December 25th - 10pm or so.
Okay I must just say that swim has never, ever had anything like this happen to him before, ever. It was nothing like any experience that swim has read about, it was real and the most intense thing swim has ever experienced.
Swim is on a personal journey, this was the largest event that has ever taken place on his journeys, it shook swim to the core. This experience was not standard - please dont think any different of swim after reading this - he is still the same good ol mr paddles, nothing has changed he just has realised more than ever before.
First a bit of the previous chronicles of swim.
Swim had smoked salvia about 6 months ago a few times and its prescence never really left, if swim ate the fungus, the prescence was visible. Even in everyday life it could be felt but it was not a bother, swim had percieved it as something possibly helpfull, swim was mistaken.
Swim had recently begun utilizing spice and the experiences were always good and positive - no problems, pure compassion and white light - swim had taken on the spice as a helpfull ally - it felt like a brother to him.
Always swim goes in with something in mind, a question. This time swim had decided to find out how salvia was still present within himself and expunge its energy - swim and salvia can not blend.
Okay so this was the largest dose of pure spice swim had ever smoked and it was not much, perhaps 2 and a half matchheads worth or less. Just a tiny bit of the same batch was smoke the previous evening to far lesser effect but of the same or simmilar kind swim is used to. Stb to fasa to freebase then naptha washed to produce pure spice - white spice.
From here on swim will be referred to as the first person to make the story more readable.
The spice was placed in the Pipe and Vaped, Huge first hit, held it until i could feel it had all absorbed and took hit number two, just after it was taken the first hit was realized, but it was different, no rainbow string matrix, the hit was exhailed and the pipe still containing the possible last half hit to 1 hit was put aside.(On spice pulled off a stb i can break thru on less than a matchhead and i have giant lungs - dunno why this made so much vapour - i think im sensitive to spice)
I closed my eyes, my breathing was ever present and always the source of focus. I was in a black room perhaps 3m long by 2m wide and 7.5foot high. Salvias energy prescence was strong, There were 2 people in the room with me, moving around, both seemed to have no gender but one was slightly more masculine and one was more feminine(Salvia) - they both seemed to be controlled by the same energy, there were 2 chairs too. The room was pitch dark but the entities were darker, like black holes almost, no faces but their siloette was very visible. They would walk around the chairs picking up and manipulating different colored energies. This was real - 100 %, as real as real can be. I noticed they did not want to be disturbed and I was deffinately not supposed to be here, i moved around inside this box with them - the room was small i had to move as not to come into contact with one of them - it felt as if they would attack me like a rabbid dog if i disturbed them, the entire energy was negative, dark and alien. It was almost as if they were two parts of a functioning device - like a thought being mulled over in somebodys head, like salvia had stayed inside of me in a small pocket somewhere - as a chemical in my brain perhaps, or a neural network separate of my own that contact is made to by certain thought patterns/cognitive functions I decided to open my eyes, i think this ejected the entity out of me and dissipated the chemical/reminants causing my reality to shift somewhat.
The first part of this experience was really shocking, it was as real as real can be. Opening my eyes was a mistake but at that point any decision would have been a mistake. I looked around and there were no normal hallucinations or anything like that, everything was just different. Everything was in its place as it should be but everything looked like it was made of a different substance, like photoshopped so much it looks unnatural almost manga like. I looked across to my sweetie for grounding(always a look at my sweetie brings me back to earth) and to my absolute horror the same effect had changed her too. This is what freaked me out, the changes to everything else were of minimal importance in comparison. I would look around and everything, as real as could be, in detail, was different, almost exacly like a manga movie done exactly toy story graphics style - i cant stress enough how weird and real this was. If i closed my eyes i was back in the room with those beings, opening them was no better. I decided to keep them open because the energy was less negative here. I knew i had smoked but it felt like a switch in my brain had been flipped and i was now just like this forever (i thought is this what ppl that eat datura feel like, or mad folk ?) - i still had my concept of time, i was like 100% awake and aware and this was all real. I got a bit freaked out hoping not to stay like this thinking that if it is required i may even have to smoke some more spice to adjust my reality back and was prepared to do so - i was prepared to do anything to get back to normal - the entities on closing my eyes dissapated more - i was not intending to stay like this. I got up and left the room - the other room was the same. I kept checking my sweeties face to normalise - using my memory trying to rebuild the world i once knew - slowly but surely things came back to normal. I was shaken up a bit but still maintaining - i handled the situation as best as i could, i did not break at any point, i was concerned because nothing this real has ever happend to me but i was intact.
Overall the energy of this experience was a negative and very alien one. It was not pleasant but i dont journey for fun - often the most important lessons one can learn are of a harsh or unpleasant nature.
Strange thing was this mode felt farmilliar, like a parralell universe that i am always also concious in but not able to remember or think about while here normally.
Also this brought up a few thoughts - perhaps one has to give themselves directly to salvia alone if one is to work with it and learn - perhaps it is like datura - u learn a hell of a lot but at a very serious price.
Perhaps i cant learn from saliva because i have given myself to my sweetie 100%.
Perhaps this is why all my other plants grow well and are happy except for salvia.
Perhaps this is why i cant think of reading a positive salvia report written by a female.
Perhaps this is why i cant think of any female salvia growers.
Im not sure how this effects others, perhaps this is all for me - perhaps it relates to others - i know i cant touch salvia again and i am happy with what the spice has shown me.
Perhaps salvia only shows its beuty to those that have given their heart to enyone, perhaps this is due to the fact that it has problems creating seed and reproducing.
I now have a totally different perception of salvia - i see it in the same way as i view datura and i am happy that the spice has shown me this - the spice is compassion for me and it never lies - it is simmilar to cactus in this reguard.
The spice heals me and i left a lot of the healing in its hands - i dont know if i have to go back there to rid myself of this parasitic energy. I hope not, but i will return to make sure - i feel like i know what to do - i feel like i have some experience from perhaps other lifes. I intend to move foreward and grow from this experience - much learned.
I didnt intend to step on anyones toes with this post it just feels like i have to share what i experienced. Peace out.
Okay I must just say that swim has never, ever had anything like this happen to him before, ever. It was nothing like any experience that swim has read about, it was real and the most intense thing swim has ever experienced.
Swim is on a personal journey, this was the largest event that has ever taken place on his journeys, it shook swim to the core. This experience was not standard - please dont think any different of swim after reading this - he is still the same good ol mr paddles, nothing has changed he just has realised more than ever before.
First a bit of the previous chronicles of swim.
Swim had smoked salvia about 6 months ago a few times and its prescence never really left, if swim ate the fungus, the prescence was visible. Even in everyday life it could be felt but it was not a bother, swim had percieved it as something possibly helpfull, swim was mistaken.
Swim had recently begun utilizing spice and the experiences were always good and positive - no problems, pure compassion and white light - swim had taken on the spice as a helpfull ally - it felt like a brother to him.
Always swim goes in with something in mind, a question. This time swim had decided to find out how salvia was still present within himself and expunge its energy - swim and salvia can not blend.
Okay so this was the largest dose of pure spice swim had ever smoked and it was not much, perhaps 2 and a half matchheads worth or less. Just a tiny bit of the same batch was smoke the previous evening to far lesser effect but of the same or simmilar kind swim is used to. Stb to fasa to freebase then naptha washed to produce pure spice - white spice.
From here on swim will be referred to as the first person to make the story more readable.
The spice was placed in the Pipe and Vaped, Huge first hit, held it until i could feel it had all absorbed and took hit number two, just after it was taken the first hit was realized, but it was different, no rainbow string matrix, the hit was exhailed and the pipe still containing the possible last half hit to 1 hit was put aside.(On spice pulled off a stb i can break thru on less than a matchhead and i have giant lungs - dunno why this made so much vapour - i think im sensitive to spice)
I closed my eyes, my breathing was ever present and always the source of focus. I was in a black room perhaps 3m long by 2m wide and 7.5foot high. Salvias energy prescence was strong, There were 2 people in the room with me, moving around, both seemed to have no gender but one was slightly more masculine and one was more feminine(Salvia) - they both seemed to be controlled by the same energy, there were 2 chairs too. The room was pitch dark but the entities were darker, like black holes almost, no faces but their siloette was very visible. They would walk around the chairs picking up and manipulating different colored energies. This was real - 100 %, as real as real can be. I noticed they did not want to be disturbed and I was deffinately not supposed to be here, i moved around inside this box with them - the room was small i had to move as not to come into contact with one of them - it felt as if they would attack me like a rabbid dog if i disturbed them, the entire energy was negative, dark and alien. It was almost as if they were two parts of a functioning device - like a thought being mulled over in somebodys head, like salvia had stayed inside of me in a small pocket somewhere - as a chemical in my brain perhaps, or a neural network separate of my own that contact is made to by certain thought patterns/cognitive functions I decided to open my eyes, i think this ejected the entity out of me and dissipated the chemical/reminants causing my reality to shift somewhat.
The first part of this experience was really shocking, it was as real as real can be. Opening my eyes was a mistake but at that point any decision would have been a mistake. I looked around and there were no normal hallucinations or anything like that, everything was just different. Everything was in its place as it should be but everything looked like it was made of a different substance, like photoshopped so much it looks unnatural almost manga like. I looked across to my sweetie for grounding(always a look at my sweetie brings me back to earth) and to my absolute horror the same effect had changed her too. This is what freaked me out, the changes to everything else were of minimal importance in comparison. I would look around and everything, as real as could be, in detail, was different, almost exacly like a manga movie done exactly toy story graphics style - i cant stress enough how weird and real this was. If i closed my eyes i was back in the room with those beings, opening them was no better. I decided to keep them open because the energy was less negative here. I knew i had smoked but it felt like a switch in my brain had been flipped and i was now just like this forever (i thought is this what ppl that eat datura feel like, or mad folk ?) - i still had my concept of time, i was like 100% awake and aware and this was all real. I got a bit freaked out hoping not to stay like this thinking that if it is required i may even have to smoke some more spice to adjust my reality back and was prepared to do so - i was prepared to do anything to get back to normal - the entities on closing my eyes dissapated more - i was not intending to stay like this. I got up and left the room - the other room was the same. I kept checking my sweeties face to normalise - using my memory trying to rebuild the world i once knew - slowly but surely things came back to normal. I was shaken up a bit but still maintaining - i handled the situation as best as i could, i did not break at any point, i was concerned because nothing this real has ever happend to me but i was intact.
Overall the energy of this experience was a negative and very alien one. It was not pleasant but i dont journey for fun - often the most important lessons one can learn are of a harsh or unpleasant nature.
Strange thing was this mode felt farmilliar, like a parralell universe that i am always also concious in but not able to remember or think about while here normally.
Also this brought up a few thoughts - perhaps one has to give themselves directly to salvia alone if one is to work with it and learn - perhaps it is like datura - u learn a hell of a lot but at a very serious price.
Perhaps i cant learn from saliva because i have given myself to my sweetie 100%.
Perhaps this is why all my other plants grow well and are happy except for salvia.
Perhaps this is why i cant think of reading a positive salvia report written by a female.
Perhaps this is why i cant think of any female salvia growers.
Im not sure how this effects others, perhaps this is all for me - perhaps it relates to others - i know i cant touch salvia again and i am happy with what the spice has shown me.
Perhaps salvia only shows its beuty to those that have given their heart to enyone, perhaps this is due to the fact that it has problems creating seed and reproducing.
I now have a totally different perception of salvia - i see it in the same way as i view datura and i am happy that the spice has shown me this - the spice is compassion for me and it never lies - it is simmilar to cactus in this reguard.
The spice heals me and i left a lot of the healing in its hands - i dont know if i have to go back there to rid myself of this parasitic energy. I hope not, but i will return to make sure - i feel like i know what to do - i feel like i have some experience from perhaps other lifes. I intend to move foreward and grow from this experience - much learned.
I didnt intend to step on anyones toes with this post it just feels like i have to share what i experienced. Peace out.
