I'm atheist, certainly. My belief is of a nihilist universe. I'm just saying that I'm open to being wrong, and when on psychedelic experiences SWIM considers the truth to be that which he is compelled to believe at the time - Since the universe in which I live is a perceived one, I don't believe I have the right to say that my rationalised explaination of the universe is the correct one. The part which makes me atheist is that I don't believe anyone else does either - I believe in no deity.

Maybe this is just a rationalisation to hypocrisy. Either way, it brings me to peace with any conflicting views that have cropped up given recent experiences. I'm sure I'll settle into something slightly more consistent in the future. Perhaps after SWIM has had some Iboga, purportedly that's a good gateway to helping oneself resolve deep issues.