So I am not quite sure how to start this. I am curious as to what is happening, and I'm not exactly sure how it works. Figured maybe someone has their own idea or something...
So I have had a handful of experiences on DMT where a thought or idea or fear that entered my mind within a small time period before dosing (0-10min?) effected my experience. I'm going to need to read through some of my past experiences to be able to give more than one example but here is my most recent one.
I've had two experiences where I was worried about the possibility that something could be wrong with my DMT for stupid reasons that are not logical, due to my limited experience with chemistry. This thought entered into my experience, in such a way that it was the theme or was shown to me.
On one occasion, just recently, some of the entities were coughing and hacking like they were sick and throwing up. I communicated to them that I didnt think anything could be wrong, and they continued to tell me and show me that its bad, dont use that stuff anymore. It will hurt you. I reasoned with them but always had this convincing thought in my head, planted by them, that it was the truth. Something was wrong with my DMT.
When I was loading my gvg with that dose in particular, I noticed some of my DMT had formed into a thumb sized chunk. Also, it seems strange to me that it changed smells. Smells nothing like the vapor does. And that dose the vapor now smells like the crystals.
This isnt my concern though, Im curious as to the mechanism as to how the experience pulls this thought out of my head, and why it intensifies my fears or ideas.
Anyone else experience this kind of thing? I theorize that there is a time limit on memory that enters in. Because other things that happened that day have yet to enter into my experiences.
I have also dosed a new batch and the experience was much weaker than it should have been, and the experience was telling me something was wrong with it or in it.
(I'm actually not afraid of whats in my DMT, its just hard to KNOW even though I extracted it)
So I have had a handful of experiences on DMT where a thought or idea or fear that entered my mind within a small time period before dosing (0-10min?) effected my experience. I'm going to need to read through some of my past experiences to be able to give more than one example but here is my most recent one.
I've had two experiences where I was worried about the possibility that something could be wrong with my DMT for stupid reasons that are not logical, due to my limited experience with chemistry. This thought entered into my experience, in such a way that it was the theme or was shown to me.
On one occasion, just recently, some of the entities were coughing and hacking like they were sick and throwing up. I communicated to them that I didnt think anything could be wrong, and they continued to tell me and show me that its bad, dont use that stuff anymore. It will hurt you. I reasoned with them but always had this convincing thought in my head, planted by them, that it was the truth. Something was wrong with my DMT.
When I was loading my gvg with that dose in particular, I noticed some of my DMT had formed into a thumb sized chunk. Also, it seems strange to me that it changed smells. Smells nothing like the vapor does. And that dose the vapor now smells like the crystals.
This isnt my concern though, Im curious as to the mechanism as to how the experience pulls this thought out of my head, and why it intensifies my fears or ideas.
Anyone else experience this kind of thing? I theorize that there is a time limit on memory that enters in. Because other things that happened that day have yet to enter into my experiences.
I have also dosed a new batch and the experience was much weaker than it should have been, and the experience was telling me something was wrong with it or in it.
(I'm actually not afraid of whats in my DMT, its just hard to KNOW even though I extracted it)