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Rising Star
Okay so after years of reading up on this substance I finally managed to amuster some waxy yellow spice.
I loaded up 70mg in 'The Machine' and did the same again 30 minutes later after failing to get a good hit the first time around (steel wool too compacted in neck of bottle making drawing difficult methinks).
Both trips were similar with the second taking me near to breakthrough I think. Vastly experienced in magic mushrooms (semilanceata), what I experienced reminded me somewhat of the peak from them and as such scared me and grounded me a little.
I certainly feel I fought to pull myself out of this trip, through anxiety and fear. As I felt myself nearing the edge the thought came over me 'to remember to breath' and I panicked somewhat and tried to get outside for fresh air but could barely move.
Okay so I'll talk about the second dose, they were similar but the second showed more. As first user amongst my crowd I asked friends to notify me when 'The Machine' started smoking. I tooted a little and exhaled a little smoke so knew then to take a big chug and was informed The Machine was filling up nicely this time around. This again filled me with more fear as I knew what had happened previously was about to happen, but 'worse'.
Psychedelic geometric patterns formed around my lookers eyes and then a kaleidascoping windmill of geometric patterns formed beside him. I looked to the ceiling and things bulged in the all too familiar psilocybin ways.
I closed my eyes, close to the edge I felt, there was vivid imagery of cartoony shapes, characters but not of humanoid form before it settled to what seemed similar to a 3D bin (circular cube, can't remember the name) with a hole with a few ghoulish characters spinning inside it holding aloft something before them but I couldn't make out what).
I have never been one for 'closed-eyed-visuals' and the glare by one or two of them scared me to eventually open my eyes, one was male whose face aged rapidly if I concentrated on it. Although not overpoweringly manevolent it was sufficiently unsettling. I have seen a similar group of ghouls on mushrooms and again this unsettled me as I associated with these.
However, unlike mushrooms, one of the three was a definite feminine presence, calming, divine and caring if still very alien like. She beckoned me in and I felt at ease and at comfort concentrating on her.
Still the others lingered though so I opened my eyes. My friend was no longer his usual form but simply a glowing humanoid shape energy force.
About the time I felt I needed to get outside, these mini ghouls were shifting colourful psychedelic table like structures to and fro on the floor in front of me so that I could not concentrate on reality. Gravity seemed to flip upside down and sideways as the ghouls shifted 'the tables' so I felt very disorientated trying to move.
I felt myself trying to drag myself back to normality filled with fear.
To my left though the Divine female entity appeared ethereally, smiling and skipping a merry dance, her robes draped from her limbs in a Persian Princess type manner. She warmed me and straightened out gravity but seemed to be waving farewell for now. I looked towards the football (soccer) game my mates were watching, could just make out the players but they had no faces, simply cubic shapes, energy forces like my friend beside me. A few jittery patterns and it was all over.
Immediately I felt a little disappointed, it all only lasted a few minutes but then looking back it was nearly immense in that time.
There was a slightly sceptical other friend sat in front of me who had frowned upon the extraction process and I felt like I didn't want to look smacked out with my crude crack pipe and then laying there 'asleep'. Then the spooky ghoulishness of mushrooms experienced in the past filled me with apprehension as this was similar. The 'first steps into the unknown' also frightened me but now I have first hand experience I feel I would better cope, especially without sceptical company.
I've just read a mega dose gives you no choice other than to accept, is this the only way to overcome this fear?
Also, feel re-xing a few times to a proper crystal might eliminate some of the ghoulishness. Or am I wide of the mark here?
I loaded up 70mg in 'The Machine' and did the same again 30 minutes later after failing to get a good hit the first time around (steel wool too compacted in neck of bottle making drawing difficult methinks).
Both trips were similar with the second taking me near to breakthrough I think. Vastly experienced in magic mushrooms (semilanceata), what I experienced reminded me somewhat of the peak from them and as such scared me and grounded me a little.
I certainly feel I fought to pull myself out of this trip, through anxiety and fear. As I felt myself nearing the edge the thought came over me 'to remember to breath' and I panicked somewhat and tried to get outside for fresh air but could barely move.
Okay so I'll talk about the second dose, they were similar but the second showed more. As first user amongst my crowd I asked friends to notify me when 'The Machine' started smoking. I tooted a little and exhaled a little smoke so knew then to take a big chug and was informed The Machine was filling up nicely this time around. This again filled me with more fear as I knew what had happened previously was about to happen, but 'worse'.
Psychedelic geometric patterns formed around my lookers eyes and then a kaleidascoping windmill of geometric patterns formed beside him. I looked to the ceiling and things bulged in the all too familiar psilocybin ways.
I closed my eyes, close to the edge I felt, there was vivid imagery of cartoony shapes, characters but not of humanoid form before it settled to what seemed similar to a 3D bin (circular cube, can't remember the name) with a hole with a few ghoulish characters spinning inside it holding aloft something before them but I couldn't make out what).
I have never been one for 'closed-eyed-visuals' and the glare by one or two of them scared me to eventually open my eyes, one was male whose face aged rapidly if I concentrated on it. Although not overpoweringly manevolent it was sufficiently unsettling. I have seen a similar group of ghouls on mushrooms and again this unsettled me as I associated with these.
However, unlike mushrooms, one of the three was a definite feminine presence, calming, divine and caring if still very alien like. She beckoned me in and I felt at ease and at comfort concentrating on her.
Still the others lingered though so I opened my eyes. My friend was no longer his usual form but simply a glowing humanoid shape energy force.
About the time I felt I needed to get outside, these mini ghouls were shifting colourful psychedelic table like structures to and fro on the floor in front of me so that I could not concentrate on reality. Gravity seemed to flip upside down and sideways as the ghouls shifted 'the tables' so I felt very disorientated trying to move.
I felt myself trying to drag myself back to normality filled with fear.
To my left though the Divine female entity appeared ethereally, smiling and skipping a merry dance, her robes draped from her limbs in a Persian Princess type manner. She warmed me and straightened out gravity but seemed to be waving farewell for now. I looked towards the football (soccer) game my mates were watching, could just make out the players but they had no faces, simply cubic shapes, energy forces like my friend beside me. A few jittery patterns and it was all over.
Immediately I felt a little disappointed, it all only lasted a few minutes but then looking back it was nearly immense in that time.
There was a slightly sceptical other friend sat in front of me who had frowned upon the extraction process and I felt like I didn't want to look smacked out with my crude crack pipe and then laying there 'asleep'. Then the spooky ghoulishness of mushrooms experienced in the past filled me with apprehension as this was similar. The 'first steps into the unknown' also frightened me but now I have first hand experience I feel I would better cope, especially without sceptical company.
I've just read a mega dose gives you no choice other than to accept, is this the only way to overcome this fear?
Also, feel re-xing a few times to a proper crystal might eliminate some of the ghoulishness. Or am I wide of the mark here?
