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lorax

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SWIM has the feeling that the more he messes with the spice, the more "special powers" he gets.

one of them is that he is getting VERY sensitive to types of energies which he didn't even know were there. he feels "too much" he can't ride the subway anymore because he can feel what others feel. when he closes his eyes he can see lights where people are sitting. these lights have different colors and different halos.

SWIM has taken a step back away from the spice because he first needs to learn to deal with these new powers. It makes it very hard for SWIM to be around many people. He can even feel people who are angry because their car won't start. Whenever someone gets aggressive near SWIM he must leave at once because he can feel the waves of aggression consuming him.

how do other SWIMs deal with these powers? has anybody else experienced things like this? SWIM was always a very sensitive person. He always wanted to live in the jungle from child age on. when he was a child he sometimes cried himself to sleep because he could feel the planets pain. at some point he hated himself for being human. he had thoughts like "what a sick race have we become?" "when will humanity wake up?"

these were thoughts he had back when he was between 8 and 10 years of age. he always enjoyed being around animals and nature.

but even after having taken a big step away from it the powers still seem to continue to grow and make new networks in his mind. SWIM loved to smoke weed,(he's been doing this for over 12 years) but he has quit doing that now because after the first spice session it has made him paranoid, flooding him with unpleasant thoughts and feelings.

SWIM feels like life itself has turned into one big trip for him. It has become way more challenging. His inner voice has become so loud that there is sometimes no way of ignoring it. SWIM is more sensitive to everything. Love & happiness are felt to such an extent that they sometimes seem "too big" to fit in his body. When he is with a woman he feels like this is what he wants to do for the rest of his life. Just being in love and being loved.

anybody else have any thoughts about this?
 
Wow! To be able to share that much about one's most deep and intimate relations - the internal relations had with oneself - takes an extremely large deal of power. This self-empowerment is what mankind is straying away from as elements such as technology and "pop-culture" slowly (and diabolically) creep their way into the lives and minds of a worldwide populous. It is no longer considered "normal" to be oneself and feel comfortable expressing one's feelings and emotions. It is no longer "normal" to expose character traits that "may be interpreted as weaknesses". Rather, we should all be programmed to think, feel, and react to a degree that will place us each, individually into one of many predefined genres, or stereotypes for lack of a better word. What of those who don't fit into any one of these boxes? What of those who do not want to fit into one of these boxes? What of those whose lives are being directly affected (or even worse, programmed - poor, poor youths dem) as a result of these rapidly devolving human values? Well, SWIM treks further and further underground. SWIM still recovers from the deep, deep hurt that overcame him when he made the mistake of entrusting a woman with the knowlege of his powers, his everything, and attempted for a long time to help her understand the goodness of. Be wary!

Just know, SWIY, that although few, there exist those who understand.
 
Lorax-
Welcome to the Wonderland!
Still glad you took the Red pill?
Wait till you take the big plunge and realize you are God. (along with everyone else- they just don't know it)
I threw away a big bag of stinky buds myself...just didn't work the same anymore.......guess our brains are on a new frequency now.

Roll with it!

-BP
 
Being a kind of evangelist could somehow straighten the anger and mischief people bring to themselves. Could possibly show them that none of this belongs to anyone. There's no need for the hate, only show compassion and the art of world feeding day to day. However, with evangelism comes many lies and deceit that has been collaborated from person to person.

There's plenty of negative energy flowing around, and to me, I want no part of it but it's not like we can escape from it. I find myself sharing a piece of my world to the next interested soul, but with caution, there's much to figure out from the body to these powers surrounding us.

..but I could never toss some buds aside. Pass to the leeefft maybe..

that's just me though.
 
It's like having the 'Head Cracked Open' - hard to stuff it all back in again ! So just let it shine out ! ... If you are one of us who is more sensitive, is it a gift, perhaps, you can share..? Find just one, real like-minded/hearted person, and you're porbably going to find more of the 'good' flow of the Chi/energy/light.

Once all the nonsense can be stopped or one ceases to follow it (no TV, no consumerism, no food that has low-Chi, no material illusion etc .. etc..), then it's so much easier to 'live' ..!> Is it possible to wake each day, charged and willing to marvel and love each of our magnificient mutated uniquenesses ... starting with oneself !?! That is all there is to do - The Universal law for me now is: Love, make more love and/or life (any species), and look out for the little ones (any species) - apply that to any waking activity as a 'guideline for attitude' ... see if it's any easier to just Be ..

... And then I realize, once we each get 'sensitized' or cracked-open in our own way...Isn't it a gift for us all, to share... !

I had the image of a loaf of bread, baked fresh every morning - Mana baked up fresh, a wonderloaf of Love happiness, steaming away next to me as I first wake up. I am the 'oven' and I get to eat the superloaf, tearing into it all day, dipping in into any 'situation' to soak up the truth with it, and eating it .. eat a loaf of love all day ... BUT then if I had any left over by bed time, it felt wasteful to have not given it away ! So I had to give the remaining loaf away before the end of the day - simple ! And then the next day I'd awake with the feeling of about a dozen loaves, ready to share ... then a 100 buns, then a loaf the size of my house ... that engulfs me ... etc etc ... Just give it away !
 
I feel like I know exactly what you are talking about..even about the cannabis. I cant even take a hit now without tripping, more than 1 hit and I cannot be around people, emotion are too much and I get anxiety.. and I used to smoke heavily, over 5 times a day for years. Like you, i have alwasy been sensitive, and was alwasy very introspective and shy. When I was young, and in elementary school, the teachers once gave me special hearing tests becasue they thought I coucldnt hear them and that why I was always quite zoned out, never really paying attention to their boring rants.. they found my hearing to be fine, and then suggested to my mother I take ADD medicine, and she told them to fuck off:), n Im glad she did..

Now, after smoking DMT, and heavy mushroom use, I feel like I "understand" why I am like this. I feel like its a gift, and now I am learning to sort of hone it, learn to use. I feel like a complete empath. I dont like being around angry people or situations either, because I pick up on it and this feeback loop starts...
 
lorax said:
when he closes his eyes he can see lights where people are sitting. these lights have different colors and different halos.
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How accurate and reliable is this inner seeing? Can you walk down a street with your eyes closed and be able to pass people? Can you close your eyes and see were people are in another room? I imagine you would be very good at hide and seek? ;)
 
thank you all for those insights into your thoughts. i guess the only thing we can do is to reveal the truth about anything we percieve and use it in the most beneficial way for everybody/thing surrounding us. only from truth can true wisdom arise.

fractal: tell me about angry people.. i just came back from a party with very bad vibrations. there were 2 fights in the 1 hour i was there. in the second one the one dude really got beat up badly. i felt deep sorrow arise from this situation. i left immediately. these last vibrations killed the fun completely for me. i had taken 5mg of pure psilocybin before going to that party. this dose acts as a very good enhancement for my sensitivity. i love to be very sensitive when going out for dancing because i have an even deeper appreciation for the music. but the music also sucked. it was unemotional and monotone. maybe if they would have played more emotional music there wouldn't have been any fights.. music seems to affect people a great deal. djs should think more of themselves as emotional engineers. at least this is what i do when i play at a party.(i dj from time to time)

i also feel like this is a gift which should be used wisely and built up upon.

dagger: it is only people who i am in direct contact with who i see the light of. i need to concentrate on a person and then close my eyes. i need to focus on the persons chest. at first there is darkness.. then after about 3 seconds a small globe of light starts vibrating at that focus point. for each person there is a different halo surrounding it. this is what i see.

it would surely be awesome if one could learn to work with this skill to such an extent that one could feel the presence of all beings at once and see millions of lights when one closes ones eyes.. but i guess that also could be a little much for a person to handle. i am quite happy that i need to focus or be in direct contact or conversation with a person for it to light up.
 
Beautiful, I'm yet to try DMT and i cant wait to journey with DMT. Reading your experience was so refreshing so raw, inspiring and amazing.
I also used to cry when I was small about the state of our planet and how humans were treating animals and all life on it. When i was 10 or so i went to sleep one night and in my dreams a whale came to me and was in great pain and there was blood every where. When i woke up the next morning on the front page of the newspaper was an article about a mass whale slaughter. From that moment on i knew my special animal was a whale, I also knew that I had a great sensitivity about the world around me. Enthogens defiantly open doors of perception, Ive also experienced a similar experience with weed . Ive never smoked very often maybe once every month or two, but ive specifically found if i smoke weed with any enthogens it tends to make the experience dark for me and very much on a hyper sensitive level very paranoid and very unpleasant. I'm unable to combine weed with any enthogens because of this. The Less weed i smoke the better, its interesting my body and my mind doesn't seem to accept dissociatives very well I'm still trying to piece this puzzle together though. Again thank you for such a beautiful post, just sum thoughts :)

Much Peace and Compassion
 
I find that when I listen to any real good psytrance(lately its been tripswitch and vibrasphere), I can tune in so well and feel it radiating throughout my body. Vivid dreamlike imagry starts flowing through my head as I feel the sounds open my cells up, and get the relaxed and euphoric pineal gland sensations..

I have been smoking DMT once or twice a week lately, in sub-breakthrough doses and feel like it is "showing" me how to do the rest..

I really enjoy DMT in these lower doses..still quite strong, to the tune of an 8th of mushrooms, but smoother, clearer and shorter. I feel as though I could get used to these doses daily, I like it more than smoking cannabis..and save the breakthroughs for weekly/biweekly, or for my aya trips..
 
DarkShaman said:
Wow! To be able to share that much about one's most deep and intimate relations - the internal relations had with oneself - takes an extremely large deal of power. This self-empowerment is what mankind is straying away from as elements such as technology and "pop-culture" slowly (and diabolically) creep their way into the lives and minds of a worldwide populous. It is no longer considered "normal" to be oneself and feel comfortable expressing one's feelings and emotions. It is no longer "normal" to expose character traits that "may be interpreted as weaknesses". Rather, we should all be programmed to think, feel, and react to a degree that will place us each, individually into one of many predefined genres, or stereotypes for lack of a better word. What of those who don't fit into any one of these boxes? What of those who do not want to fit into one of these boxes? What of those whose lives are being directly affected (or even worse, programmed - poor, poor youths dem) as a result of these rapidly devolving human values? Well, SWIM treks further and further underground. SWIM still recovers from the deep, deep hurt that overcame him when he made the mistake of entrusting a woman with the knowlege of his powers, his everything, and attempted for a long time to help her understand the goodness of. Be wary!

Just know, SWIY, that although few, there exist those who understand.
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Tell me more? Swim also feels like he has been hiding out with the spice, ever since a very traumatic personal relationship went very bad. a woman broke his trust bad; real bad. Swim is researching alot about ayahuasca as perhaps a ritual both to signify the end of this chapter in his life and also facilitate the healing itself.
 
There seems to be a lot of trends between the individuals who find themselves on this board. Most of us seem to have similar thoughts and feelings towards humanity, and the planet. Most of us seem to realize the desperate need to reunify ourselves with mother nature. Maybe that's why we're here? We're the ones leading the way, trying to grab as many people as we can so we can show them things don't have to be the way they are. That's probably the reason for these "powers" you describe lorax. Maybe you should try utilizing them rather from running from them. Maybe they exist so you can exist to help people.
 
I haven't tried DMT yet (I have some MHRB on order) but I've been experimenting with Salvia. I've found that higher states of brain activation can drain the body's resources more quickly. My advice is to eat the best quality food you can (plenty of whole foods and greens, and fewer animal products) and get a sufficient amount of good quality sleep. This will prolong the afterglow period after a psychedelic experience and give your body the energy and raw materials it needs to support and sustain the higher mental states.
 
Lorax It is likely that you have a form of synesthesia rather than any magical powers. Many people have this and associate colors and shapes and other things with people. Different people have different forms and intensities. It is just that your brain is wired differently with most the neurological basis for this phenomenon is fairly well characterized.. Have you read carlos castanada? As what you describe is very similar to what Don Yuan calls seeing. Although Castandea made up don yuan. SWIM knows many people who have used a lot of psychedelics for many years with out any such effects. He also knows people who have never used these compounds and have synesthesia. Maybe you didn't notice this before as it may be mild, or it could have came on later in life. My guess is that the hallucinogens have nothing to do with this except maybe making you more perceptive to something you already had. it is my believe that they do not give people magical powers but can make one tune into things that were always present but that we learn through conditioning and imprinting to block out. Thus they can make one more aware and tuned in to certain thoughts (frequencies...???) but as far as giving powers there is absolutely no basis for these compounds or any other known materials to do such things.
 
Well your report is very interesting, first it gives much to think about my own experience.

As iam talking for myself i definetly feel a deep change of perception since using psychedelics some years, but it`s not as drastic as you described it.
I think it`s very important for you to learn to controll these things and not to be afraid and negatively influenced in your daily live !

Alles gute !
 
shoe said:
DarkShaman said:
Wow! To be able to share that much about one's most deep and intimate relations - the internal relations had with oneself - takes an extremely large deal of power. This self-empowerment is what mankind is straying away from as elements such as technology and "pop-culture" slowly (and diabolically) creep their way into the lives and minds of a worldwide populous. It is no longer considered "normal" to be oneself and feel comfortable expressing one's feelings and emotions. It is no longer "normal" to expose character traits that "may be interpreted as weaknesses". Rather, we should all be programmed to think, feel, and react to a degree that will place us each, individually into one of many predefined genres, or stereotypes for lack of a better word. What of those who don't fit into any one of these boxes? What of those who do not want to fit into one of these boxes? What of those whose lives are being directly affected (or even worse, programmed - poor, poor youths dem) as a result of these rapidly devolving human values? Well, SWIM treks further and further underground. SWIM still recovers from the deep, deep hurt that overcame him when he made the mistake of entrusting a woman with the knowlege of his powers, his everything, and attempted for a long time to help her understand the goodness of. Be wary!

Just know, SWIY, that although few, there exist those who understand.
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Tell me more? Swim also feels like he has been hiding out with the spice, ever since a very traumatic personal relationship went very bad. a woman broke his trust bad; real bad. Swim is researching alot about ayahuasca as perhaps a ritual both to signify the end of this chapter in his life and also facilitate the healing itself.
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You see, SWIM has known for many years that his path in life is that of a shaman. When SWIM encountered the LOVE of his LIFE (and trust me, SWIM is no rookie), all of the planets had seemingly fallen into perfect alignment like he had never thought possible. There exists (or at one point, existed) an extremely intense magnetic pull between SWIM and this woman; an actual physical pull that was felt by both SWIM and this woman from the moment their eyes first met.

In the beginning this woman was so accepting, and even intrigued by, SWIM's "different" or mystical ways. As a matter of fact, his dreadlocks are the reason that they met initially. SWIM knows human nature better than to feel deceived for trusting his deepest, most intimate thoughts, feelings, etc. with this woman, but the pain & mild resentments linger on as he treks deeper into his underground lair of isolation. SWIM must admit that, as a seasoned mycologist, horticulturist, and mystic, SWIM only first took interest in the spice during this process of pain in attempt to re-ground himself, as he had temporarily become lost as to whom he truly is & to what his purpose is. SWIM had never though women in general could completely be trusted until he had gotten to know this woman. Just when SWIM thought it was safe. . .

SWIM's up front & frequent travels with spice have brought him to the conclusion that the spice has definitely helped him to, not so specifically, begin a new chapter in his life, although, SWIM has found that the healing (ironic, coming from a healer) must only come from within one's being & must also be focused on with a large amount of energy & purpose (which, yes, the spice has definitely helped to redefine)in order to be permanent. This has been overly exhausting of his powers at times & has thrown his positive flow of chi into a negative whirlwind more than once. SWIM knows that the purity of the spice doesn't allow for it to act as a retreat from reality (as many seek to escape into in similar situations, often finding artificial reprieve in things such as opioids, pharmaceuticals, etc. - this is not a healing process), but does realize how extremely powerful that it can be in regards to refocusing one's perspectives & directives.

The most valuable principle that SWIM has defined from this mess is that he knows, now more so than ever, that no matter how lost he may find himself at times, he can NEVER, EVER forget who he is or what he lives for. This experience had SWIM cutting it way too close to that absolutely terrifying edge.

SWIM sincerely hopes that this sprinkle of wisdom is of some help, as it is certainly intended as a gift of support to SWI shoe, as well as all of my people out there. 'Nuff respect & warm blessin's.
 
wow, I experienced sometinhg quite similar to you guys..I basically gave everything i had, my job, and place of residence to be with a girl 2 years ago..and she fucked off eventually when she got board.. I spent a long time being depressed, until I finally slipped out of it, but now I dont trust others, not that I cant, I just dont. I dont want to be so dependant on other people at all, in any way.I depend on me. I have become so much more reclusive, sitting in my room tripping all alone every day after work:d ..its all good though, wouldnt have it any other way, I like being able to view it all from my sheltered little "outside psoition", though none of us are truely outside...
 
TheNtt said:
There seems to be a lot of trends between the individuals who find themselves on this board. Most of us seem to have similar thoughts and feelings towards humanity, and the planet. Most of us seem to realize the desperate need to reunify ourselves with mother nature. Maybe that's why we're here? We're the ones leading the way, trying to grab as many people as we can so we can show them things don't have to be the way they are. That's probably the reason for these "powers" you describe lorax. Maybe you should try utilizing them rather from running from them. Maybe they exist so you can exist to help people.
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I really agree with what you are saying TheNtt. I think that maybe we have just made a better bridge for communication between the 2 hemispheres of the brain, so that we can conceptualize so much better, utalizing the irrational/subconcious to a higher degree so as to see "bigger" pictures..could maybe also explain the synesthesia, which decribed the way bufoman did, seems plausible..

I like what you sadi about reuniting with mother nature. I think that "nature", in the casual use of the term is the real unconciousness/subconciousness.. The other. The one we stem from..we are so much a part of it, but have forgotten this..Our bodies are completely rebuilt every 7 years apparently, and its our metabolism that is responsible. We are what we eat, and what we eat is essentially, the planet, or parts of it. So I guess that is what we are....
 
Oh boy. What you have explain my friend is how so many of us are. I didnt even realise many of the things you were talking about until I reflected your words into my thoughts. Everything is so intense for us. Its just now we work on a different wavelength. We have to roll with it, we dont have a choice. But I guess in the end it will all end beautifully.

But man oh man, sometimes it can be too much. People are such deep creatures. I wonder what will become...
 
I'm so glad i found this website. Its like a blessing in itself. I feel alot of the same things some of you are talking about. I dont see a light in a single person though. I've closed my eyes and see nothing but darkness.. then a shockwave of light blasts around me and i quickly get of a sense of everyone, everything, i picture what people are going threw, how people live their lives, everything. When i smoke heavely i have extremely deep thoughts. About everything. Thoughts enter my mind so fast i cant even begin to comprehend most. Everytime i smoke alot.. i have a differant trip. I zone out the rest of the world and make my own in my mind. I feel as if i can read people better. I know people without actually knowing them. A few months back, in my first period, i was extremely high. I had smoked atleast 3 grams of potent dro between me and a buddie on the ride to school. We would always greenhouse my car before getting to school. Anyways.. i was in first period.. Just thinking about what i had recently read about DMT in Dr. Rick Strassmans book. Then i felt a strong.. pull... if you will. In the middle of my fourhead. I opened my eyes and a tear rolled down my face. I didnt know why. It just happened. I havnt been the same person since. This ironically enough was the first day i smoked the spice. Later that afternoon. Ever since i cant help but look down upon others. Knowing they are ignorant to the endless possibilities in which our lives revolve around.
 
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