Hello AllRightNow,

Thank you for this marvelous, well thought out and written introduction.  I feel I got a sense of who you are just from those few paragraphs. 

Your experiences sound deep. 

And don't worry about lacking immediate access to DMT.  One way or another it will most likely find you.  Some of us waited a very long time.  It's worth it. 

Also, there are many active Nexians who have not yet smoked DMT, have not broken through, will never smoke DMT, etc.  This is a big community that is about a lot more than a single entheogen/neurotransmitter.

I encourage you to explore if you haven't already done so.  Lots on offer here.

Welcome to the family.

Pandora