joedirt said:
While light junky...LOL I think I may be joining your ranks. Once you've had that immersion experience (Not just a flash) it seems to consume your conscious mind... White light junky indeed. Of course you already know that it's said being addicted to the bliss of meditation is still an attachment to be over come.....
Yes, this is so true, becoming a junky to the clear light is entrapping, as well. Sigh... even attachment to liberation is a way our mind seeks to retain it's status as a subjective observer. Addiction is essentially addiction, regardless of the nature of the fix. So attachment finds it's way to halt our unification with said luminosity, in subtle and clever ways. By seeing the white light and therefore fixating on it's brilliance, we are drawn into merging with this Great Light of Oneness. I have found that sometimes I linger within my vantage point of being witness to this phenomenon (because it's so damn beautiful). Ecstasy is a very, very addictive mindset!!! Such euphoria is naturally going to create an intense craving. Even now, I hunger for the sublime nectar of this light.
The act of witnessing this force maintains subjectivity and can halt the conjoining of self and Omniself (which are never truly separate from one another but we do find ourselves dreaming that they are two sides of the same cosmic coin). The ecstasy of worship is a sweet but definitive barrier to complete merging within the light. By fully uniting consciously with the light and therefore becoming light itself, we find our awareness in an undifferentiated realm, whose intensity removes any darkness by which to identify the characteristics of light, itself. Thus, all is Void and light no longer is recognizable. Nothing is recognizable, as there is no longer a witness to bear self. By releasing the final fibers of our cognition, we evaporate as ego, self or Godhead. In this complete emptiness, there is no light, no darkness, no form... it simply
IS and seemingly, exists beyond our grasp, as a field or frequency of indivisible consciousness, which has no dimensional boundaries. :idea:
No experience of this level can be accurately described, let alone proven (although, you gotta love the scientific mind for trying). But please... when finite mind is naught, no words can follow in it's wake. Probably why the illuminated Chinese Sage, Lao Tzu is quoted as saying,
"The Tao which can be described with words is not the eternal Tao."
This plane of consciousness apparently exists as a paradoxical kind of awareness, for it cannot see itself, yet there is every indication
IT is aware of existing; as being eternal. This is the hint that I have gleaned from these transcendental states, upon returning to my subjectivity and trying to wrap my brain around such a level of indivisibility. Obviously, something gets lost in the translation, so forgive my futile attempt to encapsulate this state of reality linguistically. Ironically, when we return to subjective associations (post peaking), the mind immediately seeks to map and project form and parameters upon the experience of immersion into this point of Divinity. You can't really blame the sentient mind, for it is merely being itself,
the watcher. Right? This is the antithesis of the peak moment, however, so we never do really grasp this experience, as the isolated observer CANNOT be present as a reflective witness, to become one with and so exist as, pure light being. In so doing or rather, undoing, the Omniself awakens and knows itself as itself, free of all form as the infinite Void.
Sort of, kind of... oh, I give up. :lol: This is one of my favoritest Zen koans:
"If you see the Buddha on your road to enlightenment, kill him."
