I'm still not entirely sure why I am so open on this forum about my history, maybe it is because I know that intelligent people who will not pass judgement will be reading it, maybe I feel like getting this sort of thing off my chest will better help my psyche. I'm not really sure the reasons, but I just had a compulsion to let my story be known. At any rate, I'm sure that there are some of you out there who can relate to what I've had to go through, and I hope that you feel solace knowing that there are others who've had to live through similar situations.