The Thoughts of a Traveler

[ItzJustMe]

Hello everyone! I've read so much on various forums and I finally decided to actually join and contribute my thoughts to the collective that is "us". I am a 40 year old Black man, married, 3 kids, typical life...go to work, come home, eat, watch TV, go to bed and repeat. I hate the term African-American being applied to me because I'm not from Africa, neither were my parents, grandparents or great-grandparents. That's a topic for another day though.:!:

My experiences with psychedlic substances began about 3 years ago when an ex co-worker of mine had some mushrooms that he shared with me. That experience was so breathtakingly beautiful that I had to do more exploring. I found out about Salvia Divinorum online after I couldn't get any more mushrooms. I had never even heard of it but I read some trip reports which I thought were totally fabricated. I was thinking "There's no way a legal substance can make those kind of insane trips happen." Boy, was I wrong! My Salvia experiences led me to personal revelations that seemed too incredible to be true. My journey then led me to DMT. I read so many fascinating things about "The Spirit Molecule" but I didn't think I'd ever get to experience it. After reading some of the extraction techniques, it seemed like I would never be able to do it. Well guess what...after about a year of reading about it I got off my butt and JUST DID IT! Now I'm here to share my experiences with you and meet some new friends along the way. I'm very much looking forward to being a part of this community.

 

[Guyomech]

Welcome ItzJustMe! Congrats on "just doing it", that is indeed the way to go. You sound like someone who got a little taste and then felt the calling. It's a crazy place to be, living an "ordinary" family life and balancing that with this type of deep inner exploration. I'd be very curious to hear about some of your experiences, and how these revelations have sat with you in the context of family life. It's a weird dualism that a lot of us here at the Nexus are dealing with. I'm in my mid forties, new to parenting but with a decades long psychedelic history- sort of like the opposite of your situation... Psychedelic exploration both requires and provides incredible liberation, while parenting is the most grounding and centering experience there is. Not everyone manages to find a comfortable relationship between the two.

 

[Vodsel]

Welcome and congratulations!!

I think there's quite a few of us who didn't really roll up their sleeves until we were thirty and a bunch or more. And I think the life background behind someone that age, particularly if they know about deep episodes like parenthood, makes motivation and intent solid and matured. I mean, everyone knows what they're looking for, but it takes some time to feel that you're looking for the right thing for you.

That, to me, has brought deep and meaningful experiences. And a new way to look at the whole thing. So I relate to what you say about yourself, and I'm glad you're here.

 

[ItzJustMe]

Thanks for welcoming me! I was in my 30's before I even got high from MJ the first time. I had tried it 2 or 3 times before but didn't feel anything so I really wondered why people smoked it. When I finally got high I was like "Oh, I totally get it!" LOL
It feels like I'm on a search for an answer to a question that I don't really want answered. If I get the "ultimate answer" then what else is there to look for? The fun is in the search and the revelations that the search reveals. I mean, can one actually ever know the "unknowable" ?

 

[Guyomech]

Well, it's true that we can't really "know" this stuff in a literal sense, since we are so small and simple... But getting these brief glimpses of higher truths can provide us with great perspective.