It was a mistake of my part to word it that way, and believe me i thought about it as i wrote that. When i said im prepared, i meant my mind is stable and in condition to take the steps that i want to take. Ive done a handful of hallucinogens including datura and i know that once your in it no preparation can do anything. I simply must try it. I am merely preparing my mind for enlightenment, nothing else. Of course im scared simply because who wouldnt be, anything can happen in hyperspace, but at the same time im ecstatic. So wish me luck with my journey. I will be updating my findings on here in a few weeks