Thank you for the replies, and for the reassurance that this entity wants to help me. I want nothing more than to believe that something on the other side actually has an interest in my well being. I seem to have cosmic trust issues  

Once this extract I'm working on is finished, I'm going to give it another go with her. I'm not quite sure how to get over my instinctive aversion to complete surrender, but I have a feeling that a high enough dose should do the trick  . I feel that once I'm able to give into her completely, it will help me a lot in certain trust issues I have in this world.

Thanks again for the responses