quiksilver98
Mike Tripporty
I started out a non-spiriual person who just wanted to trip out and smoke weed. And never questioned anything and jsut thought that everything was in the right hands and there were no problems with society. I then went on a series of msurhoom trips when I got hold of them and that changed my life forever and now here I am one and a half years after my last intense trip.
I am currently practicing to become a shaman practitioner, although I believe I might have the genuine shaman's call. I started out when I was 16 smoking marijuana and wanted to experience Magic Mushrooms (back then I knew nothing of shamans or spirits), and when I turned 17 I finally got hold of some.
When I took them the first time it was just a fun time, I can barely recall it. The second time I took them. I got showered in knowledge about the spirit realm and how babies in a mothers stomach got their spirit I also learned about the tree of life(divides physical and Spirit realms). I also learned about the way people choose to run their life and how oblivious they can be toward certain aspects of life.
When I took them the third time I realized that life in western culture is a complete failure and that the reality that these people bring on themselves is fake and just leeches from mother earth. I also learned that just because what percieve as reality isnt necessarily actualality and that mdoern culture is just a closed up group of people disconnected to the earth. Then I took them again about week later and passed out while I was standing. I was lfying through hallways until my friend slapped me until I was awake and had 911 dialed on the phone ready to press talk. I instantly started freaking out and bad tripping. I felt poisoned and felt loss of control. I eventually got out of it and managed to sleep.
The next time I took it was Canada Day and it was shear impulse and before they even came up I started getting a panic reaction and felt I had made myself trapped. About 2 weeks after this I developed general anxiety disorder (what westerners call it) and get random bouts of fear. I get fear especially when I get weird feeling around my body or when I feel vulnerable.Its a feeling of impending doom and loosing control, I think I have angered the plant spirits with my abuse of mushrooms.
Since then I have tripped once but it was a minor trip not even worthy of calling it a trip. I also have smoked DMT (6 months ago) but I lit it wrong and I got the body buzz and felt it potentiate but then it jsut came down. Since then I havent done any heavy psychedelic as I simply am too scarred and fearful ebcause of my anxieties form the bad trips.
I did learn a lot from those days. I understand to this day that the world in modern culture is a fake paradise and that there reality is only percieved to be real but is slowly killing the earth. I get very psychic moments where ill think about something with a friend and the phone will ring and it will be that friend concerning the matter I was thinking about. Or I will think I see sometin out the corner of my eye and it quickly goes away. Or I will be thinking the same thing as someone else randomly, but constantly. I recently stopped smoking pot because im aware that a good shaman is also groudned when he needs to be and pot leaves residual effects for days after. So I gave up my joyeus habit for my spiritual growth as a man of knowledge.
Here at the nexus I want to be able to share my experiences and possibly help where I can with other people's difficult experiences. I want to learn as much as possible from people who actually know truth from non-materialistic people. I want to help and give my insight to help the community grow and also stand up for whats right. I am very vastly educated about the brain and drugs and how shamans in particular conduct there practice, I am very good at psychology and udnerstanding the death-rebirth experiences that Stanislav Grof talks about.
Ultimately, witht he help of my friend here on the forum and around me where im at, expeand and take the entheogens to helps heal people to travel the universe, to obtain knowledge, to gain a higher awareness.
That is my two-bits! Thanks for the read!
I am currently practicing to become a shaman practitioner, although I believe I might have the genuine shaman's call. I started out when I was 16 smoking marijuana and wanted to experience Magic Mushrooms (back then I knew nothing of shamans or spirits), and when I turned 17 I finally got hold of some.
When I took them the first time it was just a fun time, I can barely recall it. The second time I took them. I got showered in knowledge about the spirit realm and how babies in a mothers stomach got their spirit I also learned about the tree of life(divides physical and Spirit realms). I also learned about the way people choose to run their life and how oblivious they can be toward certain aspects of life.
When I took them the third time I realized that life in western culture is a complete failure and that the reality that these people bring on themselves is fake and just leeches from mother earth. I also learned that just because what percieve as reality isnt necessarily actualality and that mdoern culture is just a closed up group of people disconnected to the earth. Then I took them again about week later and passed out while I was standing. I was lfying through hallways until my friend slapped me until I was awake and had 911 dialed on the phone ready to press talk. I instantly started freaking out and bad tripping. I felt poisoned and felt loss of control. I eventually got out of it and managed to sleep.
The next time I took it was Canada Day and it was shear impulse and before they even came up I started getting a panic reaction and felt I had made myself trapped. About 2 weeks after this I developed general anxiety disorder (what westerners call it) and get random bouts of fear. I get fear especially when I get weird feeling around my body or when I feel vulnerable.Its a feeling of impending doom and loosing control, I think I have angered the plant spirits with my abuse of mushrooms.
Since then I have tripped once but it was a minor trip not even worthy of calling it a trip. I also have smoked DMT (6 months ago) but I lit it wrong and I got the body buzz and felt it potentiate but then it jsut came down. Since then I havent done any heavy psychedelic as I simply am too scarred and fearful ebcause of my anxieties form the bad trips.
I did learn a lot from those days. I understand to this day that the world in modern culture is a fake paradise and that there reality is only percieved to be real but is slowly killing the earth. I get very psychic moments where ill think about something with a friend and the phone will ring and it will be that friend concerning the matter I was thinking about. Or I will think I see sometin out the corner of my eye and it quickly goes away. Or I will be thinking the same thing as someone else randomly, but constantly. I recently stopped smoking pot because im aware that a good shaman is also groudned when he needs to be and pot leaves residual effects for days after. So I gave up my joyeus habit for my spiritual growth as a man of knowledge.
Here at the nexus I want to be able to share my experiences and possibly help where I can with other people's difficult experiences. I want to learn as much as possible from people who actually know truth from non-materialistic people. I want to help and give my insight to help the community grow and also stand up for whats right. I am very vastly educated about the brain and drugs and how shamans in particular conduct there practice, I am very good at psychology and udnerstanding the death-rebirth experiences that Stanislav Grof talks about.
Ultimately, witht he help of my friend here on the forum and around me where im at, expeand and take the entheogens to helps heal people to travel the universe, to obtain knowledge, to gain a higher awareness.
That is my two-bits! Thanks for the read!
