjects so in that sense, regardless of any substance use in my past, I consider myself a total newbie.
I feel I am rambling a little and yet I have so much more to say as the path to this point has been so long and complicated for me. I'll leave it there for now but if you've got any questions, please ask. I may just need the right questions to really explain myself.
Thanks
AllRightNow
I don't know where to begin really so I'll start with a recent experience that made me think there was something very real to the use of substances that alter one's perception.
I've been a fairly regular Cannabis user for only a couple of years and have taken things like MDMA and some less beneficial substances of the amphetamine variety (read: crappy speed). I'd always just smoked with friends and chilled out, talked, listened to cool music, ate tasty food and watched crazy/funny videos and movies - the standard experience. When I smoked alone I realised the potential for serious introspection with Cannabis and I enjoyed thinking about various things from an almost 'detached' point of view. Things were clearer and the fragmented pieces of thoughts linked together much easily - I could see a bigger picture for the first time by taking a step out of myself and out of my own head.
Even whilst doing this it would lead to more questions and I would attempt to look at these but I had never really had any kind of experience other than the ability to question. I questioned everything I thought I knew and everything I had taken for granted. I tried to look at everything objectively and started noticing more and more about the world and how much I took for granted. I thought back over what I had been taught in school and tried to think about what it meant because the real significance of what was taught had been, I felt, brushed over or lost in the race to get high marks. To regurgitate rather than contemplate and maybe understand was the order of the day.
It was during a complete power cut in my flat (I'm 21 and a full-time History student) that I had a strange experience. With no distractions at all except the dwindling daylight coming in through my window, I lay on my bed and had a smoke. It was a bizarre experience because it really made me confront my issues within myself rather than look objectively and I can only dimly remember what happened but it wasn't exactly pleasant. It was to do with family and various personal topics but when it was over it was very clear to me that it had passed. I opened my eyes and ripples were in the air - transparent but very visible. Bright colours spread all around the room from the extremities such as the door-handle and lightbulb to all the surfaces and all of the walls. I don't know where it came from (remember, it was a powercut - and it didn't come from another flat) but I could hear the song "All Right Now" by Free playing as the colours spread around the room (hence the name). It made sense considering the unpleasant experience that had proceeded it but I had never had such an experience with just Cannabis or, honestly, at all. I have not tried any other psychedelics because I have always felt that it wasn't the right time or place, either physically or within my own psyche to start delving into my untapped mine - plus I didn't have the friends I needed, they would have made any experience so much worse. I have had another experience with Cannabis that was similar but, honestly, I don't know what happened and really can't explain it...but the colours did appear at the end again.
So I became more interested in what exactly reality is. I had taken it for granted that we, as humans, perceieve only a slither of all light through our eyes. We hear only a small range of vibrations as sounds and so on. I want to learn more about these kind of things and from what I have heard of DMT it sounds like an incredible experience. The power of thought and how it affects the way you experience anything is something that was until recently an almost alien concept. Yet it is so obvious.
I'm not in a position to produce my own DMT at the moment in a shared flat so I don't know it will be happening any time soon but my interest has been awakened. I live in the UK where Salvia Divinorum is legal and have a few questions about that once I am allowed to roam the boards properly.
I'm genuinely interested in this and not just looking to get high. I've gotten high, it's fun, sure...but I want to experience the really mind-opening and life-enhancing aspects of these subjects so in that sense, regardless of any substance use in my past, I consider myself a total newbie.
I feel I am rambling a little and yet I have so much more to say as the path to this point has been so long and complicated for me. I'll leave it there for now but if you've got any questions, please ask. I may just need the right questions to really explain myself.
Thanks
AllRightNow
