Tonight was the most intense night of my life. And i have never ever felt so absolutely fantastic before, in my whole life.
I took about one gram of dry caapi 50:1 extract, a mimosa hostilis cold water infusion of aproximately 25 grams and a mixture of cyanescens, cubensis and tampanensis (trufles) shrooms. I have no idea about the amount of grams. I bought the cyanescens when they where still legal in the netherlands and they where sold by bags. Each bag was said to contain two doses, but they where very doable as one. I think i must have had two to three bag's of cyanensis and 1/4 of cubensis and 1/4 of tampanensis. But this is just a gues. I just started eating them out of a couple of jars where i keep them dried.
I never been so far in my life. I had a breakthrough, followed by a further breakthrough and yet a further and then another further. Maybe it where 5 layers of breakthroughs, maybe it where 10. You don't count them. If i would have been able to count, i still would have had other priorities.
What happened is something further then just ego loss. Not only did 'i' vanish. Space, time and everything else. I wasn't taken to a place. I think i was transported to thé place, or more....to the very essence of 'place' and 'time' itself.
Ofcourse i cannot exactly describe it, but i think i can take it quite far.
This is how i experienced reality:
When you are aware of something spatial; like a certain object is located at a specific place, you never see the distance as a whole. We always think we do: we think that if we see one end of a distance and another end, that we see them simultaneously. But we never see them exactly simultaneously. Whenever you say:"this thing is here" and "that thing is there", there is a time lapse in our awareness. It just seems as if there isn't one because of how small the time lapse is. Point is: even if coincidently there wouldn't be a time lapse...you are never able to determine absolute simultaneousness.
At the end al these distances can be split up into subdistances, like a meter, centimeter, etc.
Fact is that the very awareness of distance/space is an awareness of a measured or indicated space. Therefore it by definition exists out of 'units'.
The same aplies to time.
So at the end, time and space are one, or at least connected, interdependand, and they are a harmonic vibration between distances, and subdistances like a tone is composed of different harmonics.
The time intervals between the different locations determine the frequency of the space.
So i was taken to a place where time and space where breaken down to a series of endless layers of frequencies. Stretcing into all directions, or more, BEING all directions.
This is only one of the many aspects of it, but we all know the limits of our vocabulary's extend.
Edit: one package of cyanescens contains about 12 grams of fresh shrooms, and the same aplies to the trufles. a pack of fresh cubensis is somewhere around 20 grams. I don't know their dried weight but fresh it must have been around 30 grams of cyanescens, 3 to 4 grams of truffles and 5 grams of cubensis, mixed with this mimosa-ayahuasca.
The duration was extremely long. The trip itself lasted for at least 12 hours, but 20 hours later i was still feeling trippy and seeing shiny colours everywhere.
This was the most fantastic experience of my life, but i don't know if i would recommend such an extreme amount of this psychedelic stuff to anyone. I've read a view descriptions of simillar mega-intense journeys
of pandorra, 69ron and some others and i think everyone who've ever had such an extreme trip would agree that it can be just more overpowering than that you think you're able to imagine.
I took about one gram of dry caapi 50:1 extract, a mimosa hostilis cold water infusion of aproximately 25 grams and a mixture of cyanescens, cubensis and tampanensis (trufles) shrooms. I have no idea about the amount of grams. I bought the cyanescens when they where still legal in the netherlands and they where sold by bags. Each bag was said to contain two doses, but they where very doable as one. I think i must have had two to three bag's of cyanensis and 1/4 of cubensis and 1/4 of tampanensis. But this is just a gues. I just started eating them out of a couple of jars where i keep them dried.
I never been so far in my life. I had a breakthrough, followed by a further breakthrough and yet a further and then another further. Maybe it where 5 layers of breakthroughs, maybe it where 10. You don't count them. If i would have been able to count, i still would have had other priorities.
What happened is something further then just ego loss. Not only did 'i' vanish. Space, time and everything else. I wasn't taken to a place. I think i was transported to thé place, or more....to the very essence of 'place' and 'time' itself.
Ofcourse i cannot exactly describe it, but i think i can take it quite far.
This is how i experienced reality:
When you are aware of something spatial; like a certain object is located at a specific place, you never see the distance as a whole. We always think we do: we think that if we see one end of a distance and another end, that we see them simultaneously. But we never see them exactly simultaneously. Whenever you say:"this thing is here" and "that thing is there", there is a time lapse in our awareness. It just seems as if there isn't one because of how small the time lapse is. Point is: even if coincidently there wouldn't be a time lapse...you are never able to determine absolute simultaneousness.
At the end al these distances can be split up into subdistances, like a meter, centimeter, etc.
Fact is that the very awareness of distance/space is an awareness of a measured or indicated space. Therefore it by definition exists out of 'units'.
The same aplies to time.
So at the end, time and space are one, or at least connected, interdependand, and they are a harmonic vibration between distances, and subdistances like a tone is composed of different harmonics.
The time intervals between the different locations determine the frequency of the space.
So i was taken to a place where time and space where breaken down to a series of endless layers of frequencies. Stretcing into all directions, or more, BEING all directions.
This is only one of the many aspects of it, but we all know the limits of our vocabulary's extend.
Edit: one package of cyanescens contains about 12 grams of fresh shrooms, and the same aplies to the trufles. a pack of fresh cubensis is somewhere around 20 grams. I don't know their dried weight but fresh it must have been around 30 grams of cyanescens, 3 to 4 grams of truffles and 5 grams of cubensis, mixed with this mimosa-ayahuasca.
The duration was extremely long. The trip itself lasted for at least 12 hours, but 20 hours later i was still feeling trippy and seeing shiny colours everywhere.
This was the most fantastic experience of my life, but i don't know if i would recommend such an extreme amount of this psychedelic stuff to anyone. I've read a view descriptions of simillar mega-intense journeys
of pandorra, 69ron and some others and i think everyone who've ever had such an extreme trip would agree that it can be just more overpowering than that you think you're able to imagine.
