risingupfromtheash
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awhile back I had a moment when I was at home on acid that terrified me: a thought appeared in my head and it said "you're alone"
somehow managed to fall asleep, I don't remember much after having the thought itself.
pretty sure this was derived from some inherent trauma from childhood... emotional neglect. abandonment type issues.
hasn't given me too many issues until recently. occasionally in groups of people I'll feel alone but more recently I get attached to people super easy and trauma dump till they run away, assuming I'm a psycho no doubt.
I've been taking ketamine to work through a lot of issues I've been having because it kind of allows me to slow down my thought processes, really ingrained shit, to object and say "hey... maybe it'll be better if you look at it like X"
trouble is, ket doesn't allow for permanent changes. ...if it does, it takes forever and I'm not gonna live that long. I'd like to combine ket therapy with, to start, some micro doses of acid, maybe eventually working my way up to full hits.
anyone have any wisdom to offer on this type of thing? It's not as if I'm inexperienced, but I'd love to hear from more experienced users.
an acquaintance that I met recently (and subsequently scared away lol) inspired me to join the dark webs in search of what I seek after I briefly explained the situation and they sagely advised that acid kind of allows them a bloodless battle with themselves and that shit spoke to me. it's exactly what I've been doing and it makes me want to jump back in to make the changes I need in my life. but yeah, that's my piece.
What say yii?
somehow managed to fall asleep, I don't remember much after having the thought itself.
pretty sure this was derived from some inherent trauma from childhood... emotional neglect. abandonment type issues.
hasn't given me too many issues until recently. occasionally in groups of people I'll feel alone but more recently I get attached to people super easy and trauma dump till they run away, assuming I'm a psycho no doubt.
I've been taking ketamine to work through a lot of issues I've been having because it kind of allows me to slow down my thought processes, really ingrained shit, to object and say "hey... maybe it'll be better if you look at it like X"
trouble is, ket doesn't allow for permanent changes. ...if it does, it takes forever and I'm not gonna live that long. I'd like to combine ket therapy with, to start, some micro doses of acid, maybe eventually working my way up to full hits.
anyone have any wisdom to offer on this type of thing? It's not as if I'm inexperienced, but I'd love to hear from more experienced users.
an acquaintance that I met recently (and subsequently scared away lol) inspired me to join the dark webs in search of what I seek after I briefly explained the situation and they sagely advised that acid kind of allows them a bloodless battle with themselves and that shit spoke to me. it's exactly what I've been doing and it makes me want to jump back in to make the changes I need in my life. but yeah, that's my piece.
What say yii?