Over the last month, since the end of this year. The isses involved in so many major and massive parts of my life, have finally come to conclusions. Before I took DMT, I was a science man, asking for reasons, facts, answers to questions. I have spent time claiming DMT healed me, DMT did this, DMT did that, DMT is responsible for these things. I think I'm now beginning to understand the true effects of what it was I took that night last year.
DMT isn't the realm of the divine, it's not the place where you're given any answers at all, if anything I was only given more questions to the perpetually asking existence I seem to live. This has brought me nothing but sadness, nothing but doubts, nothing but suffering and worry. It has taken the blinders off to the fullest of extents, shown me that I can go through something so profound, terrifying and soul shakingly illuminating it goes beyond words and in this beautiful little moment lies the real truth.
DMT never did anything, it merely showed me what I was doing to myself and made me realise that even DMT itself is an illusion, that the fears we create spawn from the questions and doubts around us. Our anxieties come from a lack of security but security itself is an illusion too. We are so vulnerable, all the time. From both physical and metaphysical experience, we are so beautifully vulnerable.
DMT allows us to rip apart the illusion we created that masks our true selves, it allows you to start the world again, without the constraints, restrictions and illusory boundaries around us and because of this, I understand why is so powerful. We are given another chance but none of the landmarks, none of the paths, nothing we were before.
It is the most liberating and soul aching feeling, to know you were always free and freedom isn't something that can be owned, described, or shown to you, only followed and found for youself.
DMT isn't the realm of the divine, it's not the place where you're given any answers at all, if anything I was only given more questions to the perpetually asking existence I seem to live. This has brought me nothing but sadness, nothing but doubts, nothing but suffering and worry. It has taken the blinders off to the fullest of extents, shown me that I can go through something so profound, terrifying and soul shakingly illuminating it goes beyond words and in this beautiful little moment lies the real truth.
DMT never did anything, it merely showed me what I was doing to myself and made me realise that even DMT itself is an illusion, that the fears we create spawn from the questions and doubts around us. Our anxieties come from a lack of security but security itself is an illusion too. We are so vulnerable, all the time. From both physical and metaphysical experience, we are so beautifully vulnerable.
DMT allows us to rip apart the illusion we created that masks our true selves, it allows you to start the world again, without the constraints, restrictions and illusory boundaries around us and because of this, I understand why is so powerful. We are given another chance but none of the landmarks, none of the paths, nothing we were before.
It is the most liberating and soul aching feeling, to know you were always free and freedom isn't something that can be owned, described, or shown to you, only followed and found for youself.

