foreversearching
Rising Star
The account of a friend,
FS
I have been searching for something my entire life. I have no idea what it is but I have found it in spice. And I believe they have known for a long time and want me so desperately to learn. Even as I type this now my eyes well up with tears from the overwhelming love and gifts the other side has bestowed upon me recently. Whatever it is they are telling and showing me is not allowed in this realm but they so badly want me to learn it all.
The last two breakthroughs have not included a break- just through. I have been recording myself for personal observation reasons only(I promise the videos will get nowhere near the internet). As my head lays back I see my eyes glaze over as they cross and roll to the top of my skull. I can not do that if I try normally so that in itself is odd. Then I'm gone. Literally, gone. I had a dog bark very loud right next to me in the video and not a stir.
*Which brings up a question I've been wondering about. For those that have said they can open their eyes in hyperspace, did you have to practice at that or is that just how it works for you? because when I am there I feel absolutely no connection to my earthly body.
9 minutes later my body jerks. As I see myself become aware of my body my eyes open and immediately, uncontrollably roll back again and my body starts vibrating. Not convulsing like a seizure or shivering from cold, but vibrating hard. I can remember these moments. The beings that have just given me the privilege to live among them, treating me as one of them, are now smiling, pulling me back to them with their gaze. I can feel the inter-dimensional game of tug-of-war between my friends there and my body here. For almost two full minutes I watched my body struggle to hold onto myself. Every time my eyes would open for a second I would stop shaking, only for it to resume immediately following my eyes looking at that mysterious third eye. I remember yelling at it, trying to use the knowledge they had given me to release me from it's grip... but alas. I am here. Although, it felt so good to get that out and to have such a wonderful group of new friends to share my insane thoughts with makes it all worthwhile.
I don't know it's purpose but watching myself has convinced me the third eye is real. It is the portal through which I can go to my friends and the tether that keeps me from understanding.
FS
I have been searching for something my entire life. I have no idea what it is but I have found it in spice. And I believe they have known for a long time and want me so desperately to learn. Even as I type this now my eyes well up with tears from the overwhelming love and gifts the other side has bestowed upon me recently. Whatever it is they are telling and showing me is not allowed in this realm but they so badly want me to learn it all.
The last two breakthroughs have not included a break- just through. I have been recording myself for personal observation reasons only(I promise the videos will get nowhere near the internet). As my head lays back I see my eyes glaze over as they cross and roll to the top of my skull. I can not do that if I try normally so that in itself is odd. Then I'm gone. Literally, gone. I had a dog bark very loud right next to me in the video and not a stir.
*Which brings up a question I've been wondering about. For those that have said they can open their eyes in hyperspace, did you have to practice at that or is that just how it works for you? because when I am there I feel absolutely no connection to my earthly body.
9 minutes later my body jerks. As I see myself become aware of my body my eyes open and immediately, uncontrollably roll back again and my body starts vibrating. Not convulsing like a seizure or shivering from cold, but vibrating hard. I can remember these moments. The beings that have just given me the privilege to live among them, treating me as one of them, are now smiling, pulling me back to them with their gaze. I can feel the inter-dimensional game of tug-of-war between my friends there and my body here. For almost two full minutes I watched my body struggle to hold onto myself. Every time my eyes would open for a second I would stop shaking, only for it to resume immediately following my eyes looking at that mysterious third eye. I remember yelling at it, trying to use the knowledge they had given me to release me from it's grip... but alas. I am here. Although, it felt so good to get that out and to have such a wonderful group of new friends to share my insane thoughts with makes it all worthwhile.
I don't know it's purpose but watching myself has convinced me the third eye is real. It is the portal through which I can go to my friends and the tether that keeps me from understanding.