Hello 3rdI,

Welcome to the Nexus.  Awesome, well written introduction and experience reports. 

By the way, you might want to take a quick moment to edit it to introduce whole line breaks in between paragraphs.  Many folks here at Nexus are sticklers for that and many do read reports while tripping so it kind of makes sense.

I don't have much to say other than your experiences were PURE DMT.  Everything you wrote resonated with various experiences I've had with the molecule.  Including the sense of being irrevocably changed. 

I respect, honor and praise your wisdom in that you are taking plenty of time to think things over and integrate.  Taking a month or more to think over such profound experiences and try to interpret what they might personally mean makes a lot of sense to me.

Your first tastes were due to the largesse of your friend.  If you ever wanted to journey again, you can learn to extract by clicking on the wiki link in the upper right hand corner of the Forum you will see there are a huge number of easy to use at home extraction teks that would allow you to extract your own DMT at home from plant materials easily and safely.  You might want to check it out.

If any questions, thoughts, concerns or more trip reports come up, please do not hesitate to post in the Welcome Area.

Glad you joined us and again, I really enjoyed reading about your experiences.