Thanks for the warm welcome ObsidianKnife!
Those are the questions I've always asked, I am glad you agree they should be asked
Also glad you're a seeker as well. I, too concentrated on my career and making sense of this simulation, but I've always made time for research, reading, talking, watching. It's been a decade long process of getting from my first experience to where I am now. Just keep at it, visualize your success, don't focus on the obstacles as obstacles or they become obstacles that you yourself while find difficult to move.
As far as LSD and Mescaline, I have to say I haven't gone down that path in a very long time, not since the spice. I am glad you find them powerful teachers. I was perhaps not ready to learn. There was a lot of growing up I needed to do in order to find my way. Mushrooms were much more my style. I can't say for certain that I will or won't revisit those others, we shall see!
As far as the spice, I've come to be aware that I am called to go there when I am ready to go there. The experience will not be taken for granted by any means unless you yourself feel you might take it for granted and therefore the possibility of that coming true becomes exponential simply by your suggestion. Look within that inner voice. If it says "sure let's take a voyage with the spice and let's see what adventures it brings!" listen to it! If it says the opposite, then you know what to do
You have infinite knowledge within yourself that you have access to if you so choose to access it. Take your experiences as often as or as little as you want. Only you can decide what is most beneficial for you and I support you in all your wisdom of yourself!
As far as the insectoid experience you mentioned, I can safely say that I have had the same. I will post my experience with the Mantis Mother in the "experiences section" and I will reply to you here so that you can have an easy look! I can't wait to recall it and I am looking forward to your interpretations and perhaps similarities if there are any beyond the insectoid. And you're very welcome! I am happy I can share my experiences here.
I do not have a background in anything really. I am a college drop out who barely graduated high school, with no degrees. I love to read and educate myself in things I find fascinating. I am an artist and musician and I find success when I need it most
I love to read and I only experiment with the upmost safety of those around me and of course myself top of mind. I quite literally just read and read and read until I was able to successfully synthesize my own spice successfully on my first physical try. There was a lot of positive thinking and mental visualization that I would succeed. And I did! This is how I pursue my life journeys. If I want to succeed, I will think of the goal, visualize it to fruition (simulate success and the failures that lead to said success) and then manifest it. We ALL have this ability!
I hope that answers your questions! Oh and as far as ayahuasca, it's downright simple to brew, but t's a 12 hour process and it needs love and care.
You will succeed in your career, pay your bills and get to do a lot more with YOU when you are ready. Only you know how to do what you want to do. We are our own best medicine 