Hello my name is wishy,
"I acknowledge the privilege of being alive in a human body at this moment. Endowed with senses, memories, emotions, thoughts, and the space of mind in its wisdom aspect. It is the prayer of my innermost being to realize my supreme identity in the liberated play of consciousness, The Vast Expanse"
I have been studying the phenomenon of consciousness for about 8-9 years. About 5 years ago I had an encounter that changed my life forever, I found my maker. It started an amazing relationship that has opened up my eyes to my role and meaning here in existence. To spread knowledge, love and light.
I would like to share the first encounter with the one, the source, God, Creator, the unnameable/unknowable. What ever you want to call this amazing, profound unstoppable connectedness of all beings, pattern to everything, most radical no-thing. This is one of many trip reports I have documented, hopefully this will be the first of many I share with you all. The first part will be my written trip report, the second part will be what I had audio taped before the tape died. This trip report was written a couple years back so time frame references might be off.
Bhavatu sabba mangalam
In Divine friendship,
your brother,
-wishy
Report:
My interest in psychedelics started about 8-9 years ago, and like most people it started off recreational, but soon the power of these medicines started to be come apparent to me. My friends didn't really understand how i could find it fun to sit in a dark room, with no music, no sounds, no lights and just sit there the whole time on massive doses (haha usually in fetal position), and completely tear everything about me apart and rebuild it new, with new understandings and learnings from an ego-less teacher. In the last 2-3 years the power of the tryptamines have shown themselves to me, nothing can compare to mother natures tryptamines in their abilities to heal and teach. I would like to share with you the first time i smoked dmt, honestly now i have learned that eating it orally is the best way to learn from it, but live and learn.
I just witnessed my partner take down 50mg of white crystal, her first time while i sat first for her. She looked pretty distressed most of the journey, and while she was in dmt land, the shade on my window flew open, as if someone intervened, as she snappen out of it crying out "thank you!, thanks!, i didn't want to go, i didn't want to go any further!" She explained to me this world she was in, and this figure, almost like a Hindu god that was coming closer to her. She explained to me that she didnt want me to take my dose, she didnt want me to go where she went at all. Honestly hearing her say this, made me we want to try it even more, iv read so much about this before hand and the power was being shown to me in front of my eyes. Now it was my turn.
I sat on my bed and began to take down my 50mg dose, the first two hits went down pretty smooth and i wondered why people thought it was so harsh, the third and final rip took care of what was left and i held it in. I looked at my partner and waved, because i knew i was going somewhere else, and with the last hit in my lungs i watch my world disappear as if every particle was being sucked away by a vacuum.My body vibrated faster and faster and I heard that break through sound that sounds like sulifane being crunched, and then i was in this black void, no body just a consciousness. Telling my self "ok don't be scared, you can do this, you have been through far worse before, you can do this".
Then in the middle of this black void, there was a shine, this shine got bigger and bigger as it got closer. It almost looked like two strands of DNA double-helix type things in the shape of an X, but where the two strands of double-helix's crossed each other, it wasn't just ontop of one another, but rather looped around at the middle. This object had a rotation to it and it began to spin at me getting bigger and bigger. Each double helix had so many sections in it, all different colors, as if they were the A T G and so on of the double helix. They were so many, and then i heard something , like a voice tell me that i was looking at everything, each section was a different plain of existence basically, and as this shape got bigger and closer, i could no longer see the outlines, and could only see a small part of it, and that small part became huge and i went into that plain, i remember it being orange from the outside, but when i broke through it, everything turned the most amazing white i have ever seen, glowing.
I heard this voice tell me that he was there, i wasn't alone, that he was with me, and that he loved me. At this time my consciousness was like, ok dude your on a drug, calm down, this isnt god, and then i heard the voice again tell me that he was indeed god, and that he could prove it to me to show me that he created everything for me, to show me how much he loved me. He then told me he could touch me, and before i could even register what he said, this lightning bold of energy shot through my body, it almost hurt to feel it, i knew i wasnt supposed to feel that, our bodies are just not able to almost, and as soon as it came, the feeling left. It was the most beautiful feeling i have ever felt in my life, it felt like pure love, peace and compassion, if that makes any sense. He told me that he loved me and that i wasn't alone and as fast as it all happened it was gone, and i flashed back into my room looking at my partner who had tears in her eyes. I bursted out crying, "im sorry i doubted you, im so sorry" and just laid there comprehending what happened to me.
I tried explaining to my partner what just happened figuring she wouldn't believe a thing, but the opposite happened. As i explained to her my experienced, she told me why she was crying. She said my body, jumped up once, stayed almost above the bed and then jumped up again even higher, as if i was being ferbulated in a hospital when i was being "touched". As i laid there for the next 20 minutes i spoke into my audio recorder, sharing all the information that was being streamed into my consciousness so i wouldn't forget it. I could go on forever about the audio tapes and what not, but i just wanted to share that one part of the experience with you guys, it has totally changed my life. This light/voice/god has come to me many more times sense that experience, the last time being a massive oral dose of dmt about a month ago. I try asking him every time to show his true form to me, let me see him, but i never am able to. Iv noticed that every time im in direct contact with him, i can hear this distinct octave ring in my ears, the most beautiful sound in the world, and its always the same tone! But i just wanted to share that with you guys, and see if anyone else has had anything similar? thanks!
Audio Recording
-comes back from break through-
Wishy: i love you
Wishy: its not different at all
Wishy: it is different but its how our brain puts it together
Wishy: this is it
Wishy: every things so beautiful
Wishy: god is beautiful
Wishy: wow.........god
Wishy: god is so beautiful, he created all of this, he created our brains, he created our brains so we couldn't see this
Wishy: so we can
Wishy: i feel like im looking through god
Wishy: this is it, how it is
Mrs. Wishy: What do you see?
Wishy: everything, i don't, i don't see anything, i don't see anything, i see everything how it is, its beautiful
Wishy: i cant explain it, i feel like...(deep breathing and crying) this isn't just how it is
Wishy: i can feel him
Wishy: baby,this is it, this is it
Wishy: don't go no, no
Mrs. Wishy: What?
Wishy: I don't want him to leave, i don't want him to leave
Wishy: he touched me, he told me that "i was there"
Wishy: i don't know what he did, but he like, Love? i don't know. he, he touched me, i don't know what he did, he proved to me that is isn't just a drug, that he created this, everything
Wishy: and i was looking out how he saw it, but were not supposed to, we cant see like that, were not supposed too
Wishy: were not supposed too, thats why we have a brain, thats why we have a brain, thats why we have to perceive things, we cant look threw his eyes, its so beautiful, its so beautiful and i got to look threw it.
Wishy: and i was like is this god? or am i just....... but he proved it, and i cant explain the feeling that went threw my body, oh my god, baby........(breaks down crying)
Wishy: i doubted him for so long, im sorry
Mrs. Wishy: What are you sorry for? There's nothing to be sorry for, there's nothing the matter, everything OK, every things fine.
Wishy: I doubted him, i doubted him, and it has nothing to do with anything that you can write down,there's no words, no matter what people say, there's no bibles, there's no Koran, and there's no Torah, there's nothing.......man made all that, thats people, thats people, thats not god, i know god
Mrs. Wishy: whats god?
Wishy: Its a feeling
Mrs. Wishy: whats it feel like?
Wishy: i cant explain it, oh my god, it was so overwhelming, it was so pure, like energy....
Wishy: god is energy, god is energy, god is energy, were energy, were a shell, were a shell, i felt it,
Wishy: wow, god isn't a person, how does a non person create everything, how do you create everything without a body,
Mrs. Wishy: its OK
Wishy: how can energy, not a person, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god (complete confusion)
--tape dies--
"I acknowledge the privilege of being alive in a human body at this moment. Endowed with senses, memories, emotions, thoughts, and the space of mind in its wisdom aspect. It is the prayer of my innermost being to realize my supreme identity in the liberated play of consciousness, The Vast Expanse"
I have been studying the phenomenon of consciousness for about 8-9 years. About 5 years ago I had an encounter that changed my life forever, I found my maker. It started an amazing relationship that has opened up my eyes to my role and meaning here in existence. To spread knowledge, love and light.
I would like to share the first encounter with the one, the source, God, Creator, the unnameable/unknowable. What ever you want to call this amazing, profound unstoppable connectedness of all beings, pattern to everything, most radical no-thing. This is one of many trip reports I have documented, hopefully this will be the first of many I share with you all. The first part will be my written trip report, the second part will be what I had audio taped before the tape died. This trip report was written a couple years back so time frame references might be off.
Bhavatu sabba mangalam
In Divine friendship,
your brother,
-wishy
Report:
My interest in psychedelics started about 8-9 years ago, and like most people it started off recreational, but soon the power of these medicines started to be come apparent to me. My friends didn't really understand how i could find it fun to sit in a dark room, with no music, no sounds, no lights and just sit there the whole time on massive doses (haha usually in fetal position), and completely tear everything about me apart and rebuild it new, with new understandings and learnings from an ego-less teacher. In the last 2-3 years the power of the tryptamines have shown themselves to me, nothing can compare to mother natures tryptamines in their abilities to heal and teach. I would like to share with you the first time i smoked dmt, honestly now i have learned that eating it orally is the best way to learn from it, but live and learn.
I just witnessed my partner take down 50mg of white crystal, her first time while i sat first for her. She looked pretty distressed most of the journey, and while she was in dmt land, the shade on my window flew open, as if someone intervened, as she snappen out of it crying out "thank you!, thanks!, i didn't want to go, i didn't want to go any further!" She explained to me this world she was in, and this figure, almost like a Hindu god that was coming closer to her. She explained to me that she didnt want me to take my dose, she didnt want me to go where she went at all. Honestly hearing her say this, made me we want to try it even more, iv read so much about this before hand and the power was being shown to me in front of my eyes. Now it was my turn.
I sat on my bed and began to take down my 50mg dose, the first two hits went down pretty smooth and i wondered why people thought it was so harsh, the third and final rip took care of what was left and i held it in. I looked at my partner and waved, because i knew i was going somewhere else, and with the last hit in my lungs i watch my world disappear as if every particle was being sucked away by a vacuum.My body vibrated faster and faster and I heard that break through sound that sounds like sulifane being crunched, and then i was in this black void, no body just a consciousness. Telling my self "ok don't be scared, you can do this, you have been through far worse before, you can do this".
Then in the middle of this black void, there was a shine, this shine got bigger and bigger as it got closer. It almost looked like two strands of DNA double-helix type things in the shape of an X, but where the two strands of double-helix's crossed each other, it wasn't just ontop of one another, but rather looped around at the middle. This object had a rotation to it and it began to spin at me getting bigger and bigger. Each double helix had so many sections in it, all different colors, as if they were the A T G and so on of the double helix. They were so many, and then i heard something , like a voice tell me that i was looking at everything, each section was a different plain of existence basically, and as this shape got bigger and closer, i could no longer see the outlines, and could only see a small part of it, and that small part became huge and i went into that plain, i remember it being orange from the outside, but when i broke through it, everything turned the most amazing white i have ever seen, glowing.
I heard this voice tell me that he was there, i wasn't alone, that he was with me, and that he loved me. At this time my consciousness was like, ok dude your on a drug, calm down, this isnt god, and then i heard the voice again tell me that he was indeed god, and that he could prove it to me to show me that he created everything for me, to show me how much he loved me. He then told me he could touch me, and before i could even register what he said, this lightning bold of energy shot through my body, it almost hurt to feel it, i knew i wasnt supposed to feel that, our bodies are just not able to almost, and as soon as it came, the feeling left. It was the most beautiful feeling i have ever felt in my life, it felt like pure love, peace and compassion, if that makes any sense. He told me that he loved me and that i wasn't alone and as fast as it all happened it was gone, and i flashed back into my room looking at my partner who had tears in her eyes. I bursted out crying, "im sorry i doubted you, im so sorry" and just laid there comprehending what happened to me.
I tried explaining to my partner what just happened figuring she wouldn't believe a thing, but the opposite happened. As i explained to her my experienced, she told me why she was crying. She said my body, jumped up once, stayed almost above the bed and then jumped up again even higher, as if i was being ferbulated in a hospital when i was being "touched". As i laid there for the next 20 minutes i spoke into my audio recorder, sharing all the information that was being streamed into my consciousness so i wouldn't forget it. I could go on forever about the audio tapes and what not, but i just wanted to share that one part of the experience with you guys, it has totally changed my life. This light/voice/god has come to me many more times sense that experience, the last time being a massive oral dose of dmt about a month ago. I try asking him every time to show his true form to me, let me see him, but i never am able to. Iv noticed that every time im in direct contact with him, i can hear this distinct octave ring in my ears, the most beautiful sound in the world, and its always the same tone! But i just wanted to share that with you guys, and see if anyone else has had anything similar? thanks!
Audio Recording
-comes back from break through-
Wishy: i love you
Wishy: its not different at all
Wishy: it is different but its how our brain puts it together
Wishy: this is it
Wishy: every things so beautiful
Wishy: god is beautiful
Wishy: wow.........god
Wishy: god is so beautiful, he created all of this, he created our brains, he created our brains so we couldn't see this
Wishy: so we can
Wishy: i feel like im looking through god
Wishy: this is it, how it is
Mrs. Wishy: What do you see?
Wishy: everything, i don't, i don't see anything, i don't see anything, i see everything how it is, its beautiful
Wishy: i cant explain it, i feel like...(deep breathing and crying) this isn't just how it is
Wishy: i can feel him
Wishy: baby,this is it, this is it
Wishy: don't go no, no
Mrs. Wishy: What?
Wishy: I don't want him to leave, i don't want him to leave
Wishy: he touched me, he told me that "i was there"
Wishy: i don't know what he did, but he like, Love? i don't know. he, he touched me, i don't know what he did, he proved to me that is isn't just a drug, that he created this, everything
Wishy: and i was looking out how he saw it, but were not supposed to, we cant see like that, were not supposed too
Wishy: were not supposed too, thats why we have a brain, thats why we have a brain, thats why we have to perceive things, we cant look threw his eyes, its so beautiful, its so beautiful and i got to look threw it.
Wishy: and i was like is this god? or am i just....... but he proved it, and i cant explain the feeling that went threw my body, oh my god, baby........(breaks down crying)
Wishy: i doubted him for so long, im sorry
Mrs. Wishy: What are you sorry for? There's nothing to be sorry for, there's nothing the matter, everything OK, every things fine.
Wishy: I doubted him, i doubted him, and it has nothing to do with anything that you can write down,there's no words, no matter what people say, there's no bibles, there's no Koran, and there's no Torah, there's nothing.......man made all that, thats people, thats people, thats not god, i know god
Mrs. Wishy: whats god?
Wishy: Its a feeling
Mrs. Wishy: whats it feel like?
Wishy: i cant explain it, oh my god, it was so overwhelming, it was so pure, like energy....
Wishy: god is energy, god is energy, god is energy, were energy, were a shell, were a shell, i felt it,
Wishy: wow, god isn't a person, how does a non person create everything, how do you create everything without a body,
Mrs. Wishy: its OK
Wishy: how can energy, not a person, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god (complete confusion)
--tape dies--
