solsticesun
Rising Star
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I've decided to post about a very strange natural dmt trip I had. I had my first experience with dmt a few months before this natural trip. The night began as follows:
I had been talking to my girlfriend about hypnosis and she asked me to try and guide her into a hypnotized state. I softly and slowly did so and at a point she seemed to have dosed off or was really deep. She no longer responded to me. Seeing her in that state reminded me of my first experience with dmt.
For some reason, I decided to try and relive the experience. I closed my eyes and began to recall the sensations and visions. One thing I struggled with that first time was the sensation of losing the ability to breathe. It felt as if my lungs expanded infinitely until I could no longer feel them or control them. When I got to that point in the memory I opened my eyes. My girlfriend opened her eyes at the same time and she had a worried look on her face.
She said when she was under, she had the sensation of not being able to breathe... and she feared that her soul was escaping from her mouth as she was trying to breathe. I hadn't told her about my experience before. I found it very eerie how it seemed I had shared my memory with her in a sense.
We went to sleep and I remember pieces of a dream I was having. I was collecting these basketball sized, deep purple crystals and bringing them to this entity as payment for something. He was made of a writhing energy contained within wrappings like a mummy, but had the shape of a human. He sat atop one of many towers built in a cavern. I climbed a ladder on the side of the tower and passed an armful of crystals to the entity through a window. I was still standing on the ladder when he began reciting many different words.
As with psychedelic experiences and dream states, there are some concepts that ring as absolute truth in the moment. In that moment, I knew the words to be a recitation of my past lives. At least thats what I recall. Normally I would have simply dismissed this as an interesting dream. But what happened next was very peculiar, if not as reality shattering as my first trip.
The words he spoke were utter nonsense. It reminded me of glossolalia or speaking in tongues. About halfway through this little session, he spoke a word that resonated in 3 voices. At least thats how I can think to describe it. It sounded like Thoth, Toth, and Thoeth (the O sound accentuated) He spoke a few more words and I noticed the wood of the tower was warping. My vision was tunneling within the dream. I began to experience full body sensation of that rise to breakthrough. His words ended on a record skipping "photoshop, photoshop, photoshop, photoshop" Repeating tenfold upon each utterance until it was a solid buzz of sound. The dream had done so as well, visually. Repeating visually as a single frame until it was just light and dark pulsating at something like 30 frames a second.
At this point, I was very confused at the rapid and unexpected progression of the dream. I was convinced that this was no longer a dream. I began to see what looked like photographs of locations, but in developed photo form. Like the kind you would get after dropping a disposable cam off at a developer. Just little rectangles of locations. But flashing at that 30 frame per second speed. I couldn't absorb them at that speed. The only image I can remember was a desert.
The cycle of frames began to speed up faster and faster until it was warping into a tunnel of pure colors speeding past. Faster and faster until it became the most pure, bright white light I've ever seen. Like looking at a full moon. Just pure light overlaying my entire minds eye. The edges were vibrating with the full spectrum of colors. Upon seeing the pure light, a very high pitched frequency noise sounded off. Just half a second BEEEEEP. I later tried to match the sound on a Sine wave generator, it was around 4000hz.
The moment I saw the light and heard the noise, the center of my brain seemed to erupt in THE MOST explosively orgasmic feeling ive ever experienced. It came from right where the Pineal gland sits. I've never felt anything like that, absolutely new sensation.
From there I began to see the picture card images again, slower and slower...until I was me again and sat straight up in bed... the room slightly spinning and my mind repeating "photoshop photoshop photoshop"
I quickly wrote down the experience and sat there, wide eyed in the dark. I made note of the few things I remembered the clearest. Thoth, photoshop, the one photo i could remember (a desert), and the white light/sound brain-gasm.
Putting it into words seems to lose 99% of the intensity of the experience...but it was powerful.
Anyone have something similar happen before?
I'm at a loss as to why any of it happened that night.
I had been talking to my girlfriend about hypnosis and she asked me to try and guide her into a hypnotized state. I softly and slowly did so and at a point she seemed to have dosed off or was really deep. She no longer responded to me. Seeing her in that state reminded me of my first experience with dmt.
For some reason, I decided to try and relive the experience. I closed my eyes and began to recall the sensations and visions. One thing I struggled with that first time was the sensation of losing the ability to breathe. It felt as if my lungs expanded infinitely until I could no longer feel them or control them. When I got to that point in the memory I opened my eyes. My girlfriend opened her eyes at the same time and she had a worried look on her face.
She said when she was under, she had the sensation of not being able to breathe... and she feared that her soul was escaping from her mouth as she was trying to breathe. I hadn't told her about my experience before. I found it very eerie how it seemed I had shared my memory with her in a sense.
We went to sleep and I remember pieces of a dream I was having. I was collecting these basketball sized, deep purple crystals and bringing them to this entity as payment for something. He was made of a writhing energy contained within wrappings like a mummy, but had the shape of a human. He sat atop one of many towers built in a cavern. I climbed a ladder on the side of the tower and passed an armful of crystals to the entity through a window. I was still standing on the ladder when he began reciting many different words.
As with psychedelic experiences and dream states, there are some concepts that ring as absolute truth in the moment. In that moment, I knew the words to be a recitation of my past lives. At least thats what I recall. Normally I would have simply dismissed this as an interesting dream. But what happened next was very peculiar, if not as reality shattering as my first trip.
The words he spoke were utter nonsense. It reminded me of glossolalia or speaking in tongues. About halfway through this little session, he spoke a word that resonated in 3 voices. At least thats how I can think to describe it. It sounded like Thoth, Toth, and Thoeth (the O sound accentuated) He spoke a few more words and I noticed the wood of the tower was warping. My vision was tunneling within the dream. I began to experience full body sensation of that rise to breakthrough. His words ended on a record skipping "photoshop, photoshop, photoshop, photoshop" Repeating tenfold upon each utterance until it was a solid buzz of sound. The dream had done so as well, visually. Repeating visually as a single frame until it was just light and dark pulsating at something like 30 frames a second.
At this point, I was very confused at the rapid and unexpected progression of the dream. I was convinced that this was no longer a dream. I began to see what looked like photographs of locations, but in developed photo form. Like the kind you would get after dropping a disposable cam off at a developer. Just little rectangles of locations. But flashing at that 30 frame per second speed. I couldn't absorb them at that speed. The only image I can remember was a desert.
The cycle of frames began to speed up faster and faster until it was warping into a tunnel of pure colors speeding past. Faster and faster until it became the most pure, bright white light I've ever seen. Like looking at a full moon. Just pure light overlaying my entire minds eye. The edges were vibrating with the full spectrum of colors. Upon seeing the pure light, a very high pitched frequency noise sounded off. Just half a second BEEEEEP. I later tried to match the sound on a Sine wave generator, it was around 4000hz.
The moment I saw the light and heard the noise, the center of my brain seemed to erupt in THE MOST explosively orgasmic feeling ive ever experienced. It came from right where the Pineal gland sits. I've never felt anything like that, absolutely new sensation.
From there I began to see the picture card images again, slower and slower...until I was me again and sat straight up in bed... the room slightly spinning and my mind repeating "photoshop photoshop photoshop"
I quickly wrote down the experience and sat there, wide eyed in the dark. I made note of the few things I remembered the clearest. Thoth, photoshop, the one photo i could remember (a desert), and the white light/sound brain-gasm.
Putting it into words seems to lose 99% of the intensity of the experience...but it was powerful.
Anyone have something similar happen before?
I'm at a loss as to why any of it happened that night.
